How did you discover the joyofsatan page?

[Bull Gotze]

Share with us your stories.
Me, It was back in june or july 2013, and I dedicated in August. I had already made a pact earlier that year before I found out about the Jos, my first pact was just for money and I found the instructions in some random website, I didnt even care for the occult I was just knowladgeable in Lavey, and had my brain wired to see Satan as a beautiful winged being. I also didnt believe in Hell but I believed in Satan. The first pact also made me feel good regardless.
I took my dedication seriously, when I read the info on JOS i knew I was dealing with a serious cause.

 

[Truth4ever]

i had started out as wiccan but i couldn't connect with those beings- this was in the early 2000's. i already knew about the witch trials and for some reason i started looking online for info about satan- i still have no memory of why i started looking- i also kept having the thoughts of how "christians" killed so many innocent people and that made me sooo mad. i found a few sites ( order of nine angles, temple of set anton lavey, ect) then i found the jos. i read the site and soon dedicated- it hasn't been a bed of roses but i'm in a much better place than i ever thought i'd be.


Hail Satan

 

[Andevili]

Before dedicating my soul, right from childhood I have always liked Satan and Idea of Him been 'a Bad-ass' rebellious and defiant enough to go against 'god' as I'm extremely rebellious myself and even though I come from a strict religious (xtain) background strange enough part of me couldn't accept the fact that He was evil as I couldn't find any evidence in the 'bible' to support such allegations against Him. I kept on fantasying about how I would be good friends by making a deal with Him and He would give me extreme power and wealth until one day I searched on Google "Satan is the true God" and I kept on researching with curiosity and great thirst for Information portraying Him as ''good'' and then I found the link to the Jos site on a reverse xtainity and Laveyan type forum-I guess some one was spamming forums then just like what Satanicninja is doing on you tube- since then I have been growing stronger spiritually, mentally and physically. Hail Satan Forever!

 

[13th_Wolf]

Back at some point in early 2013. I was very young, and had recently moved to my new school from primary. I was having an extremely hard time coping as my parents (Step dad and mum) had also recently divorced as well, but I managed to scrape my way through the years as we all do, I mean I wasn't living in some war-torn country-like the Yazidis for example.

I had recently got a new laptop for Kike-mas (XD) and had been spending days on it when I got home from school. one day at some point during the date mentioned above, it was nearing just after noon and I wondered to myself about Christianity. I don't know about the US or other places in Europe but in the UK Christianity has seriously lost its influence over the minds of the common people-bar the old, even some of them have left the Nazarene tho. The atheism of the UK is the reason why we English are so stereotyped to be socially inept and awkward XD. The worship of materialism has therefore affected us, moreso than any other nation and there are many alcoholics along with bigoted people, but I digress.

Amongst all the things I had recently searched now that I had unrestrained access to the internet in my new room, I had decided to search this very important query:

Is Christianity evil?

http://www.exposingchristianity.com

was the site Google Chrome decided to give me.

I had browsed and flicked through many sites (wayyy more than I do nowadays) but never in that time I had on the computer, did I spend as many hours on http://www.exposingchristianity.com in one sitting.

Until I reached the bottom.

" Links:

JOY OF SATAN"

It was around 12:00 am now and here I was with my laptop propped up on my drawer which I used as a makeshift desk. I had found myself wondering how tf did mum not come check on me while I was browsing the website till 3:00 am. A few nights later, after some groggy school days-I decided to visit the mysterious Satanic website again after I had bookmarked it on top of my browser: New Religion (XDDD, so I could hide it- I think its still on there to this day.)

I read literally everything on the JoS and spent days dwelling on the info as well as researching more. I promised myself I would come back to it again soon, when I had the will to be serious about it. That was 2013. The end of the Mayan calendar

September 1st of 2016 was when I dedicated my soul to Satan, and for the past year I have devoted much of my time to Satan, and if not my time-then my thoughts. In return, I have been given purpose, guidance and power so unlike what was known to me before and so unlike what is known to those without. I would say I am indebted to Father, but that is stupid- he also explained to me why that is stupid XD. I have learnt many things and am continuing to learn more as time carries on. As of this year's Summer, my journey has hit an abrupt point. I had hit points like this before, but they were more to do with whether or not I was serious about my dedication to Satan. This is more to do with the attainment of self-discipline. The early days of my dedication saw me spamming ritual and spiritual practice and seeking knowledge, my discipline came from this new and wonderful thing I had discovered that works, like a National Socialist who worships the true essences of National Socialism, but then slowly deteriorates into ignorant *racism* as they distance themselves from said true essences and forget the spirituality of them.

The patterns of my old life are drawing me into the incessant hedonism that many of my closest friends had begun and now fully indulge in. I am drawn to my old, apathetic, sarcastic and quite frankly Anti-life identity. This identity is not of me, and although the old *wonderdays* of me spamming my spirituality 24/7 and feeling the coming into my "Ubermensch" seem so far away now, I still remain a staunch Spiritual Satanist to this day, if not by deed then mostly by word. I am slowly beginning to meditate again, practicing vibrations and absorbing information. e.g I have recently learnt it is much better to reinforce new patterns into your mind one at a time, rather than all at once if you are to make any progress. The more initial drive you have, the more things you can generally reinforce at once (hence my spamming when I first dedicated)

The thing I believe tho, that has kept me tied to Satan and the reality of the Higher being, the "Ubermensch" or what have-you, is this Enochian mantra I made in my early days- which I will finally end my post with XD.

