goldQUEEN 666.Lyf
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Halo there brothers and Sisters. One if these days i have been going through some major crisis. I have worked so had to establish a relationship with Satan. And my hard work has definitely yielded....for which i am very greateful. I have always felt protected, overconfident about all most everything and above all a happy person...well, i have been all that until recently.
This crisis stated the moment i broke up with my xtian friend. We were so tight...to the extent that he was like a brother to me. I adored him so much caz he was so very caring! But a voice in my mind kept telling me to stay away from him because he was bad spiritual influence for me. I tried to push him a way but it was very hard caz all he ever did was be good to me and put my happiness before his own. I tried so hard to avoid him but then circumstance brought him around when i was needy of something...so i asked father to help me out. Now there's a long story after that but....after asking for fathers help we finally broke up. I felt so sad. But then father consoled me and told me that my friend wasn't really a friend..but rather the enemies way to get to me...that the guy went to church to prayed for for me. I had never really told him am a satanist but he was so curious about my spiritual life...caz there's a time he jokingly called me a witch.
I guess he always knew am Satanic.
Well after breaking up with him i started to face tons of problems. First was my phone...which is my only link to the jos site and egroups....it started to malfunction that very day i broke up with him. For a while i thought maybe i had accidentally directed negative into it, then strangely it was only the mail section that wasn't working...i was cut off from the egroups. I cried out to father en told him that a day without visting the egroups is like a day without having to talk to family. I tried everything...i even hard reset my phone(lge400)..i did every thing possible but all in vain, caz every thing went to normal apart from the mail section. But as if that wasn't enough...i started feeling confused. I Satrted getting all these weird thoughts in my head that Satan was punishing me for something....(but i hadnt done anything wrong) i started to feel alone and un wanted. I started feeling insecure about fathers love for me. And i was so alone...no friends, no egroups to share my problems with, and then the feeling that Satan didn't actually care about me. I kept denying in my head(telling my self that father actually loves me.)
So i constantly started bugging him to prove that he cares.
That's when i came across a sermon by Maxine that says if one feels confused its because some xtians ere praying for that person. And i knew then that that was the case bcaz my friend was a staunch bornagain christian. Worse came to worst when my meditation routine started to feel weird. I just can't concentrate(which was very easy back then). Now when ever i try to visualise brilliant gold for my aura of protection all i can see i a balckness around me...i mean all the time.
Its like my defences have totally weakened. Every other night am attacted by SPIRITS in my dreams. First was a spirit that came to me en it was in my mothers form. And i don't know how but i knew it wasn't my mother so i asked i called out to father who who gave me guts to fight the spirit... physically! It felt like fighting my mom. The following days am always running in my dreams, running from bad spirits.
But last night it was so freaking intense. It wasnt a dream...a bad spirit physically attacked me...en i did not know what to do....but wonder where was my guardian demon...i dont even know his name.
The spirit was hurting me. It felt like it was sturbing me in the belly...and there were sone weird chants.
I was in deep pain.
I called out to father...i visualised his sigil and begged he helps me. Suddenly it all stopped. And the pain was gone. I checked my belly en there was actually no gush and blood. Well am so happy that i can now acces the egroups. But i can't use my old adress caz whenever i try to use it the phone malfunctions....its like the name has bad carma on it.
That's why i got a new one...no more "Ameixing lyf" Brothers en sisters...i was wondering wheather there's something i can do....other than a bunishing ritual...caz i have tried all that.
Pliz help me.
Caz am falling a part. Hail Satan
Hail all hell
Bless the jos administration
This crisis stated the moment i broke up with my xtian friend. We were so tight...to the extent that he was like a brother to me. I adored him so much caz he was so very caring! But a voice in my mind kept telling me to stay away from him because he was bad spiritual influence for me. I tried to push him a way but it was very hard caz all he ever did was be good to me and put my happiness before his own. I tried so hard to avoid him but then circumstance brought him around when i was needy of something...so i asked father to help me out. Now there's a long story after that but....after asking for fathers help we finally broke up. I felt so sad. But then father consoled me and told me that my friend wasn't really a friend..but rather the enemies way to get to me...that the guy went to church to prayed for for me. I had never really told him am a satanist but he was so curious about my spiritual life...caz there's a time he jokingly called me a witch.
I guess he always knew am Satanic.
Well after breaking up with him i started to face tons of problems. First was my phone...which is my only link to the jos site and egroups....it started to malfunction that very day i broke up with him. For a while i thought maybe i had accidentally directed negative into it, then strangely it was only the mail section that wasn't working...i was cut off from the egroups. I cried out to father en told him that a day without visting the egroups is like a day without having to talk to family. I tried everything...i even hard reset my phone(lge400)..i did every thing possible but all in vain, caz every thing went to normal apart from the mail section. But as if that wasn't enough...i started feeling confused. I Satrted getting all these weird thoughts in my head that Satan was punishing me for something....(but i hadnt done anything wrong) i started to feel alone and un wanted. I started feeling insecure about fathers love for me. And i was so alone...no friends, no egroups to share my problems with, and then the feeling that Satan didn't actually care about me. I kept denying in my head(telling my self that father actually loves me.)
So i constantly started bugging him to prove that he cares.
That's when i came across a sermon by Maxine that says if one feels confused its because some xtians ere praying for that person. And i knew then that that was the case bcaz my friend was a staunch bornagain christian. Worse came to worst when my meditation routine started to feel weird. I just can't concentrate(which was very easy back then). Now when ever i try to visualise brilliant gold for my aura of protection all i can see i a balckness around me...i mean all the time.
Its like my defences have totally weakened. Every other night am attacted by SPIRITS in my dreams. First was a spirit that came to me en it was in my mothers form. And i don't know how but i knew it wasn't my mother so i asked i called out to father who who gave me guts to fight the spirit... physically! It felt like fighting my mom. The following days am always running in my dreams, running from bad spirits.
But last night it was so freaking intense. It wasnt a dream...a bad spirit physically attacked me...en i did not know what to do....but wonder where was my guardian demon...i dont even know his name.
The spirit was hurting me. It felt like it was sturbing me in the belly...and there were sone weird chants.
I was in deep pain.
I called out to father...i visualised his sigil and begged he helps me. Suddenly it all stopped. And the pain was gone. I checked my belly en there was actually no gush and blood. Well am so happy that i can now acces the egroups. But i can't use my old adress caz whenever i try to use it the phone malfunctions....its like the name has bad carma on it.
That's why i got a new one...no more "Ameixing lyf" Brothers en sisters...i was wondering wheather there's something i can do....other than a bunishing ritual...caz i have tried all that.
Pliz help me.
Caz am falling a part. Hail Satan
Hail all hell
Bless the jos administration