Double personality

Ass Hole · Aug 20, 2014

I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me. Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside. Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.

Light Yagami · Aug 21, 2014

Well... Some long time ago I wanted to be a male... but I never truly wanted that. Eventually I found out some gruesome facts about my previous life/lives that had made me hate my gender in this lifetime. By meditating I advanced (and a trillion thank you to my Guardians who were always by my side when I had to deal with my past lives residues) so now I love being a female and I enjoy it to the utmost.

But for you, I can't really know, you know?It could either be that something miiight have happened in your previous life/lives that caused you to hate your gender in this lifetime, or, if you honestly 100% would like to be a female then maybe you have more female hormones than male hormones? If thinking that if you had a sex change would make you happy, then this is what you should do?

This subject is a bit peculiar I believe, because there are so many stupid people (certain doctors and scientists involved) that they don't make any actual, honest research on the subject... Or, if they do, their minds are filled with stereotypes that they don't allow themselves to see things as they truly are.Don't call it "double personality" though, I think it means some sort of mental disorder.

Anyway, you could most likely question yourself about it... I mean, did you always have that (those thoughts)? Did you always want to be a female? OR, there's anothing thing, if you like men. I personally know a girl who likes other girls, but wishes she was a man just so that it'd be more 'convenient' to be with other girls. As you understand, society has messed with her mind etc and made her ashamed of her own sexuality, to the point that she'd much rather be a man, just so that she could be with other women. So, if you like other men but are too ashamed of it, or are not willing to take a stand against "society's" (jewish programming) opinion then maybe you think that by being a woman things would just be much easier and simple.
Phew, I wrote a lot haha, I've been there, that's why.

Στις 6:50 μ.μ. Τετάρτη, 20 Αυγούστου 2014, ο/η "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] έγραψε:


 I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me. Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside. Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.

magnum.arcanum · Aug 21, 2014

Double Personality I’m not a doctor but I’m not an idiot posing as one either. It's not strange at all. And no, you are not schizophrenic. Stay away from those "idiot" psychologists! You lived many lives. Sometimes what happens is one life can overtake the current life completely or partially. It's called being gay normally, but not necessarily. Most gay people I'm friends with don't like to acknowledge those that are only “somewhat” gay, or gay “once in a while”. They tend to dismiss such people as weird or fakers or something. Let me give you an analogy of what’s going on. Imagine the Sun with thousands of circling planets. Imagine you're an immortal spiritual being and you're the Sun. The planets represent different lifetimes you've had. Some planets are bigger and have a greater influence on the sun and the surrounding planets than the others. So, the life you had as a woman is overtaking the one you're currently having as a man because it has more influence. Depending on the hold it has on you, you can either be gay during those times or you can try to be in present time or both. Being gay is not going to affect what you do in Spiritual Satanism. It may even help you to learn things about yourself faster. Being in present time is easier said than done. It requires some work. Try this quick fix when you wonder into the other lifetime. Go someplace where people can't see you or hear you, preferably outside. Here are the commands that you should say out loud: "Find a spot in the environment". [Note: Give a spot a specific name e.g. a tree trunk. If working with a partner, tell the partner what it is as he or she will be giving the commands). "Look at that ______ (spot in the environment)". "Walk over to that _______ (spot in the environment)". "Touch that _______ (spot in the environment)". "Turn around". Repeat this until you feel like you’re happy and in present time. [Note: When you do this start out with big areas and then as you repeat this process, pick things that are more and more specific]. This should locate you (the spirit) in your current body. You should do this for at least 20 minutes. It can go on for some hours. And you will feel a big change and know when you go from the woman lifetime to your current lifetime. You can do this yourself, but it might be too hard. If so, get a big person to do it to you. Instruct them to drag your ass through it if necessary and if you try to run away, to physically restrain you using a high degree of intention. Make sure that you perform every command. For example instruct your helper that if you don’t look at the object to repeat the command. If they tell you to 'turn around" and you just stand there, they should tell you to "turn around" again. If, you don’t comply, then instruct him or her to make you comply. It will get you into present time. Once you feel the change, you should "feel better" and possibly "happy". Then carefully examine your feelings to see if you still feel the woman influence. It not, then you're all set. The process will get easier and easier. If you still feel the influence though - then you are partially gay. Being partially gay can be difficult. Many people have this going on, so don't feel bad if you can't fix it with bringing yourself into present time, it’s not going to negatively affect your goals in Spiritual Satanism. Many people have the same problem but it goes unnoticed because the dominant personality is of the same sex. Good luck. ---In [email protected], <stripsilly1989@... wrote :

