I feel like I've lost my way.

[UDDTHU]

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"Hello again, my friends. I'll get straight to the point. As I mentioned in my previous post, I recently went through a heartbreak in my relationship and felt really bad—I completely lost my motivation and interest in everything, and I even got a bit addicted to smoking again. (But I know I can quit it again.)

I had a structured plan for my self-improvement, but after everything that happened and the emotional setbacks I experienced, I drifted off my path for almost a month. Now, I want to come back stronger than before and continue my journey of self-growth. However, I feel guilty and disappointed in myself for not staying committed to my path. I also feel like the gods might be somewhat upset with me, or maybe it’s just my own guilt and regret making me feel this way.

I recently read that the Final RTR is finally complete. Over the past two years, I practiced it for at least one year, but I feel like it wasn’t enough. I also feel guilty for not being able to perform the ritual more often.
If I return, will the gods help me again? How can I make up for my mistakes?

 

[Renita]

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"Hello again, my friends. I'll get straight to the point. As I mentioned in my previous post, I recently went through a heartbreak in my relationship and felt really bad—I completely lost my motivation and interest in everything, and I even got a bit addicted to smoking again. (But I know I can quit it again.)

I had a structured plan for my self-improvement, but after everything that happened and the emotional setbacks I experienced, I drifted off my path for almost a month. Now, I want to come back stronger than before and continue my journey of self-growth. However, I feel guilty and disappointed in myself for not staying committed to my path. I also feel like the gods might be somewhat upset with me, or maybe it’s just my own guilt and regret making me feel this way.

I recently read that the Final RTR is finally complete. Over the past two years, I practiced it for at least one year, but I feel like it wasn’t enough. I also feel guilty for not being able to perform the ritual more often.
If I return, will the gods help me again? How can I make up for my mistakes?

Messing up on the path, is more than a normal occurrence, especially after such a horrid and heartbreaking experience (I hope you the best in recovering <3). I myself felt like a failure after my dog's death and not meditating that morning. Remember yes you didn't meditate and you WILL feel guilty, but that does not mean you failed the whole path. Yes it was a small hitch-up and you went back to your bad habits, but as long as you choose to go back, and you do put in the effort to keep going there is no issue with the mess up. Spiritual Satanism is about learning, growing and becoming a better person, and eventually your own God. Everyone makes mistakes, and as long as you learn and become better through those experiences, there is nothing to be ashamed of.

The God's are always there for us, and they know the things we don't even know about our own selves. They will always support and help you through any pain or issues on your path. Now, if you messed up and chose to stay in the cycle of negativity and bad habits, that would another deal.

but I feel like it wasn’t enough.

Remember, you choosing to see the truth and even just being here is already more than 90% of the human population has done for themselves and the world. EVERYONES effort here is put into the work as a whole.

If I return, will the gods help me again? How can I make up for my mistakes?

They are always here for us, always. Get back into meditating, but don't overdo it, become better, learn of what helps and what doesent. The God's will always guide us. Get back on the path and heal yourself from the pain, it is the best feeling. Just say "fuck it" and do what you need to do. Tell yourself "this is what I WANT and NEED".

Good luck and welcome back <3 HAIL SATAN!!

 

[Way_Seeker666]

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"Hello again, my friends. I'll get straight to the point. As I mentioned in my previous post, I recently went through a heartbreak in my relationship and felt really bad—I completely lost my motivation and interest in everything, and I even got a bit addicted to smoking again. (But I know I can quit it again.)

I had a structured plan for my self-improvement, but after everything that happened and the emotional setbacks I experienced, I drifted off my path for almost a month. Now, I want to come back stronger than before and continue my journey of self-growth. However, I feel guilty and disappointed in myself for not staying committed to my path. I also feel like the gods might be somewhat upset with me, or maybe it’s just my own guilt and regret making me feel this way.

I recently read that the Final RTR is finally complete. Over the past two years, I practiced it for at least one year, but I feel like it wasn’t enough. I also feel guilty for not being able to perform the ritual more often.
If I return, will the gods help me again? How can I make up for my mistakes?

There's no use in beating yourself up. Guilt in this case is not a punishment, it's a driving force to do better. Just get going on the path again, do what's best for yourself and the world as best you are able. That's what the Gods want for you - what's best for you. They will be glad to see you pick yourself up and get back on track and they will be there for you and with you as before.
All of us have messed up, fallen, strayed, made many mistakes. It's part of being human and learning and growing and it's ok as long as you do the other part by getting back up and getting back on your path, every time and the sooner the better.
All the best brother!

