On Mon, Oct 16, 2017 at 12:44,
zolaluckystar@... [JoyofSatan666]<
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I guess it depends on how old you are. Are you a teen at home, or are you an adult with your own home and autonomy from your family? As in its YOUR place? You pay the bills, you aren't dependant on them?
I would definitely up my AOP to start and do the returning curses daily. Heres the link for that one:
http://dawn666blacksun. angelfire.com/1-2-17.htm
When all these freaks are 'praying' for you, they are in reality cursing you and interfering in your work for Satan so you need to return those curses to the senders. Doing this daily helps to clear and clean your aura and soul, and will do you a LOT of good. Its very powerful. I use it a lot. Keep doing the RTR's. Doing them also blesses you.
Using blows holes in your aura so you need to really work on cleaning, clearing your aura and your AOP. Go sit in the sun with a rosary and do a rosary of SURAYE daily. Start a 40 day working.
Honestly, your sister is a piece of work to be rummaging through your personal things. Its a total violation of your privacy, personal space, is incredibly invasive, disrespectful and she is WAY out of line. Its not her place to police you. Its not her life, its not her damned business! She has a hell of a nerve. How DARE she burn your things?!?
If it were me and I wasn't dependant on my family (as in a teen stuck at home and dependant) I'd probably go ballistic, rip her a new asshole for her trespassing/invasion on my personal effects, my beliefs and my LIFE, DEMAND my shit back and once I got that cut her out of my life. But thats me. I have no patience for that kind of shit. If I were still dependant on them, I'd probably go really cold and silent, speak as little to them as possible. And begin planning on how I can arrange to move out. But again, thats me. Or if I absolutely had to, I'd play nice till again, I could escape. Either way I'd probably go on the warpath on my sister. But I can't tell you what to do there. Thats your life.
As for the alchohol and drugs. They can really get you by the balls. One technique that really helps is everytime the urge hits, tell yourself sure you can have that, after you do (think of something to do). Clean your bathroom, laundry, wash dishes, etc. What happens is, because you didn't say NO that dependant addict part isn't going to freak as hard. The urge will go away. Maybe for a few hours. When it rears its head again, again, say sure as soon as I come back from the gym/yoga (whatever). You just delay and delay, till the liquor store is closed, till there is no way to get anything for the night. You'll find the urge will vanish. Thats one day. Next day, you again, play the stalling game. You'll feel like you'll just die without a drink maybe. But thats just a feeling. You won't die. Thats the addict part trying to work you. One day at a time. And as the time sober/clean increases, it gets easier.
Someone who has never had to deal with this kind of thing will just say be strong! Don't be a pussy! Satanism is for the strong!
They will be really judgemental. But the reality is these things can really sink their tentacles in. It took time to develop an addiction, it takes time to get free of it. You have to make the decision to work on it and do your best. You have to commit. If you fall down one day and get wasted, then you get up the next and you start over and keep trying. Don't waste time chastising yourself. You aren't perfect yet, but you're fighting to be better. Thats what's important. Focus on that. When you finally beat this thing, you'll be stronger in yourself than you ever thought you could be but also you'll be able to have empathy for someone else who has the same fight in front of them. You'll possess wisdom and understanding. You'll be strong then, as indeed, Satanism is for the strong but who knows the lonely road one must walk first, and the private struggles? And the pain that strikes in the dead of night and must be overcome? So someone else can't know that. Thats your journey. And its your choice. To invest in yourself.
Do some deep introspection and try to be really honest with yourself. Try to find the reasons why you are doing this. For example, a lot of people do it to self-medicate. To numb the pain and forget for a few hours. So, try to look deep and see what is causing you your pain, and address it. Get honest with yourself. Its going to hurt. You have to go through that hurt to reach the other side. Be brave and face it. Take steps to begin healing that inner child that is hurt. People hurt themselves and others because they are hurting. Depression is anger turned inwards. Into self hate. So the person punishes themselves.
Eat as well as you can, healthy and nutricious food, meditate, get your sleep, ask you GD if He/She can help you in any way, maybe help give you insight as to the root cause of this problem and how you might help yourself. Even if its just to talk to them, when you're feeling down and alone. As a Satanist, you aren't alone anymore. Your GD is there to turn to.
Sometimes if a persons aura is weak from doing drugs/alchol, discarnate entitys that were drunks or drug addicts in life can attach themselves and urge you on to drink/use, in order to vicariously experience what they crave so bad and can't experience directly as they don't have a body anymore. Or the enemy greys could be egging you on, to destroy you. Or maybe you have attached thoughtforms that need to be cleared out. As an SS though, I would think, If you are trying your best (doing your part) and some parasite is trying to latch on (or already has), I'd think your GD would help detach them. If He/She sees you need a hand. They won't do it all for you, thats your task but if you are being overwhelmed and they can see you are really trying hard, I think they would help.
And also, remember, when you are feeling down and sad and hurting, alone....talk to Satan. He's your Father.
Satanic Blessings to you on your journey.
You can pull out of this. Don't give up.