I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me.Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside.Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.

Kareem Zedan · Aug 21, 2014

This is because you have adhered yourself to the stereotypical concept of what a Male is and what a Female is. In the end the problem your have is your concept of what this is and not the reality of it.
Just accept yourself, why do you have to think that this is wrong?
Hail Satan!!!!

On Wednesday, 20 August 2014, 16:50, "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:

I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me. Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside. Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.

Hou ssem · Aug 21, 2014

It could be a psychological thing.
maybe you admire females and see them superior to men and want to be like them.
or maybe you grew up in an environment in which there were more
females than males..
I don't know really the cause .I'm just brainstorming

Hail Satan!لا اله الا ابليس

On 8/20/14, Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]
<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a
problem for me.

Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female.
Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't
malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize
myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in
my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in
front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a
female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female
except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm
very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I
wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking
hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This
was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a
male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are
some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this
is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but
a female inside.

Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to
correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.

Jason Alfano · Aug 21, 2014

<td val[/IMG]Brother! I struggle with some of the same issues. 1st and i hope i can address all this for you, sometimes we will have the soul of the opposite sex. We all have genes of both sexes, and consider the staff of Hermes (Thoth) the Ida and Pingala, male and female serpents, with the shushumna in the center being the "finished product" of the combo of them both. As i said i struggle with the same, to the point where its confirmed by numerology which im now studying..looking for further info. Now im on a phone with no way to go back to your or our sisters post and a depleted memory so theres not much more i can coment on, but its not very likely mental or a fear of "coming out". I would very much like to speak 1 on 1 w/ you concerning all this, perhaps we can help eachother figure this out. Ill end here and invite you to contact me dirrectly, if the clergy finds this wise. I suggest you, if possible, order a chart from our High Priestess, for this clairified many things for me. I hadnt been on here in a long time and only just did to attempt to contact H.P Maxine on this very topic, when this was the very 1st email in my account!!! So ill send this and see what happends...i dont believe this is a coincidence tho!!
HAIL LORD SATAN!!! Sent from Yahoo Mail on Android [/TD]

From: Light Yagami tapapakiastinseira@... [JoyofSatan666] <[email protected];
To: [email protected] <[email protected];
Subject: Σχετ: [JoyofSatan666] Double personality
Sent: Wed, Aug 20, 2014 7:59:03 PM

<td val[/IMG] Well... Some long time ago I wanted to be a male... but I never truly wanted that. Eventually I found out some gruesome facts about my previous life/lives that had made me hate my gender in this lifetime. By meditating I advanced (and a trillion thank you to my Guardians who were always by my side when I had to deal with my past lives residues) so now I love being a female and I enjoy it to the utmost.

But for you, I can't really know, you know?It could either be that something miiight have happened in your previous life/lives that caused you to hate your gender in this lifetime, or, if you honestly 100% would like to be a female then maybe you have more female hormones than male hormones? If thinking that if you had a sex change would make you happy, then this is what you should do?

This subject is a bit peculiar I believe, because there are so many stupid people (certain doctors and scientists involved) that they don't make any actual, honest research on the subject... Or, if they do, their minds are filled with stereotypes that they don't allow themselves to see things as they truly are.Don't call it "double personality" though, I think it means some sort of mental disorder.