Saytan Abbrasa, Adphaht, Lonsa De Blans. Ds Gohlora Nanaeel

HAIL SATAN!

 

[Shining Sloth 666]

I was looking for meditations and stumbled across the power meditation page on the JOS.
When I saw the fire thoughtforms one and read it I was like:
''Man this stuff doesn't feel like BS at all and it's the most advanced thing I've ever heard about''

Then, two years later I came back looking for this meditation page then I went at the Home page of JOS
and started reading sentences after sentences. I couldn't fathom the blissful feeling I was getting from learning all that stuff. It's as if I had found all the missing puzzle pieces I've been looking for my whole life.
I spent nights not sleeping at all reading for like 12hours in a row. After following the forums in the shadows for awhile and experiencing meditations I soon dedicated.

 

[Aquarius]

A xtian priest(a pedophile definitely) added me on facebook and wrote to me, I wanted to scare him and told him i'm a "satanist", I told him that if he gave me his soul I could make him rich, this guy was seriously a retard and believing it, so he told me that is is gonna bow to god after that to have his soul back and keep the money(or something similar lol) and while I was looking for "satanic phrases" on google I found Jos, I blocked the priest, started reading jos which felt the most right thing ever just by looking at the first page and dedicated 2-3 weeks later.

 

[Wotanwarrior]

When I was 12 years old I completely rejected xianity and became an atheist, I was for years , until I began to investigate the old pre-Christian cultures and the theory of the extaterrestrial gods, and that's how I ended up finding JOS and starting.

 

[_Viktor_]

I can't remember 100% but it was after being on /x on 4chan and searching for some terms on the net.

At first I was very skeptical - it all seemed ridiculous. My skepticism had lasted for a good year and I'm still, regarding some of the things, more on the doubting side.

On the other hand there is a core belief that I can fully accept und support. I always had a huge hole in my heart(feeling lost) and yearned for something behind the veil that may make sense and establishes law and order in this filthy chaos - on an eternal scale.
The "political implications" have been huge too. I once was close to go to war for a foreign nation. A notion that is now as hilarious as it is frightening. Discovering some of the hidden facts regarding Europe and her history were deeply unsettling. The "people" responsible will wish they had never been born once the hammer of judgment returns to its duties.

Big words aside - I still have a lot of work to do, though.

 

[Aquarius]

A xtian priest(a pedophile definitely) added me on facebook and wrote to me, I wanted to scare him and told him i'm a "satanist", I told him that if he gave me his soul I could make him rich, this guy was seriously a retard and believing it, so he told me that is is gonna bow to god after that to have his soul back and keep the money(or something similar lol) and while I was looking for "satanic phrases" on google I found Jos, I blocked the priest, started reading jos which felt the most right thing ever just by looking at the first page and dedicated 2-3 weeks later.

I should note that when I was a kid I was completely attracted to the occult and extra terrestrials, altough obviously as a kid I didn't really gather much, it was just about looking at ufo videos on youtube and following conspiracies and then getting nightmares lol altough I don't think kids that age (8-9 yo) get that far anyway

 

[Poweredbythesun]

Personally I stumbled upon the JoS website as I was researching incubus and succubi (though I had heard about it a month beforehand). Before that I stumbled upon Black Witch S's site and youtube channel. And before that I had discovered a 'local' magic shop where I got an energy reading, and have since then gotten readings from Mama Moon (the mother of Chris Moon), and multiple times from their Tarrot card / energy reader that works there. They've guided me thus far fairly well.

And aside from that my guardian has always been with me as far as I know. I've never actually heard her voice, but she speaks through my thoughts. She prevented my suicide when I was only 13, and has since birth helped protect me in my 6+ close calls with death. I communicate with her via pendulum if I have a question or need advice, she's pretty straight forward and helpful


I wish I'd have known what I do today a year ago. I can only imagine how much farther I'd be ¯\_(ツ)_/¯, though everything happens for a reason.

 

[FancyMancy]

I was a christian. Not quite a fundy, but I was going that way. During some of that, my brain was waking up. I started doubting and questioning - and actually, some of the things that was said, during my pre-'backsliding', just sounded so ridiculous. e.g. "'god' is so powerful, he could have uprooted that tree, spun it around, and re-planted it in the blink of an eye."

Another thing was the senior pastor "joked" during a preach that "there isn't anything unique here", and only 1 or 2 others lolled with him.

I had the TV on and in a film or programme, an Irish woman said something like "Only a prayer to the Devil will do that", or "That's a prayer only the Devil can answer", or something similar. A bit of time passed, and then I said to whom I thought was the Devil a simple prayer, and a bit later, I came across JoS while browsing the internet, in the attitude of rebellion against "god", due to my dissapointment and anger, etc.

