Feeling very stuck

[cloud444]

I made an earlier post about how I had a bad head injury and accidental kundalini awakening, doing meditation, deep breathing and yoga thinking it would help speed up my injury. When the serpent first raised it only went a little below the heart chakra, I then had to masturbate regularly to keep it down after I finally got most of the energy grounded. Here is my situation as of now, whether or not people believe me. My body is not ready for this energy in ANY way shape or form. The problem is I have extreme adrenal fatigue stage 3 and very very low kidney energy. In tcm my acupuncturist says I have very low yin and yang. To heal this im supposed to withstand from sexual activity BUT if I dont masturbate within once in two weeks I will start having nightmares of snakes biting me and bliss at the bottom of my spine and the serpent tries to raise again. But if I do masturbate and keep it away then my kidney problems get worse, I have extreme lower back pain and it literally hurts to have an erection at this point. I have thought about suicide many many times because I have epilepsy from my head injury and many other problems. I dont know what to do anymore, keep masturbating and keep getting worse kidney qi or have an extremely unwanted kundalini rising in a body that is a literal piece of shit that cannot handle this energy. Is there any way to make this dormant or keep the energy down? some people here suggested I do exercises to strengthen my kidneys, but it doesn't matter because as soon as they heal the sexual energy gathers faster and I have even less time before it tries to raise again. its a huge problem for me and im so stressed I want to die everyday. I cant recover from my adrenal issues and I cant escape this awakening when my body is clearly not prepared.

 

[retrograde]

I made an earlier post about how I had a bad head injury and accidental kundalini awakening, doing meditation, deep breathing and yoga thinking it would help speed up my injury. When the serpent first raised it only went a little below the heart chakra, I then had to masturbate regularly to keep it down after I finally got most of the energy grounded. Here is my situation as of now, whether or not people believe me. My body is not ready for this energy in ANY way shape or form. The problem is I have extreme adrenal fatigue stage 3 and very very low kidney energy. In tcm my acupuncturist says I have very low yin and yang. To heal this im supposed to withstand from sexual activity BUT if I dont masturbate within once in two weeks I will start having nightmares of snakes biting me and bliss at the bottom of my spine and the serpent tries to raise again. But if I do masturbate and keep it away then my kidney problems get worse, I have extreme lower back pain and it literally hurts to have an erection at this point. I have thought about suicide many many times because I have epilepsy from my head injury and many other problems. I dont know what to do anymore, keep masturbating and keep getting worse kidney qi or have an extremely unwanted kundalini rising in a body that is a literal piece of shit that cannot handle this energy. Is there any way to make this dormant or keep the energy down? some people here suggested I do exercises to strengthen my kidneys, but it doesn't matter because as soon as they heal the sexual energy gathers faster and I have even less time before it tries to raise again. its a huge problem for me and im so stressed I want to die everyday. I cant recover from my adrenal issues and I cant escape this awakening when my body is clearly not prepared.

Reading through this. First question: Bliss at the bottom of your spine.. is it like a "glowing"? Like a euphoria, that if you focus on enabling, becomes very powerful, and maybe comes in waves?

You're body's not a piece of shit, bro. I've read about it on here, but would you share anyway a firsthand account of what serpent activity feels like? Why don't you believe you're ready? Do you have changes of consciousness/perception during this?

I don't know what to say but if you focus your mind and energy on wellness I think you'll be OK. I almost have to wonder, considering the dangerous things people regularly survive, if it's really really hard to die unless the gods want you to. Don't try to kill yourself.. that's only going to make things worse. You're supposed to stay here 'till it's all over. I hope you get better dude, I'll send you some good energy!

 

[Alexandros Iowno [JG]]

I had too kidneys pain from the Kundalini for a lot of months, unbearable pain. I used to sleep with a pillow between my legs to have the legs somewhat parallel and it was helping a bit. Also kidney pain was always accompanied by leg pain, nerve and bone pain.

It helps a lot to completely relax and mentally detension that region. The pain is due to blockages and adaptation of the body. Different was I wanted even in that pain to have the Serpent continue. But know that what you feel is an energy of the Serpent not the Serpent itself, in my opinion.

