lilquote said:
That's.. pretty infuriating. I don't know what culture or situation you live in, but I assume that is the cause for this mindset.
I didn't notice your this post earlier.
I think it wouldn't be appropriate to discuss my problem, the thing I mentioned about having a physical partner is not the main problem..
I've been bombarded with so many doubts whether if I have a Succubus lover or not since past few weeks.
And no, I'm not also being forced to get married lol. That's not a problem.
You don't need somebody to physically care for you, because you are not a child. You'll eventually reach a point spiritually where you rarely get sick anyways. A lover will be there for you, and a demon will be there for you in ways that no physical or human lover can.
I was ignorant of that. I wasn't just sure about that.
You need to change your entire view of what love and life is before you are ready to be with a Succubus. So many people are too focused on the physical aspect of these things to have a true relationship. I hope the HPs cover this in a post at some point, if they haven't already.
Maybe yeah you're right, but I didn't ask for a Succubus lover plainly for the physical aspects of this relationship. I had an honest intention to advance spiritually.
I've read alot on the forums about what actually it means to have a Demonic lover, to be in a relationship with one.
So yes, I pretty much knew what it means before I did the ritual. Plus I felt like I was being forced to do the ritual. Not forced but PUSHED.
I think I'll manage it and change my view. If I were spiritually open, I would never let this mindset to even have a littlest chance to be developed. And that's also the reason for this mindset.
sahasrarabliss said:
lilquote said:
@sahasrarabliss
Try and disregard the advice Gamoray was giving in all this :roll: He's pretty much revealed himself to be delusional.
You can always go back to Satan, do another standard ritual, and express your issues and situation. Always remember that Satan knows us better than we know ourselves, so He will know what is best for you.
If you do end up with a Succubus, you probably won't even feel the need for a physical wife anyways. But you would still need to reevaluate your priorities and view on life. A wife is not meant to be your "caregiver". The relationship should be much more than that, and you'll need to keep in mind her physical needs as well.
I meant to say, obviously Demonic partners or human partners are not caregivers. Either wife or husband. I didn't mean it that way.
But we get in life situations and troubles sometimes in life where we badly need physical support of someone we trust. It could only be a parent or your partner.
But you say, Demonic lovers will always be there, their help cannot even surpass the physical help of any human, physically. I was just thinking differently about the future life situations. It's a fear of not being astrally opened enough to communicate.
But this morning, I woke up at 4am, thought of her...I was doubting but couldn't help fantasizing :shock: . Then I lost focus, then maybe half a minute after, heard mother's footsteps coming into my room, I sat and pretended to meditate lol. Think I was saved from being embarrassed lol.
But I didn't feel her
Need to develop astral touch senses?
The lustful feeling was overwhelming. It was really overwhelming. It was like as if I had a sudden rise in my testosterone levels. There was no shame during that or any sexual hangup. If still I think of the morning, or of her, I get the same feeling as if I have higher testosterone levels...and you just wanna have sex and sex. Lol. The feeling , the urge is really out of control.
But then I think what if I'm simply deluding myself to a fantasy.....or in worst case, communicating with an enemy, that's the fear. I don't think it's a fear but stupidity hurts so bad.
I've lost interest in human females ever since I done the ritual two months ago I think. I think it doesn't feel the same as it's with her.
The purpose of a love relationship with a Demon/ess is different than human love relationships.
A non Satanic Human love relationships is different and have different purposes. Their purpose is temporary in so many things. They are so messed up. So they don't last longer. They don't even have a higher purpose other than the feelings to achieve such as feeling loved, cared, fulfilled, satisfaction, etc" Obviously, we who have love relationship with Demon/ess aren't solely interested in this but something more. I think having a love relationship with Demon/ess means you Take Spirituality, your advancement very SERIOUSLY. Atleast that's what I've learnt reading in the forums about this.
Their to do list of tasks to be done in their day to day love relationship is completely different than our Love relationship with our Demonic lovers and SS love relationship.
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In the beginning years ago, I did a ritual for open relationship, nothing happened...but a dream experience I remember which later turned out to be true. So I don't think it was a Succubus either.
I used to have a feeling as if a girl was with me walking side by side. It wasn't exactly a feeling but an involuntary imagination.
So I think it's a past life relationship.
I had two dreams. In one I think it was really her. If I recall correctly, I think her face was like...as if she was very happy to see me coming.
I'm just bombarded heavily with so many doubts since past weeks..and maybe this is why I'm in this situation. Because when I was fantasizing...I saw a grey face, weeks ago. That's why I was thinking I don't have any Succubus...it must be an enemy.
Enemy interfering.
But this morning, it was different....
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There is a meditation on astral touch senses in 6 month warfare training program. You have to feel a certain thing without visualization like..feeling the velvet cloth but without visualizing it...and that's the hardest part. Without visualization.
How do you do it if you do it?