AsrielLynis
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I'm Asriel, and I'm very new to this community!
Honestly, I'm new to spirituality as a whole.
I believed everything I was told when I was a child, and to be honest, I'm still pretty gullible now. I can't really tell when people are lying or telling the truth from the vibes I get from them.
I've lived a pretty normal life so far, but there was always something off in the air. As a child, I wanted adventure, I wanted to accomplish things that no one else could. I would always be daydreaming in school and would make up crazy stories in my mind, and I would love feeling the emotions of all the characters I created, all the experiences I lived inside that dreamworld. I'm self-aware enough to say that I loved playing God. I'm arrogant, conceited and think way too highly of myself for my lack of achievements.
And because I'm arrogant, I always wanted to be superior to my peers in some form or another. The first way I tried to do this, was by learning martial arts...without going to a dojo. Safe to say, I learnt about nothing. (I did eventually go to a taekwondo dojo years later, but I stopped going because my parents moved houses)
But that was important because the path to physical strength and fitness opened up to me. I'd love to say I obsessed over fitness and strength, became some amazing fighter, and can do 1000 pushups in a single sitting. But unfortunately, I'm lazy as well. I put a mediocre amount of effort into it for a while, and then came across the whole "Self-improvement" wave that's been sweeping across social media, and put my efforts into that.
Self-improvement introduced me to one thing, which was meditation, obviously incredibly important, and started my slope down into spirituality.
Gradually, as time went on, I discovered more and more about the power of the mind while working on myself, building discipline, tenacity and mental strength as I wandered down this path.
And on one such night, while I was meditating, I slipped down and down into a different mental state, and found myself feeling completely blissful and content, in such a way that I've never felt in my waking life. I felt like I could do anything, not in the way you get when you're watching some motivational video on YouTube, but in the calm, still sort of silence of my mind. In those moments, it made complete sense to me that I could do anything. It was just a fact. It was like the culmination of all the arrogance in my life pooled together and turned into bliss. I've never felt an emotion like it, and I really can't describe it in words. The feeling of omnipotence, silence, and absolutely still calm. So I made my own word for it, Lendam. It was the first word that popped to mind when I was thinking of what to call it.
Is this an emotion anyone else here has felt? Most of you would be far better at meditating than I am, and I'd love to hear your opinions on it.
These experiences all fuelled my drive to find more about the mind, and this eventually led me into the "conspiracy theories" that I'd often mocked and made fun of with my friends. Hollow Earth, moon being made by aliens, pyramids. I've still a lot to learn, but, honestly, there's one thing that shocks me about all of this.
The consistency.
There are very rarely any contradictions in these stories and theories. What one person on one side of the internet says, so does the person on the other side. What one ancient civilisation believed, so did this other one.
Coming from a boy raised in a Catholic, Christian family, I was excited and pleased at the lack of confusion and clarity that these stories offered.
I have so many questions that I'd love to find answers to with this community. I've had my own share of encounters with demons, specifically in sleep paralysis. A man who I could not see, with a dark, booming voice, with fingers sharp like razors, scraping away at the skin on my neck, saying that I created him. "I am the demon that you made."
Back then, I came to the conclusion that these were metaphorical demons in my mind. Voices in my head. Created by my brain to cope. And that satisfied me, because I haven't had such an encounter for nearly two years now.
But now, I've been thrust in a new world where new answers and knowledge is suddenly available. There's an infinite amount of room for me to grow, strengthen myself, and feed my arrogance by having something to actually be proud of.
I've heard that there are wish-granting beings that we can summon. I don't know how to summon them, or what the price will be, or the ritual, but frankly, I don't see why anyone would want any wishes granted. I relish in the toil and the hard-work that it takes to get stronger. In the fears of the unknown, jumping into the deep end of the pool. I don't understand why people would want to wish all of that value away. No disrespect to anyone, but it seems very lazy and ignorant (coming from a very lazy and ignorant person) I want to spread this attitude in this community (I have no idea whether this is a thing or not, so forgive me if I'm being conceited) and I want to grow and become stronger with everyone here!
My biggest question for everyone here would be: How do I access the Akashic records? Through what I've heard, it's not a case where you can just meditate into a particular state of mind and suddenly your eyes are opened, and you have all of the knowledge in the records. I've read and being told by various people that "The quality of your answers depend entirely on the quality of your questions. The better your questions, the better your life." I'm more inclined to thinking that accessing the Akashic record is essentially about asking the right questions about whatever you want to know, but once again, I would love any and all wisdom I could get from you guys!
I do have more questions, but I assume the answers are somewhere in the website, so I'll get to looking there.
If you've read this much, thank you! I hope to get to know as many of you guys as I can, and I will do my best to provide for this community and give back tenfold what I have gained.
The grind never stops.
(Apologises for anything offensive I may have said here. I don't know the proper etiquette and manners, and I hope everyone knows that what I say has no ill-intentions.)