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I had a structured plan for my self-improvement, but after everything that happened and the emotional setbacks I experienced, I drifted off my path for almost a month. (...)

I recently read that the Final RTR is finally complete. Over the past two years, I practiced it for at least one year, but I feel like it wasn’t enough. I also feel guilty for not being able to perform the ritual more often.
If I return, will the gods help me again? How can I make up for my mistakes?

To be honest, a month of "chaos" in your path does not mean you quit. You seem thinking that you abandoned the Gods for some reasons, but indeed you are here on the forums planning to continue, I don't perceive you abandoned anyone. You had a huge problem in your love life, this may hit hard.
If a boxer on the ring is shot down once and then, in the next ring, he is still there to combat again - does this mean he quit the championship? No.

Feeling guilty and "not enough" is way present in many people emotions, due to the education, programming, advertising, etc. that people daily receive. Often with the minimal problem people start to question their value. We are SS but we are not immune from emotional common problems, especially after an abrupt end of a relationship. Feeling guilty most likely comes from that, do not underestimate consequences of being left.

As a practical advice, I found that the rune Wunjo vibrated daily in the hearth chakra, helps to better this kind of emotional states, promoting better mood.

 

[Lucifigus]

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"Hello again, my friends. I'll get straight to the point. As I mentioned in my previous post, I recently went through a heartbreak in my relationship and felt really bad—I completely lost my motivation and interest in everything, and I even got a bit addicted to smoking again. (But I know I can quit it again.)

I had a structured plan for my self-improvement, but after everything that happened and the emotional setbacks I experienced, I drifted off my path for almost a month. Now, I want to come back stronger than before and continue my journey of self-growth. However, I feel guilty and disappointed in myself for not staying committed to my path. I also feel like the gods might be somewhat upset with me, or maybe it’s just my own guilt and regret making me feel this way.

I recently read that the Final RTR is finally complete. Over the past two years, I practiced it for at least one year, but I feel like it wasn’t enough. I also feel guilty for not being able to perform the ritual more often.
If I return, will the gods help me again? How can I make up for my mistakes?

You can do other things for Satan when FRTRs are no more necessary. You can translate JoS website in your language, for example.

 

[Asra]

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"Hello again, my friends. I'll get straight to the point. As I mentioned in my previous post, I recently went through a heartbreak in my relationship and felt really bad—I completely lost my motivation and interest in everything, and I even got a bit addicted to smoking again. (But I know I can quit it again.)

I had a structured plan for my self-improvement, but after everything that happened and the emotional setbacks I experienced, I drifted off my path for almost a month. Now, I want to come back stronger than before and continue my journey of self-growth. However, I feel guilty and disappointed in myself for not staying committed to my path. I also feel like the gods might be somewhat upset with me, or maybe it’s just my own guilt and regret making me feel this way.

I recently read that the Final RTR is finally complete. Over the past two years, I practiced it for at least one year, but I feel like it wasn’t enough. I also feel guilty for not being able to perform the ritual more often.
If I return, will the gods help me again? How can I make up for my mistakes?

Quitting permanently after a single setback is like carrying a plate full of objects across the room - you accidentally drop one or a few of them, and instead of going on to your destination, you stop dead in your tracks and hurl the whole plate on the floor, halting all your progress. Quitting is way worse than getting over a singular mistake you made.

Yes, the Gods will help you if you return, They want all of us to advance. The Gods are not the kind of beings to hold grudges against a well-intentioned member who happened to stray because of personal difficulties. They are superior beings and too good for that.
And it's better not to dwell on whether what you did for the FRTR was enough. The FRTR's job is nevertheless done now, and you can focus on other matters like blessings and Gods Rituals.

Also, a personal advice, about the smoking part, go back to keeping that in check as soon as possible. Everyone has the impression they can quit whenever they want, but it's often lies they tell themselves.

I wish the best to you.

 

[HadesWithin666]

Everyone has the impression they can quit whenever they want, but it's often lies they tell themselves.

I been an addict, smoking for 5 years straight daily , I quit on the spot on 8th of January, it is possible , if one wants , he can do it anytime he puts his own WILL to do so.

Those things such as ' one needs to cut low and low before final result ' are just excuses and lies that will only lead people to keep staying in the wrong path.

 

[UDDTHU]

Hello friends.
Thank you all for helping me. I have quit smoking for a week. I feel better. I have also started my journey seriously.
Hail Lord Lucifer
Hail Zeus

 

[Asra]

That's why I said often. What you're saying is indeed possible, but not everyone has the willpower for that, realistically. It would be ideal if everyone could quit all of a sudden, but not everyone is capable of doing that. It's impressive when someone does.