I found the site and read a bit, but didn't save it and forgot the name, but then I found it again. Now I'm a "Devil worshipper".

I know Satan is not "the Devil", though; He's just been cast in a role, in which He didn't want to take part, by a doppelganger.

I hereby share some lyrics.

The Beast in the skies has risen; in time it would come, the lands have begun their schism - all bow to the Fallen One

and

May the Mighty Mjölnir
Nail the Bleeding and Naked nazarene
upon the Pagan Planks,
Pound in the Painful Nails now,
and Hang him High and Dry

 

[StraitShot47]

When I was a kid I had some experiences, but cast it off as nothing. Later in life I didn't know which way to go, and my health wasn't too great. I was for the most part Agnostic. So I decided to give the occult and eastern religions a try. My mind attached to the concepts very well.

I googled telekinesis one day and found the JOS. It was the only site that had specific instructions and assertiveness. So I did the dedication ritual.

Once I found that forums, it all clicked pretty much. I honestly didn't know we had an establishment already. I thought I was gonna have to do this all by myself or at worst rabble rouse lol...

 

[HPS Lydia]

Me, I didn't exactly have full past-life amnesia... ahem. Inquisition, anyone? So I've always known... stuff.

I rejected xianity when I was quite young and was Pagan for quite a while, almost a decade before finding JoS. I kept trying to find a correct God/dess to follow, but never connected to anything I found in books or online.

And then one day, someone "randomly" gave me a copy of Lavey's Satanic Bible. I read it, thoroughly enjoyed the logic in it, and decided right then and there to dedicate. Jewsus and the xian god never helped me before, so I thought why not give Satan a chance. But I decided to look online and see if there were other methods of dedicating to Satan, as I tend to look into multiple methods of everything, to get an idea for the best way to do anything.

I typed in "dedicate to Satan" on google, scrolled past some horrific pictures, and saw a link to a site that had the word "joy" in it. I noticed it ended with .org, which meant it was probably a legit organization. I read the home page, and spent 10 hours a day for the next while (I was unemployed) reading the JoS. Actually I dedicated that very night.

What night was it? Halloween! Always been my favorite holiday, and now it's my dedication anniversary as well

 

[Eric13]

I read the home page, and spent 10 hours a day for the next while (I was unemployed) reading the JoS. Actually I dedicated that very night.

What night was it? Halloween! Always been my favorite holiday, and now it's my dedication anniversary as well

That's so cool. It's like deciding to dedicate so quickly, it was instinct, or memory from possible past lives with Satan. Didn't need much convincing. You just knew. So cool that it was Halloween. I wish I remember the day I dedicated, but I was very young and didn't think about it. Your anniversary is coming up. Happy early anniversary haha

 

[Lanius]

I grew up in the typical religious family setting. Parents would thank “god” for every small thing like getting to work on time, getting their food quickly at a restaurant etc. I didn’t know why at the time, but I always viewed them as weak for such things. Around the start of my teenage years I broke the news to my parents that I was an atheist because they were trying to force me to go to church, or meet one on one with pastors, etc. They broke down into hysterical crying, and prayed for me profusely, and so on. About this time I was struggling with depression, and some of my friends introduced me to metal music. Some of the songs portrayed Satan as a savior, as a God, and others portrayed him as evil incarnate and all that jazz. Something about Satan started to resonate with me at this time, and over the next few years it grew. By the time I was in high school my parents had me doped up on any and every anti-depressant possible, made me meet with their pastor so my soul could be saved, and I came very close to ending my life. After I got out of the hospital I finally started to google information about Satan. I felt like I needed to, I felt like he was the one thing that would put me back together. Eventually I stumbled upon the JoS website, and when I read over the website I felt a sense of peace that I had never known before. I studied it for several days, and I always felt like the number 13 was my lucky number, and Friday the 13th was just a few days away so I timed my dedication ritual to be done then. I honestly know that if I hadn’t of found the JoS then, I would be dead. I had already attempted suicide before hand, anti-depressants had me feeling like I was trapped in my body and caused me to gain hundreds of pounds. I was around 375 pounds at the time. Shortly after dedicating, I ended up getting off the meds, and started putting myself back together. That was many years ago, and I can honestly say the JoS and Satan are the best things to ever happen in my life.

 

[Poweredbythesun]

Me, I didn't exactly have full past-life amnesia... ahem. Inquisition, anyone? So I've always known... stuff.

I rejected xianity when I was quite young and was Pagan for quite a while, almost a decade before finding JoS. I kept trying to find a correct God/dess to follow, but never connected to anything I found in books or online.

And then one day, someone "randomly" gave me a copy of Lavey's Satanic Bible. I read it, thoroughly enjoyed the logic in it, and decided right then and there to dedicate. Jewsus and the xian god never helped me before, so I thought why not give Satan a chance. But I decided to look online and see if there were other methods of dedicating to Satan, as I tend to look into multiple methods of everything, to get an idea for the best way to do anything.

