MercuryWisdom
Well-known member
Hey, brothers and sisters.
I wanted to open this topic right now since I was a little down and feeling empty for a bit.
How can I build a future where I am happy, strong, and advanced?
I think I'm really young. Especially for the kinds of responsibilities I am carrying at my age. The kind of pain I have went through due to the people I loved, etc. Also, the fact, I haven't advanced really I had some periods of openess and continous meditation. But right now I have nothing to show for it either.
I am really busy with studies, work, my poor mental health and emotional issues, etc.
Sometimes, I just wonder. How did Hps Maxine do it? How did she have multiple issues financially, major depression (suicidal thoughts too.), being homeless at some point, working multiple full-time jobs besides building JoS and still being able to elevate and advance to the highest degree. She is now free from her past.
I don't know I just feel stuck I am trying but I am not sure I am going anywhere.
I can't have the type of love, friendships, wealth my soul craves either.
How can I be free? How can I advance? How can I be happy?
Can I be happy? Can I one day be advanced, communicate clearly to the Gods, my lover, and have full access to my spiritual gifts?
Can I have friends that not only accept and understand me but also are loyal and got my back instead of the so many friends that stabbed it?
Can I be free and wealthy? Can my loved ones that betrayed and hated me because of religion one day understand that they have wronged me?
I am not sure really. I try everyday. But I don't feel happy... I am not free.. Am I really loved either? The scars I have tell me that I am not. My soul feels caged. I am not able to be me.
I wanted to open this topic right now since I was a little down and feeling empty for a bit.
How can I build a future where I am happy, strong, and advanced?
I think I'm really young. Especially for the kinds of responsibilities I am carrying at my age. The kind of pain I have went through due to the people I loved, etc. Also, the fact, I haven't advanced really I had some periods of openess and continous meditation. But right now I have nothing to show for it either.
I am really busy with studies, work, my poor mental health and emotional issues, etc.
Sometimes, I just wonder. How did Hps Maxine do it? How did she have multiple issues financially, major depression (suicidal thoughts too.), being homeless at some point, working multiple full-time jobs besides building JoS and still being able to elevate and advance to the highest degree. She is now free from her past.
I don't know I just feel stuck I am trying but I am not sure I am going anywhere.
I can't have the type of love, friendships, wealth my soul craves either.
How can I be free? How can I advance? How can I be happy?
Can I be happy? Can I one day be advanced, communicate clearly to the Gods, my lover, and have full access to my spiritual gifts?
Can I have friends that not only accept and understand me but also are loyal and got my back instead of the so many friends that stabbed it?
Can I be free and wealthy? Can my loved ones that betrayed and hated me because of religion one day understand that they have wronged me?
I am not sure really. I try everyday. But I don't feel happy... I am not free.. Am I really loved either? The scars I have tell me that I am not. My soul feels caged. I am not able to be me.