The sexual energies in my case were used, I suppose , to create the male elixir, to clean and put in the work the lower chakras and systems. The sexual energy goes into the sacral, and the sexual desire is almost null and also the ability to procreate was also null in my case. This energy gets hot in the sacral, it makes some vibrations and it feels very mechanic and electric at the same time. It burns a lot in there, and I can describe it as a burning water atmosphere. After fire for purification goes into the system or goes into the solar chakra were it can be discharged as electricity. Bioelectricity as shocks is made from the yin and yang from the ocean of qi or sacral with the base chakra going into the solar and from there everywhere. This null sexual position took 3 months at least.
Before this mechanism produced by the Serpent I was extremely active, and I couldn't imagine me being else, after the 3 months it balanced both extremes out.

Also this sexual energy as transformed opened all of my abdominal and stomach area, and it feels as purely physical pleasure on the whole belly, as an ocean of electric force, ignited on simply exhaling.

I had my kundalini present as a force when I was just 13-14 years old, and awakened at 16-17 with months of being unable to even sit down. More than 6 years later I had this kidney pain.


What made the pain go away and the stage to evolve was not something I actively did or directly, but the Serpent. After a meditation session and a some 2 hours of full lava up to the solar back extension, going to sleep, I was hit by an extreme electric force that flashed my body and soul. Its duration was less than a second and left my body in chaotic electric convulsions. I had a small blockage in my left shoulder, I knew because of the unbearable pain there.

After this I always felt from time to time the same kidney force but not in pain, in power. Two points as minor chakras symmetrical of the spine close to the kidneys were being active. After these aspects were made and also the fire purifying the soul and body the Chit Kundalini comes, and that came to me days ago after many years.

You should clean your soul, let the fire clean also, or let it be produced. Don't be afraid, pain is little and manageable by having patience and doing cleaning. Also it doesn't take so much time.

Keep your mind clean and don't subdue to some trashy thoughts. The enemy will try to make the worst from the process, but that is avoidable by having a close relation to Gods and having yourself protected by spiritual means.

Do pranayama as it helps building a stronger body vitality. Also communicate your intentions to Father Satan. A lot of gifts and happiness awaits you.

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

Have you considered coming with your problem to the health forum?

Also stress seems to be a no-no for situations like yours. Takes a heavy toll, not just on the body in general, or the mineral/vitamin supplementation, but also on the nervous system.

So maybe the first question should be how do you take care of yourself?

I'll leave the treatment and advice up to HP Shannon or centralforce, Im not good with that.

 

[fuoco blu 666]

You can not deprive yourself of sexual activity, you only worse the situation, the dreams you have are a very serious warning

I advise you to use the Isa rune to calm and fall asleep the energy of the Serpent until you are ready, use affirmations for this purpose to fall asleep this specific energy that you are unable to master for now.

You don't have to lower your energy, you should specifically calm the energy of the Kundalini with the Isa rune, you can do several repetitions, the number of repetitions must be chosen based on how you feel your energy and multiples of 11.


Use it until the energy becomes more stable and gives you physical and mental rest to recover and work to heal.


You should focus on cleaning and healing, Vend and Sovilo are good for healing, also follow the advices  that HP Hoodedcobra666 gave you months ago.

 

[cloud444]

fuoco blue i dont think you understand, i have low kidney energy as i wrote in my post. it literally stabs with pain like a knife if i even masturbate or have sex once within three weeks. i am unable. i also have epilepsy and neurological stmptoms like numbness tingling and burning, my doctor thinks i have multiple sclerosis too. thats why i wish kundalini would go away. it cannot heal epilepsy and multiple sclerosis it makes it worse

 

[Gearshift]

I seen your previous post but know that you posted what you posted. In my opinion whatever happens when you fully raise it?

For example do you think your mind is prepared for it to enter the 6th center Ajna chakra and then out Sahasrara?

Do you think your mind can handle it, your thought process, your actions. It seems to me like besides some nasty side effects and certain physical ailments you seem to be going at it like many who've delved into kundalini state. It seems like it creates issues as it tries to fix it.

I recall long ago someone on Yahoo forums mentioned the main point of working on the kundalini in a slow way is to let it slowly work it's way up. Obviously in one day it doesn't rise but as it rises and falls it clears out situations. For example the main purpose at least one of them is to burn the chakra seeds i.e. karmic imprints. Another is to slowly test the waters out and see how your mind, body, and soul handle it.

