SouthernWhiteGentile said:
Last night there was this huge energy of every negative emotion times 20 that came over me. I was so upset at nothing and lashed out at someone I was messaging on my phone. I couldn’t even focus to do an RTR. Then today I’m feeling down because I’ve never been with a woman and don’t have friends anymore. This usually rarely happens but it has been everyday recently. Anyone else?
Last night for
me while laying in bed I awoke from my sleep suddenly to these flitting shadows in the darkness flying about my room. I awoke to this sight with my mind being
extremely active with so many words being said left and right, I couldn't make sense of what was going on. I tried ignoring them and doing void meditation as I've seen and dealt with them before, but then I felt them touching my arm and poking at me. One of them seemed to 'crawl' over me, enveloping my sight and I felt this immense coldness suddenly blanket over me, I felt my energy being sucked out of me. I sat up and engulfed myself in blue flames and tried to build up a protective barrier, but I was in a very tired, confused and addled state.
They fled when this very large figure about 7 ft tall appeared at my bed side. My astral sight is not all that developed, all I could make out was this very tall and muscular/bulky whiteish mist. It was a very powerful male presence though and for some reason the name that popped into my head was 'Zeus'. I have no idea who 'Zeus' actually is as one of our gods and have no idea why he of all gods would choose to suddenly assist me when all other forms of protection I've had in the past have been from other gods/demons that my guardian sends on his behalf.
I was still extremely wary, cautious and defensive so I was still using blue fire and was retreating myself away from the figure, but there was this very comforting and positive wave that came over me from the figure all of a sudden. It felt extremely reassuring and comforting, like a blanket. I eventually relaxed and decided to lay down again while keeping my eye on the figure cautiously. Eventually they left and everything was quiet again, so I fell back asleep.
I'm used to attacks from the enemy and deal with them well enough, so that wasn't really the highlight of my night, it was more about that strange figure.