I typed in "dedicate to Satan" on google, scrolled past some horrific pictures, and saw a link to a site that had the word "joy" in it. I noticed it ended with .org, which meant it was probably a legit organization. I read the home page, and spent 10 hours a day for the next while (I was unemployed) reading the JoS. Actually I dedicated that very night.

What night was it? Halloween! Always been my favorite holiday, and now it's my dedication anniversary as well

Nice! Heh, I don't remember much from my last life. But I've had visions while meditating, me being a soldier (possibly during the American Civil War or WW1), a first person view of me attacking an enemy soldier as a wolf. . . ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ But I do know I've been around for awhile, and I was born with the gift of (somewhat) open hand chakras. Though I seem to be stuck on the thought of warfare, but that may just be my last life seeping into my creative mind.

Funny enough, I actually started out reading Anton Lavey's Satanic Bible too It served as the first of many puzzle pieces that have broadened my understanding of what I am to do, and how I am to do it. And so far, it appears the end goal is the completion of the Magnum Opus, and the achievement of the godhead. But for now, all I know is the exhilarating climb and the ascension that is to eventually come

And I love this group we have too ^_^ I've never really had anyone to talk to, or anyone that had similar views. And there is so much knowledge within the JoS site, forums (both old and new), and groups

 

[Windstrider666]

From when I was young like in early elementary school age, I remember always being fond of occult things like magic and stuff. I didn't feel 'apprehension' to xianity sorta just tolerated it since it was the only sort of spiritual thing I knew about at the time and never bothered to think about it too deeply. My family especially my grandmother would always say "leave things to god" whenever I wanted to get some sort of occult book (like an astrology book) or tarrot cards. They would also always pray to god or jewsus and such whenever they feel hardship or even go to drive. I just kept my distance. It felt weird to pray to someone that never did anything for me or anyone for that matter.

I was also somewhat influenced ( actually greatly influenced i would think) by Japanese anime. Although there were a lot that would blaspheme the Gods in some way, it was the only other source outside Xianity that would mention gods and the like. I was also attracted to the fantasy like ones with magic and stuff. I think because of anime I was less apprehensive to the thought of Demons and Satan.

Now the reason why I found the JoS was due to some personal affairs that lead me to want to summon a Demon. At the time I asked "god" and jewsus for assistance and since nothing happened I gave it a big "fuck you" and went to find someone else. I was willing to even "sell my soul to the devil" without a second thought (showed how much 'faith' I had to jewsus lol). After typing "how to summon a demon" on google the very first link lead to the JoS How to summon demon page. When I read it I was slightly suprised about what it said. Intrigued I clicked to see the homepage and read it. At that moment I was like "this is it!" Read through tons of pages and articles and testimonies on that site the entire night. I decided to forget about the summoning, it wasn't that important where I needed to summon a true god to help me. Dedicated after I think 2 weeks or so of reading and research but i definitely felt strong longing and desire to dedicate right away.

 

[Neoma Isadora]

From my youth I was fascinated by the Gods, I was totally into mythologies and old religions. But actually getting in spiritual satanism took a while unfortunately. I need spirituality in my life it's a big need for me so I had to experiment and dabble into different "religions" or paths more or less until finding out about spiritual satanism. It feels good having finally come home.

Thank you, "random link" of joyofsatan.org in a comment section of a random video that I don't even remember what it was about.

 

[AncientShadow666]

i come from a very small town where only chatolics are, and when i was like 12-13 i started to listen to metal music, soon after people discovered i was homosexual, so there were 2 things to pick up on me, and when one is 14 there are those christian sacraments one must do INTHE CHURCH WITH THE PRIESTS in my country (croatia...yop...sad i know), sooo i had shitload of trouble with the whole town and the priests, everyone hated me, people beatet the shit out of me on the street and the school, priests kept telling me jesus hates homosexuals,that we are here just to serve some smaller purpose for the jesus and thats it, we will end up in hell anyway, sooo one day i had enough, i told to myself what fucked up thing is that, but i never actually was christian, i just did all this because my parents said i should do it so that im not some victim to others, because there where i come from people who are not chatolic are hated mostly, so yeah, there were always some things that used to happen that i couldnt explain like sudden thought readings, seeing into the future, then doing the "evil eye" from the black magic section on JOS just like that and i wasnt the satanist at all at that time, and i always had the desire to become a goddess or so to say be strong as the gods, not like fucking jesus but GODS.... soooo one day i googled satanism, so after the wikipedia satanism the next website was joy of satan, so i opened it, started to read it, firstly i thought ahhh just another website about some cults.... but i just kept reading and kept reading.... sooo after like 2 hours of reading i became pretty serious about it because everything i ever wanted to do and to believe in was there, all my questions were answered and so i kept reading and like 1 year later i made dedication ritual, and i felt like im there where i needed to be.... well from some things i could see from my past lives, i had them, i was more warlike and had some wars behind me, but when it comes to spirituality, i didnt see much yet, but since i could do some things that i stated above, could only do them if i did something spiritual, i still have to come that far to see what happened... all in all, im here where i should be, and because of spiritual satanism my personality is restored, i am ME again

 

[Stormblood]

Well, I already answered when the question was asked on the old forums, but I don't mind answering again.