Honestly, I'm new to spirituality as a whole.
I believed everything I was told when I was a child, and to be honest, I'm still pretty gullible now. I can't really tell when people are lying or telling the truth from the vibes I get from them.
I've lived a pretty normal life so far, but there was always something off in the air. As a child, I wanted adventure, I wanted to accomplish things that no one else could. I would always be daydreaming in school and would make up crazy stories in my mind, and I would love feeling the emotions of all the characters I created, all the experiences I lived inside that dreamworld. I'm self-aware enough to say that I loved playing God. I'm arrogant, conceited and think way too highly of myself for my lack of achievements.
And because I'm arrogant, I always wanted to be superior to my peers in some form or another. The first way I tried to do this, was by learning martial arts...without going to a dojo. Safe to say, I learnt about nothing. (I did eventually go to a taekwondo dojo years later, but I stopped going because my parents moved houses)
But that was important because the path to physical strength and fitness opened up to me. I'd love to say I obsessed over fitness and strength, became some amazing fighter, and can do 1000 pushups in a single sitting. But unfortunately, I'm lazy as well. I put a mediocre amount of effort into it for a while, and then came across the whole "Self-improvement" wave that's been sweeping across social media, and put my efforts into that.
Self-improvement introduced me to one thing, which was meditation, obviously incredibly important, and started my slope down into spirituality.
Gradually, as time went on, I discovered more and more about the power of the mind while working on myself, building discipline, tenacity and mental strength as I wandered down this path.
And on one such night, while I was meditating, I slipped down and down into a different mental state, and found myself feeling completely blissful and content, in such a way that I've never felt in my waking life. I felt like I could do anything, not in the way you get when you're watching some motivational video on YouTube, but in the calm, still sort of silence of my mind. In those moments, it made complete sense to me that I could do anything. It was just a fact. It was like the culmination of all the arrogance in my life pooled together and turned into bliss. I've never felt an emotion like it, and I really can't describe it in words. The feeling of omnipotence, silence, and absolutely still calm. So I made my own word for it, Lendam. It was the first word that popped to mind when I was thinking of what to call it.
Is this an emotion anyone else here has felt? Most of you would be far better at meditating than I am, and I'd love to hear your opinions on it.
These experiences all fuelled my drive to find more about the mind, and this eventually led me into the "conspiracy theories" that I'd often mocked and made fun of with my friends. Hollow Earth, moon being made by aliens, pyramids. I've still a lot to learn, but, honestly, there's one thing that shocks me about all of this.
The consistency.
There are very rarely any contradictions in these stories and theories. What one person on one side of the internet says, so does the person on the other side. What one ancient civilisation believed, so did this other one.
Coming from a boy raised in a Catholic, Christian family, I was excited and pleased at the lack of confusion and clarity that these stories offered.
I have so many questions that I'd love to find answers to with this community. I've had my own share of encounters with demons, specifically in sleep paralysis. A man who I could not see, with a dark, booming voice, with fingers sharp like razors, scraping away at the skin on my neck, saying that I created him. "I am the demon that you made."
Back then, I came to the conclusion that these were metaphorical demons in my mind. Voices in my head. Created by my brain to cope. And that satisfied me, because I haven't had such an encounter for nearly two years now.
But now, I've been thrust in a new world where new answers and knowledge is suddenly available. There's an infinite amount of room for me to grow, strengthen myself, and feed my arrogance by having something to actually be proud of.
I've heard that there are wish-granting beings that we can summon. I don't know how to summon them, or what the price will be, or the ritual, but frankly, I don't see why anyone would want any wishes granted. I relish in the toil and the hard-work that it takes to get stronger. In the fears of the unknown, jumping into the deep end of the pool. I don't understand why people would want to wish all of that value away. No disrespect to anyone, but it seems very lazy and ignorant (coming from a very lazy and ignorant person) I want to spread this attitude in this community (I have no idea whether this is a thing or not, so forgive me if I'm being conceited) and I want to grow and become stronger with everyone here!
My biggest question for everyone here would be: How do I access the Akashic records? Through what I've heard, it's not a case where you can just meditate into a particular state of mind and suddenly your eyes are opened, and you have all of the knowledge in the records. I've read and being told by various people that "The quality of your answers depend entirely on the quality of your questions. The better your questions, the better your life." I'm more inclined to thinking that accessing the Akashic record is essentially about asking the right questions about whatever you want to know, but once again, I would love any and all wisdom I could get from you guys!
I do have more questions, but I assume the answers are somewhere in the website, so I'll get to looking there.
If you've read this much, thank you! I hope to get to know as many of you guys as I can, and I will do my best to provide for this community and give back tenfold what I have gained.
The grind never stops.
(Apologises for anything offensive I may have said here. I don't know the proper etiquette and manners, and I hope everyone knows that what I say has no ill-intentions.)
