Catalincata94
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I fucking hate when people pray for me and i caught two of them.
Today i was having all kinds of thoughts like i'm not supposed to be here and doubts about Satanism.
I asked Satan why i have these thought then after some time i found and listened to a sermon whit Maxine and she was talking about how others where preying for her and also this is why people have doubts about Satanism and i remembered that i knew about this and also that i have a relative my aunt and uncle that are chistards that fucking pray and i think they read the bible too, i called my aunt and asked her if she was praying for me, i said "Answer me honesty, where you praying for me?" She said yes and and i said "Don't pray for me because i dont the need the help of god or of the angels" (i didn't said that i'm a Satanist) and that "this is my choice that i don't need the help of god because i know when somone prays for me and i don't need it" she said something like "It's not your business for who i pray, i can pray for anyone i wan't" then i got angry and told her if she continues to pray for me then she won't put foot ever again in this house and she asked me is that your house and and said no but it will be... anyway afther this i had a bad feeling like i shouldn't talk to her like that but i think she deserves it and also that i shoud say that i'm sorry and say it nicely but i can't accept this she is parying for me and i'm fucking geting crazy because of that and i'm sure she prayed for me for a year or two, once i told my mother to tell her to not to pray for me if she does because i don't need her help (i'm not a christard) but no even then she was like "no its not your business for who i pray".
There was another christard, my psychiatrist that i left in september and once i was talking to her and she told me that she is praying for her fucking patients and she was talking about other fuckchrist bullshit.
I feel better now.
My aunt said she is fine with that but didn't understand if she meant she is fine to not to pray anymore for me or she is fine not to put foot in this house any more. So i forgot to ask her if she stops preying for me or not. If she continues to pray for me i'm gonna kill her with magic. Just wait until i get better.
Today i was having all kinds of thoughts like i'm not supposed to be here and doubts about Satanism.
I asked Satan why i have these thought then after some time i found and listened to a sermon whit Maxine and she was talking about how others where preying for her and also this is why people have doubts about Satanism and i remembered that i knew about this and also that i have a relative my aunt and uncle that are chistards that fucking pray and i think they read the bible too, i called my aunt and asked her if she was praying for me, i said "Answer me honesty, where you praying for me?" She said yes and and i said "Don't pray for me because i dont the need the help of god or of the angels" (i didn't said that i'm a Satanist) and that "this is my choice that i don't need the help of god because i know when somone prays for me and i don't need it" she said something like "It's not your business for who i pray, i can pray for anyone i wan't" then i got angry and told her if she continues to pray for me then she won't put foot ever again in this house and she asked me is that your house and and said no but it will be... anyway afther this i had a bad feeling like i shouldn't talk to her like that but i think she deserves it and also that i shoud say that i'm sorry and say it nicely but i can't accept this she is parying for me and i'm fucking geting crazy because of that and i'm sure she prayed for me for a year or two, once i told my mother to tell her to not to pray for me if she does because i don't need her help (i'm not a christard) but no even then she was like "no its not your business for who i pray".
There was another christard, my psychiatrist that i left in september and once i was talking to her and she told me that she is praying for her fucking patients and she was talking about other fuckchrist bullshit.
I feel better now.
My aunt said she is fine with that but didn't understand if she meant she is fine to not to pray anymore for me or she is fine not to put foot in this house any more. So i forgot to ask her if she stops preying for me or not. If she continues to pray for me i'm gonna kill her with magic. Just wait until i get better.