One day I was looking for more techniques for performing an astral projection. For the first time ever I did the research, I stumble upon the joyofsatan webpage that gives information about it. It was among the first results this time. After reading through, I was interested in understanding what more the website had to offer. I went to the homepage through the link that appeared at the bottom of the page and start reading the introduction. I was blown away by the quality of information. While I read through the website, it felt like pieces of the puzzle I had never connected were effortlessly coming together. I did the dedication after I had finished studying it.

I was never really Xian, even if I had been forced to follow the Catholic initiation path as it's common in my country. I've always believed in magick and felt like society wasn't telling me the whole story, like most people were seeing only a limited percentage of reality. During catechism lessons, I could not stand the fact they relegated magick to pure illusion. I felt like one god wasn't really enough and certainly I didn't want to bow to anyone, let alone a misogynous, jealous and self-concerned scum. I kept looking for examples, experiences, whatever I could find about real magick, never losing hope. Eventually, I became interested with dream work and astral projection, because I felt that if I couldn't find answers in the material realm, I would have to look in the astral one, communing with spiritual beings and visiting other places. I still haven't got to the level I'd like, but this is how I discovered Spiritual Satanism.

On a side note, I've always been fascinated more by Celtic pre-Xian lore. Druidry, but I dismissed Wicca right away just after reading their definition of magick, their three-fold law and their rede, because it seemed crap to me honestly. I never bought into the whole "druids are pacifist" nonsense and from HP Mageson's work it would seem I was right to doubt the unnatural aura of tolerance that pervaded the vision many people have of druids today.

On another side note, I'm not into metal at all. I think of that genre has negative vibes I want to stay away with. I've always been more into piano, violin and Celtic music. More for pieces that are only instrumental, without lyrics.

This is my story.

 

[Academic Scholar]

I was 15 when I started researching Satanism and I did not know why. I also kept asking my family "what would you do if I was a Satanist?" Before I knew anything about JoS or cared. I know now Father let me explore other Satanist sects like LaVey but I found no spiritual meaning in them and was not what I was looking for.

Then I was in a Kik group chat room and a random stranger sent the JoS site out of no where for no reason. I went on JoS and read everything for hours and dedicated as soon as I could. I should've been more patient lol but I I knew I found my true destiny and was extremely elated.

 

[YoakeHoshi]

This is a very good topic! I like it a lot!

Since middle school I've always been against xianity and wondered a lot about Satan. I thought about how much nonsense things were in xianity.

"If Satan is the bad one, if He tempts people to do bad things and they do as He wants, why should He torture them at the end?"
I remember thinking this while walking in the entrance of my school.

In 2012, in high school, one friend of mine came to me talking about LaVey, wicca and satanism and gave me the link to Joy of Satan too. In those days I felt very restless, excited and did strange things XD After reading most of the JoS website I've dedicated, I had almost no doubts, I don't know why but I trusted JoS, the other things were empty, I've found no meaning. I knew that what was written there, on JoS, was the Truth. Also my friend and one another have dedicated. That evening, in my room, I felt being watched, at the point I couldn't stand it and left the room LOL
It was the best thing I've ever did.

Regarding past lives... I don't know if some memories can come in dreams but one night I dreamt to be a woman (it was not me as I am physically) in a pyramid with a pharaoh and a child. We were in a kind of mortuary room and I was watching and touching a sarcophagus, suddenly it happened something that I don't know if I should share ^^' but after I woke up I typed some key words on google and found a confirmation that what I dreamt could have happened for real. I didn't even know about that, but it can explain my love for Egypt

 

[SatanicSlytherin]

I mentioned liking “demons” to a new group of guildmates, on World of Warcraft, This was back during “Cataclysm”), and described (the corrupted version of) the demons.

Somebody whispered (private message) me with “that’s not how demons are”, so I was like “what?” And then he linked me the JoS site.

So... no joke, despite being rife with enemy corruption, WoW technically led me to Satanism. Hah.

I ended up running away from home a week later (abusive stepdad), and moving in with that Satanist for a few years.

I regret not advancing much since then, but soon after I joined SS I was derailed by a real-life cultist, who claimed to be a literal son of one of the gods.
And in my naïveté, I believed him. Oh well, he’s out of my life now (and has been for years).

 

[Shael]

I was lurking on a psionic forum when I saw the JoS link posted by someone, calling it 'bullshit' or something similar. I went to check it out and got hooked the second I read 'immortality'. I spent the rest of the day studying it's contents in awe.

I read the home page, and spent 10 hours a day for the next while (I was unemployed) reading the JoS. Actually I dedicated that very night.

I also dedicated the same day I found the JoS.
*High five*

 

[Europe Gladio]

For me, it was very recently in June of 2017, but before then I started to be redpilled by none other than Evalion back around April or May of 2016. Even though she did troll with everyone about being a white nationalist, I present much gratitude for awakening me. Even though I was aware of the Jews and National Socialism, I was still christian(the cringe intensifies within). Then I discovered Robert Sepher and Varg's videos and they awakened me to being pagan in my beliefs. Then I was scrolling through the comments section of one of his videos where HP Hooded Cobra was spreading the JoS. His channel thumbnail got my attention where I watched his videos and I was very intrigued. I asked him many questions regarding Spiritual Satanism and he was very polite and informational about what he had to say, and that's where I am today.

