serpentwalker666
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I have decided it would be best to share how in life, just how bad we can get knocked down so others understand it's never okay to just give up and let suffering overtake them.
Sometimes becuase of karmic imprints and astrological circumstances present at birth,, we may get royally fucked for a majority of our lives, with just a few moments of peace in between.
My life is a testament to these situations and circumstances, and I am here to tell you why it's never okay to just throw in the towel and give up.
I feel as if Andras wants me to share this, so others may understand that anything can be overcome.
With Satan and this path we have the means to move forward and fix seemingly irrepairable circumstances even if this closes in on decades of mistakes, health problems, and toxic enviroments and people layered on top of everything.
From the time I was young, i was a very sick individual physically. When I was born, My mother and I almost died at birth. A premature baby that was weak and clinging to life for many years.
Even as a young child I had trouble eating and could barely function. I would go to school sick with digestive problems, fatigue and an inability to focus.
Compound this with a very toxic home life, irresponsible parents who never formed a real connection with me unless it was to try to mold me as a person, let alone even loved eachother, and you have a recipe for a miserable home life.
All the kids would fuck with me. Never able to defend myself because I was weak.
In and out of the hospital from the time I was a young boy, no doctor could diagnose me, yet I was always weak and sick left with no answers. I would argue with my controlling father from the time I was very young, and we never got along even to this day.
As you can guess, because of these weaknesses, I have ended up reliant and dependent on people in my life for help for long periods. This was for some time.
Unfortunately, all these people seen me as weak, lazy, and incompetent.
There was a long period of time in my life where all I felt was rage. Against everything and life for putting me in these circumstances.
Intolerable cirucmstances were always right behind me, nipping at my heel with no escape but to turn and face it. Whether it be arguments and problems from other people in my life, which was constant for decades, along with from my own limited capabilites as a person.
When it came time to finish high school, I came home one day, and nearly collapsed. I broke out in a cold sweat and felt like I was having a heart attack.
I found out a week or so later I had a congenital heart disease. With heart surgery this was corrected. I had to drop out of high school, and
ended up being stuck with my controlling parents who practically left me in the house for 5 years and neevr took me anywhere, always treating me like some failure, or incompetent wreck.
Yet for years I still was very sick, would walk out to my mailbox and nearly collapse and wouldn't be able to catch my breath, hospitals and cardiologists had no answers, and could never even help me.
Still. I chose to persist. Had a case to get on disability for this. I had a stack of papers so thick, they were practically a book. Can you guess what happened next?
Denied every single time for 5 years. Even though it was apparent I couldn't work, there was no chance for me to get on this, or even have a fucking penny, and being left destitute was glaring to me as my future and almost inevitable fate.
It took me some time to really face my fate. I knew I had to get on my feet or I would end up homeless and a broken man.. I contended and understood this.
The wisdom I hve here for you is this.. WHEN LIFE FUCKS YOU SO HARD, THAT YOU ARE LYING IN THE DIRT. YOU MUST GET UP AND FIGHT!
No matter how many times I fell, and I STILL fall. I chose to persist or DIE. And here I am.
I have taken alot of time to focus on education and spiritual practice, workings for years. And here I am, right at the turning point of change, so close to a better future I never thought I could have!!
Just a few more bricks as I build my future, and I'LL BE ON MY FEET, NEVER TO BE IN THAT HOLE I WAS FOR DECADES!
I'll have money, and my life will be together. For once ill have something, instead of close to nothing.
I'll be employed with a decent job for once, and by the Gods, Praise Satan for what he has given me!
Hail Satan and the Gods for who with, anything is truly possible.
Hail to High Priestess Maxine Dietrich, and High Priest Hooded Cobra.
Hail to all dedicated brothers and sisters in Satan.
From the depths of my soul, I thank you. I see the bright future ahead of me and that hope exists.
Sometimes becuase of karmic imprints and astrological circumstances present at birth,, we may get royally fucked for a majority of our lives, with just a few moments of peace in between.
My life is a testament to these situations and circumstances, and I am here to tell you why it's never okay to just throw in the towel and give up.
I feel as if Andras wants me to share this, so others may understand that anything can be overcome.
With Satan and this path we have the means to move forward and fix seemingly irrepairable circumstances even if this closes in on decades of mistakes, health problems, and toxic enviroments and people layered on top of everything.
From the time I was young, i was a very sick individual physically. When I was born, My mother and I almost died at birth. A premature baby that was weak and clinging to life for many years.
Even as a young child I had trouble eating and could barely function. I would go to school sick with digestive problems, fatigue and an inability to focus.
Compound this with a very toxic home life, irresponsible parents who never formed a real connection with me unless it was to try to mold me as a person, let alone even loved eachother, and you have a recipe for a miserable home life.
All the kids would fuck with me. Never able to defend myself because I was weak.
In and out of the hospital from the time I was a young boy, no doctor could diagnose me, yet I was always weak and sick left with no answers. I would argue with my controlling father from the time I was very young, and we never got along even to this day.
As you can guess, because of these weaknesses, I have ended up reliant and dependent on people in my life for help for long periods. This was for some time.
Unfortunately, all these people seen me as weak, lazy, and incompetent.
There was a long period of time in my life where all I felt was rage. Against everything and life for putting me in these circumstances.
Intolerable cirucmstances were always right behind me, nipping at my heel with no escape but to turn and face it. Whether it be arguments and problems from other people in my life, which was constant for decades, along with from my own limited capabilites as a person.
When it came time to finish high school, I came home one day, and nearly collapsed. I broke out in a cold sweat and felt like I was having a heart attack.
I found out a week or so later I had a congenital heart disease. With heart surgery this was corrected. I had to drop out of high school, and
ended up being stuck with my controlling parents who practically left me in the house for 5 years and neevr took me anywhere, always treating me like some failure, or incompetent wreck.
Yet for years I still was very sick, would walk out to my mailbox and nearly collapse and wouldn't be able to catch my breath, hospitals and cardiologists had no answers, and could never even help me.
Still. I chose to persist. Had a case to get on disability for this. I had a stack of papers so thick, they were practically a book. Can you guess what happened next?
Denied every single time for 5 years. Even though it was apparent I couldn't work, there was no chance for me to get on this, or even have a fucking penny, and being left destitute was glaring to me as my future and almost inevitable fate.
It took me some time to really face my fate. I knew I had to get on my feet or I would end up homeless and a broken man.. I contended and understood this.
The wisdom I hve here for you is this.. WHEN LIFE FUCKS YOU SO HARD, THAT YOU ARE LYING IN THE DIRT. YOU MUST GET UP AND FIGHT!
No matter how many times I fell, and I STILL fall. I chose to persist or DIE. And here I am.
I have taken alot of time to focus on education and spiritual practice, workings for years. And here I am, right at the turning point of change, so close to a better future I never thought I could have!!
Just a few more bricks as I build my future, and I'LL BE ON MY FEET, NEVER TO BE IN THAT HOLE I WAS FOR DECADES!
I'll have money, and my life will be together. For once ill have something, instead of close to nothing.
I'll be employed with a decent job for once, and by the Gods, Praise Satan for what he has given me!
Hail Satan and the Gods for who with, anything is truly possible.
Hail to High Priestess Maxine Dietrich, and High Priest Hooded Cobra.
Hail to all dedicated brothers and sisters in Satan.
From the depths of my soul, I thank you. I see the bright future ahead of me and that hope exists.