Solider of suns
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Hi everyone, thanks for taking the time to read.
I get frustrated and feel blocked in my thinking like my mind isn’t free and is trapped inside a delusion. The delusion is that I must not think certain thoughts like rude thoughts directed to the gods even though I can’t help it or thoughts about Christianity or Christ. I don’t actually believe in Christ but my subconscious does. I feel very strangled in my mind and feel guilty and not quite as free as I would like to be. I know it’s a delusion but it can at times be hard to break. Any suggestions on how I could overcome my fear of being rude to the gods and overcoming the fear that I may connect or go back to Christianity in some sense. I know there just thoughts but they seem magnified and important.
Thank you. Btw I’m schizophrenic!
I get frustrated and feel blocked in my thinking like my mind isn’t free and is trapped inside a delusion. The delusion is that I must not think certain thoughts like rude thoughts directed to the gods even though I can’t help it or thoughts about Christianity or Christ. I don’t actually believe in Christ but my subconscious does. I feel very strangled in my mind and feel guilty and not quite as free as I would like to be. I know it’s a delusion but it can at times be hard to break. Any suggestions on how I could overcome my fear of being rude to the gods and overcoming the fear that I may connect or go back to Christianity in some sense. I know there just thoughts but they seem magnified and important.
Thank you. Btw I’m schizophrenic!