 

[OnedayHPimaybe]

Christianity was shouved down my throat as a child but I always hated it and challenged / cursed "jesus" to his face in my mind. Needless to say my experience was similar to Mageson's I was listening to music on my computer and I heard my Guardian tell me to look up Satan online and directed me to do it. I found JOS and read through everything. I figured if I gave fear factored dedication to a filthy lurch like jewsus Then I can do the same or more for Satan out of respect and dedicated the next day and a friend joined me. And i've never been happier.

 

[Neomegagenisis]

I sensed you to tell the truth, something in the energy and was drawn to searching online until I found the page that represented what I was sensing of. I investigated. I was pleased.

 

[Dypet Rod]

I already rejected and opposed Christianity at least since I was 11 years old, and already sympathized with the idea of Satanism and had a little knowledge about astrology as well as some interest in occultism. I was familiar with the "Satanic Bible" since I was 13 years old, and have also read some of the other Anton LaVey's books. These if I recall correctly were my first contacts with the concept of Satanism.

When I was around 18 years old if I recall correctly, I watched a story on TV about that boy, whom they called "Buddha Boy", who allegedly meditated under a tree for several months without ever stopping to eat, drink or anything.
There was even an elder who came to analyze it closer and try to figure out which meditation techniques the boy was using.

I don't know if that was true or just a hoax, but this caught my attention and I wondered how he could do this. I wondered if he used some special meditation technique to provide nutrients for his body, such as transforming the sun light into nutrients, similar to how plants do it.
And then I wondered, what else can meditations do for us? What kind of things can be done with meditation? Could there be even meditations to keep us cool when it's hot and to warm us when it's cold? What's the power of meditation? Are there meditations for everything you can imagine?

I got really interested about it and wanted to learn more.
But at the same time, I was already interested in Satanism, and thought about the religious aspect of meditations. I thought to myself, I don't wanna have to become a Buddhist or some shit in order to learn and practice meditations. So, could meditations possibly be practiced in an "atheistic" way? Without having to commit to such religions that typically practice it? Or better yet...could they be practiced in a Satanic way? Is there possibly such a thing as "Satanic meditations"?

I looked it up, and there came the answer: The Satanic Meditations section of the Joy of Satan. It was just perfect! Just what I was wondering, just what I wanted! It was heaven! Or hell lol.

I also used to think that Anton LaVey's "Satanism" was the only form of Satanism, and I constantly felt somewhat unsatisfied with their idea of "atheistic Satanism". With what they claimed about Satan not being a real being and such. So if I recall correctly, at some point this made me wonder if there was such a thing as a "spiritual" form of Satanism.
And I found the answer to it all on the Joy of Satan! It was amazing, the way it fit everything I had been wondering so naturally!

I don't remember exactly how I found the Joy of Satan first: If by looking up "Satanic meditations", or if by looking up "spiritual Satanism". But I found both at the same website and that was perfect! So I started studying it. Diving through its pages. And after some time, in August 2013, I dedicated. Not to ever regret it . HAIL SATAN!!!

 

[Thaliagrace]

I first saw it in one of those top ten creepy websites videos on YouTube LMAO

 

[HailMotherLilith]

Before finding my first GD (Lord Phenex), I was a sort of baptist due to my godmother forcing her beliefs on me. It all seemed like a fairytale to me and when I got the biblie shit,opened it to read, I got so much negative energy and such a bad feeling that I put it away and never read it again and with it, the next year I got with people who were ""satanists"" but more like mentally insane peeps and they made me realise how stupid I was. One of those friends was my gf. (I'm kinda bisexual, but I lean more towards being straight just to let you all understand it better.) And she made me choose from a list of Demon names and such to whom we should "summon" and have them be as my "GD's".

Long story short, the enemy was seriously influencing her so much that after we "summoned" those "demons" (I have to remind you that I wasn't aware yet at that time), I started getting misfortune and my energy getting drained and stuff like that.

Anyways, after getting introduced to her friend, who's a Gay (she's lesbian btw), he was way more mature and interesting, sometimes.

Basically to make things short, we met up, after things started getting even more horrible for me and we did a ritual to banish and destroy that entity and afterwards, we summoned.... guess who???? Lord Phenex! And he helped me a lot. I heard him call my name in a child like voice while I wasn't still open to anything spiritual as I am now and he made me search more and more information about him as much as possible and I ended up stumbling on the JoS website demon section xD It was awesome!!

I dedicated in 2016 February 14th :333

 

[SoulSnipes]

Google searched satanism.

 

[Dariak]

I was raised as a xian, but always had a fascination with the occult and paganism. I eventually decided to satisfy my curioisity and do more research, the more I did the more I strayed from xianity.

