I don't like myself.(Vent)

[♪⛦Ivy⛦♪]

I fucking hate myself. I just don't want to be here. I often think of suicide and cutting myself. I've tried multiple times to kill myself. I still, to this day, struggle with self harm. I also don't like my body. I'm on antidepressants, and i'm on ADHD meds. I don't know whats going on. Does anyone have any tips for me? I really want to kill myself but I just can't bring myself to die.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I fucking hate myself. I just don't want to be here. I often think of suicide and cutting myself. I've tried multiple times to kill myself. I still, to this day, struggle with self harm. I also don't like my body. I'm on antidepressants, and i'm on ADHD meds. I don't know whats going on. Does anyone have any tips for me? I really want to kill myself but I just can't bring myself to die.

Please see the other thread where I left a reply. It is very likely you are having a response to the trauma you had experienced, which then "bubbles out" and manifests psychologically in these ways. None of this is your fault that it occurred to you, but ultimately, you are the only one who can heal yourself.

If you cannot bring yourself to love yourself, at least give yourself a chance to heal, which takes time but will happen, and this will allow the realization(s) of newfound hope and aspirations through which you will then base your desire to live around.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I fucking hate myself. I just don't want to be here. I often think of suicide and cutting myself. I've tried multiple times to kill myself. I still, to this day, struggle with self harm. I also don't like my body. I'm on antidepressants, and i'm on ADHD meds. I don't know whats going on. Does anyone have any tips for me? I really want to kill myself but I just can't bring myself to die.

Can I ask you something?
I know that you think you deserve hate and pain, and that you would like to commit suicide because you feel wrong and that existing is a harm. I know.
But can I ask you...

Why if you really are just something wrong here and deserve hate do you think that Satan, when he decided to reincarnate those who have been with him in the past, decided to reincarnate you as well if it were true that you are a burden in this world? And why do you think that if you really deserve hate and pain, he made you come here, on JoS, in a place where you will be given a helping hand to get better and that definition deals as a support to the growth of your person?

Why do you think Satan has taken care of you? I don't think Satan can't recognize who deserves love and who doesn't. I think more that it is the people who have mistreated you who don't know how to do that.