But ignoring all that it seems for you it causes a lot of issues. So my question is have you worked on the chakras themselves? Did you feel the kundalini (pierce) them? Is the kundalini at a awakened stage of (fully ascending) or is it just an (etheric projection)?

I'm not sure if I should state this as it sounds delusional albeit it's possible that might be one way of working at it. But people have stated that when dedicated the kundalini is under Satan's watch and he can override the action of it. In other words if your not ready he may drop it a few octaves in power or put it back down to sleep for a later time. I will admit there was one user who stated they had a kundalini activation that went away after dedicating.

But again I'm not sure if that is delusions or real. Again unfortunately it's hard to kinda gauge the situation for you because you can be trolling. Just one possibility not stating your not being real.

BUT....

Like I said "Whether you are or are not", Do you think with the softness of your symptoms that you are ready for a full on ascension and even if it's just an etheric projection do you think your ready for it?

In the end let's say your not a troll and your being genuine. Having the serpent activated despite the negatives like lack of control or lack of void or delving into hypnosis or delving into other meditations. In the end it's a HUGE step for development.

Remember the nadis of the rear chakras are connected to all chakras your entire soul is lit up. Don't you think compared to others you skipped a whole bunch of steps and leaps and bounds to the serpent. I'm not trying to negate your negatives just saying this potential curse might be a blessing in disguise. Think about this carefully before you post again.

(P.S. If I'm being an asshole or disrespectful or malefic; pardon me. But I think if this is real, this is a potential wonderful moment despite the negatives.)

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Is that the frequency you masturbate, once it two weeks, or is like every couple of days? If it is truly every two weeks, then you surely do have an adrenal problem.

What are your tcm specialists saying? They need to do more to benefit you and your adrenals. Don't tell them about the kundalini stuff, just say that you have wet dreams every week, so you don't know what to do about the sexual abstinence. I would highly recommend Ashwaganda supplements to support the adrenals. Ashwaganda is problably one of the go-to herbs when someone mentions adrenal issues.

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The exercises are better than nothing, but if you feel like the real problem lies in the sexual activity, then you should consider fixing that directly. I would highly recommend the SaTaNaMa mantra to fix your body, as it is generally used for healing. I cannot imagine it not working for you. Do as many reps as you can reliably manage. Assuming you have lots of free time, do 100 or even 200. Use a number that is a multiple of 9. For example: 18, 63, 216, etc.

Here is an example affirmation to use SaTaNaMa: "In a safe, positive, and healthy way for me, I am permanently perfected in every way: spiritually, mentally, and physically now, continuously, and forever!"

Say it at least 9x, 9 is a power number. You can tailor the affirmation to be more specific, if you wish. Feel free to post a different affirmation you want to use, and we can look at it.

There is also a mudra associated with SaTaNaMa. It is optional, but do it if you can, it will only increase the power.

 

[cloud444]

another thing gear, is that no i have not worked on anything, i just did meditation, deepbreathing and yoga when trying to heal my epilepsy and it woke up. that was it. since that first rising, i have had to masturbate to keep it away because its the only way to keep it down. i fear this energy extremely especially in my very very fragile body state

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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Any update? Also, did you dedicate yet?

If you believe your body is the limitation, doing yoga, perhaps hatha in this case, would quickly work to heal and prepare the body for holding higher amounts of energy. The exercises involved are mostly stretches, which would allow the tissues a higher capacity for energy.

Qigong, as far as I can tell, is more about balancing energy flow within the body. This is beneficial as well, however it seems like your current problem is too much energy, so make sure you do hatha yoga first, then qigong.

What else are you currently doing? How long are you bed ridden, in your current cycle? Do you have a day or 2 where you are able to get out of bed? Consider ashwaganda and other adrenal herbs, from a TCM standpoint, to heal your adrenals quicker.

 

[cloud444]

to be honest i dont really care anymore. i have two chronic diseases epilepsy and multiple sclerosis. i lay in bed with tingling, numbness and burning in my limbs. i have no energy, these diseases are degenerative. there is no point in me doing yoga, or any other practice, my body is too stupid to get it together and would rather destroy itself despite my efforts to put it back together. thats why i dont even want to go through ascension, these ilness combined with how traumatic and long ascension takes i just dont have any willpower anymore to move forward. i feel a lot of apathy and i just dont want to be here anymore or bother trying