I kept trying to find a patron God or Goddess to follow, someone who could guide me. I instinctively knew that the pagan path was not something I could follow without the help of a higher power if I wanted to truly advance and become stronger. I performed many prayers and rituals to pagan deities and I kept coming across the jos website.. I still this idea in my head the Satanism was evil, but one day I decided to actually read the jos and it blew my mind.

Satanism just felt right for me, I dedicated within the week of finding the jos website and I met my guardian about 3 weeks after that. It’s been 4years since then and I’ve never looked back.

From the moment of dedication I changed for the better, something in me just seem to shift into gear and within the following months my mind, soul and body became so much more stronger. I wasn’t sickly anymore, I lost so much excess weight, my depression vanished, self esteem increased and I became more confident. I was no longer this sad, fat slob who had a pessimistic outlook on life. I became happy.

 

[Shannon]

It really is so wonderful to read how we all came to Satan.

I was Wiccan before and always into the occult. All the powers of the mind and soul fascinated me. At one point I was super obsessed.

During my research I'd always found articles from the JoyofSatan but never read all of it, just the useful pages. Until one day I said to myself " I'm going to read this whole site"

When I did, I was hooked. I dedicated before even finishing the site. Everything made so much sense. I told myself that even if this path could be wrong, I don't care, I'm going to stick with it because it feels so right. Up until my dedication and after dedicating, I felt so reborn. I slept better and feel energized. It was something else.

I dedicated a couple days after reading the whole thing only because I wanted to wait to buy my candles.

 

[groryofsatan666]

I first dedicated in 2012 in our poultry house due to lack of privacy I was always drawn to magic and questioned religious existence,the notion of some god in the sky who appeared from nowhere didn't make sense to me,however I dedicated with the idea of going into the music industry but I knew I wanted to be a satanist anyway.I was intrested in a lot of things,wiccan,aunton Lacey but those type of satanism didn't make sense to me and not what I wanted.I was expecting to see Satan and i was despiratly looking for a church of Satan to go to but they were all scammers meant to eat peoples money so I was just there,still believing in father Satan,and then when this illness I have hit me I dedicated again because I was scared I had left him,I was sorry.now I should say I know more about Satan than ever and now I do meditation and I now fight against the enemy,pretty cool.

I try my best to write this,so pardon if there are some flaws

hail Satan.

 

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I grew up in a very Christian environment I had to go to church at least three times a week forced in to one activity after another I hated all of it but as a child i went along with it and used it as an opportunity to socialize and nothing else.as an adult I tried to go to church just speaking my mothers approval ( I rebelled a lot and did the opposite of anything she wanted) but I could never stick with it never getting anything out of it always had more questions than answers, feeling guilty for not wanting to let go of all the good things in life just to go to so called heaven it maddened me that I had to lose all that I was and give up any kind of possessions just so I could so called have more when I died. It never made much sense.

The end of 2016 into the beginning of 2017 somethings started occurring in my life that were very intense and not welcomed it got to the point I started thinking I was losing my mind so me and my husband went to my parents who btw a pastor's to help with this problem and knowing there beliefs i thought we had to give it a try. So when we talked to them all they had to ask was I on drugs or going through a mental break down I knew then nothing was going to come of it. So they did the pastor thing and prayed and all the vs that comes with it. Of course nothing came of it and life was becoming quite difficult so my husband and I stepped away from the fact ass religion and started to study anton Levay's satanic bible my husband was all for it but this still disnt seem right to me I read the whole book and felt nothing but disappointment so I went online and started my own research trying to find other kinds of satanism i found many but none ever hit the mark i continued to search and "stumbled" upon JOS and from the begging of me reading I felt awakened excited like I found my home. I read and read i read everyday for hours a day the excitement and home feeling only grew. It did not take me long to know this was it that this was home I dedicated september of 2017 and I am so glad that i did every day since then has been amazing yes i struggle from time to time but this is the best decision of my life I thank father Satan daily for opening my eyes. I will never go back the only option is forward.

Hail Father Satan

 

[groryofsatan666]

I first dedicated in 2012 in our poultry house due to lack of privacy I was always drawn to magic and questioned religious existence,the notion of some god in the sky who appeared from nowhere didn't make sense to me,however I dedicated with the idea of going into the music industry but I knew I wanted to be a satanist anyway.I was intrested in a lot of things,wiccan,aunton Lacey but those type of satanism didn't make sense to me and not what I wanted.I was expecting to see Satan and i was despiratly looking for a church of Satan to go to but they were all scammers meant to eat peoples money so I was just there,still believing in father Satan,and then when this illness I have hit me I dedicated again because I was scared I had left him,I was sorry.now I should say I know more about Satan than ever and now I do meditation and I now fight against the enemy,pretty cool.

I try my best to write this,so pardon if there are some flaws

hail Satan.

when I say wiccan and Anton levey didn't make sense to me I didn't understand how Satan was not a real being,and they have a membership card that you would buy and renounce it if you want to,and also you wouldn't gain any powers from belonging,but I like their covenants like respect those who respect you and don't turn the other chick.

