Edward Lonsa said:
When we are so sick that it is very hurtful even to walk out and we have to look for a job that we will pay for with our health and time of life, we have to think very strategically and ask ourselves before accepting a job:
-what will it give us in the future and long term?
-is it something that will make me happier than if the job were different?
-is this the field that I really want to live my whole life in without abandon and dedicate all of the next lives (since your skills will transfer into the next lives) and then all of eternity to it?
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When I remember I advised you to find a job that would make your life happier and be bright point in it, I was not referring to money and other mundane things that become hateful when we sacrifice more valuable things for them. I was referring to those jobs that are more satisfying than if they didn't exist, without any payback and just by their process alone. I meant something that if you did not it you would have been unhappier and unhealthier. I meant what Socrates had said: make your hobby your job and you will never have to work again.
It's inherent in a person to crave fulfillment in a profession, and they suffer greatly if their current job doesn't provide that chance and they are forced to do hateful shit for money. While if they had loved affair it could not only relieve emotional pain but also support and give spirit in fight against physical one.
Also I respectfully remind you that acupuncture is the best known physical pain relief ever existent while "aspirin" and related usually never work their purpose. Now when you have money, you might make some sense out of it and at last go to TCM specialist and take your health back once and for all.
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Thank you for your advice and guidance on this. I do remember your post and I kept in mind your advice about finding a job/career that is a passion that I'd be fulfilled by.
Unfortunately, for now I've had to put that aside as I have to take what I can get for the time being because of current financial and other circumstances. My intention is to come back to that and pursue my passions soon enough, as I have some money saved and things look better in that regard for me.
My passion is for programming and most of computer science. The area I am from is mostly devoid of opportunity in that area of expertise. Moving really isn't an option at this point in time either.
Some jobs in this are available here and there, yet I am not an experienced programmer and need time to hone skills.
I would pursue this instead if I had a feasible opportunity to do so, but nearly everything I've found is companies that want highly experienced programmers, and not a single one willing to train or accept people willing to just learn the tools as they go.
When I am able to I'll likely just go all in on writing programs as I learn more, then use that as an opportunity to get my foot in the door somewhere.
Also my decision to stay at this job has been influenced by the fact that many of the supervisors have offered me some serious room for growth and opportunity to learn other things on the job. This seems to be a bit of an uncommon thing there, as they seem to see something in me in regards to that.
Plus well, it's near to me, and in the area I'm from poor job choices are about all you can find unless you drive an hour to the nearest city, or look extremely hard for decent opportunity.
Thank you for the guidance and advice on acupuncture as well. I definitely intend to follow through and get some treatment with a TCM Specialist.