 

[HailMotherLilith]

I grew up in a very Christian environment I had to go to church at least three times a week forced in to one activity after another I hated all of it but as a child i went along with it and used it as an opportunity to socialize and nothing else.as an adult I tried to go to church just speaking my mothers approval ( I rebelled a lot and did the opposite of anything she wanted) but I could never stick with it never getting anything out of it always had more questions than answers, feeling guilty for not wanting to let go of all the good things in life just to go to so called heaven it maddened me that I had to lose all that I was and give up any kind of possessions just so I could so called have more when I died. It never made much sense.

The end of 2016 into the beginning of 2017 somethings started occurring in my life that were very intense and not welcomed it got to the point I started thinking I was losing my mind so me and my husband went to my parents who btw a pastor's to help with this problem and knowing there beliefs i thought we had to give it a try. So when we talked to them all they had to ask was I on drugs or going through a mental break down I knew then nothing was going to come of it. So they did the pastor thing and prayed and all the vs that comes with it. Of course nothing came of it and life was becoming quite difficult so my husband and I stepped away from the fact ass religion and started to study anton Levay's satanic bible my husband was all for it but this still disnt seem right to me I read the whole book and felt nothing but disappointment so I went online and started my own research trying to find other kinds of satanism i found many but none ever hit the mark i continued to search and "stumbled" upon JOS and from the begging of me reading I felt awakened excited like I found my home. I read and read i read everyday for hours a day the excitement and home feeling only grew. It did not take me long to know this was it that this was home I dedicated september of 2017 and I am so glad that i did every day since then has been amazing yes i struggle from time to time but this is the best decision of my life I thank father Satan daily for opening my eyes. I will never go back the only option is forward.

Hail Father Satan

This is so beautiful!! We're glad to have you here!!!!!!

HAIL FATHER SATAN FOREVER!!!!!

 

[Poweredbythesun]

Funny enough I found JoS through my sexuality, I stumbled across the pages for Incubus and Succubi. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

From there on I read a good portion of the site, and dedicated ASAP. I've come a long way in the past 1 1/2 years, but I'm just now making vast leaps and bounds as we all are


Before all this I had searched for meaning, and had been rejected by other religions. Only the JoS made sense, and would accept me. It's crazy too, even before I found the website I was being guided to it. . . I guess I've always been somewhat Satanic

 

[Powstanie Pogańskie]

I grew up in a Christian conservative household, and we went to church fairly often when I was young, but when my little brother was born, we stopped going pretty much altogether as he's moderately Autistic and my parents found it too difficult to try and bring him to places like that.

I never particularly cared for it. I believed in it, certainly, and would get offended at people talking shit about Christianity and the smug superiority that atheists would exude, but I was essentially one of those Christians who believed but didn't really make an effort to really learn about the Bible and the shit contained therein. In addition, there were things that just didn't jive with me or make sense - contradictions with what I was reading about how the Earth came to be, the concept of Hell in and of itself and sending people there just for not being Christian, the idea that we're all dirty sinners and need to fix ourselves and be right with the lawd, it made me uncomfortable and I would just feel shitty.

It came to a head when I started coming to terms with the fact that I'm a definite homosexual and have been attracted to men for some time. Trying to reconcile that with my upbringing and knowing that both of my parents would be crushed (Which they were.) filled me with such anguish and fear. I remember actively wishing for Christianity not to be true because the world view it presented was just depressing. I believe this to be what really pushed me in the direction of finding JoS, as it was in my reading about sexuality and trying to accept this about myself that I stumbled upon a Wikipedia article in which it talked about the LaVeyan view on asexuality; that it was their business and people should conduct their lives freely within reason. I was so pleasantly drawn in by that; a Satanic belief system, saying things that made sense, that jived with me in a way that Christianity never, ever has.

Ironically enough, around this time I was also reading articles by a gay Christian who was trying to convince readers that homosexuals can be accepted in Christianity, and while this may have placated my psychic tension a tad, I was also put off by the way he described Christianity as a "spiritual journey." I realized in that moment that I actually never even considered Christianity to be spiritual. When I thought "spiritual practices," Christianity did not come to mind, and it inherently felt strange to me that someone would describe it as spiritual. All of this while I was still a Christian.

I had googled Satanism not too long before this and read a few things on the Church of Satan's website; around this time, I had the thought to give it another Google, as I was still intrigued by the sensibleness of what I had read. Went to their website, read a bit again, then backed up to read another website: Joy of Satan. I read what was said, saw what they pointed out in the Bible that I conveniently was never taught in church or by that gay Christian, and every little story and/or bit of evidence my dad had to "prove" Christianity's validity, Joy of Satan had a Satanic explanation for. The pieces fell together so naturally; it felt spiritual. It felt right. I may not have had the knowledge to argue and prove this to others, but in my being I felt comforted and like I had finally found a path that wouldn't leave me feeling alone and like complete shit.

I didn't dedicate that night, I had a lot of deprogramming to do and so much to read. But it wasn't very long after. I'm not entirely certain that I was a Satanist in past lives, if I even have that many, but the draw I have to this path is real in ways no other path has felt to me. And a massive "HAIL SATAN!" for that.