Anyway, you could most likely question yourself about it... I mean, did you always have that (those thoughts)? Did you always want to be a female? OR, there's anothing thing, if you like men. I personally know a girl who likes other girls, but wishes she was a man just so that it'd be more 'convenient' to be with other girls. As you understand, society has messed with her mind etc and made her ashamed of her own sexuality, to the point that she'd much rather be a man, just so that she could be with other women. So, if you like other men but are too ashamed of it, or are not willing to take a stand against "society's" (jewish programming) opinion then maybe you think that by being a woman things would just be much easier and simple.
Phew, I wrote a lot haha, I've been there, that's why.

Στις 6:50 μ.μ. Τετάρτη, 20 Αυγούστου 2014, ο/η "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] έγραψε:


 I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me. Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside. Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.
 

 [/TD]

egon_88_666 · Aug 21, 2014

Truth be told, nobody change the biological sex through lifetimes. One of the reasons it *MAY* be is that you are advancing through meditation and activating your kundalini which is very sexual (and hermaphrodite), which is giving you self sexual understanding and acceptance - it is very normal in the spiritual development and stabilizes with time.

centralforce66 · Aug 22, 2014

Correcting this 'problem' is perhaps more a product of programming than you think. The female element of the soul is the most powerful, and this is why females are somewhat at an advantage to developing spiritually. It is difficult usually for a male to understand the female nature and thus elicit and 'control' for lack of a better word the female elements of the soul. This is why the enemy programs so strongly denigrate women and oppress them. It is easy for a woman to understand and even emulate a male attitude or reasoning but the opposite is not always true and if you have this innate within you then EMBRACE it as a woman would, trust and accept your nature and have fun with it as a woman would. Your spiritual progress will reflect it's success. Just for info's sake I a am a male however the strength of a woman and the female element of the soul (the kundalini is often referred to as a she, however lacking direct experience with it I can only speculate on that) is clearly the most elusive and powerful even to me. HAIL SATAN!

Ass Hole · Aug 22, 2014

I'm sorry but I don't contact people, there's a warning against that, don't you know? We can talk about it here though. You learn from what every one is saying as I'm doing.

On Aug 21, 2014 6:31 PM, "Jason Alfano eremoslukos8@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

<td val[/IMG]Brother! I struggle with some of the same issues. 1st and i hope i can address all this for you, sometimes we will have the soul of the opposite sex. We all have genes of both sexes, and consider the staff of Hermes (Thoth) the Ida and Pingala, male and female serpents, with the shushumna in the center being the "finished product" of the combo of them both. As i said i struggle with the same, to the point where its confirmed by numerology which im now studying..looking for further info. Now im on a phone with no way to go back to your or our sisters post and a depleted memory so theres not much more i can coment on, but its not very likely mental or a fear of "coming out". I would very much like to speak 1 on 1 w/ you concerning all this, perhaps we can help eachother figure this out. Ill end here and invite you to contact me dirrectly, if the clergy finds this wise. I suggest you, if possible, order a chart from our High Priestess, for this clairified many things for me. I hadnt been on here in a long time and only just did to attempt to contact H.P Maxine on this very topic, when this was the very 1st email in my account!!! So ill send this and see what happends...i dont believe this is a coincidence tho!!
HAIL LORD SATAN!!! Sent from Yahoo Mail on Android [/TD]
From: Light Yagami tapapakiastinseira@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url];
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url];
Subject: Σχετ: [JoyofSatan666] Double personality
Sent: Wed, Aug 20, 2014 7:59:03 PM

<td val[/IMG] Well... Some long time ago I wanted to be a male... but I never truly wanted that. Eventually I found out some gruesome facts about my previous life/lives that had made me hate my gender in this lifetime. By meditating I advanced (and a trillion thank you to my Guardians who were always by my side when I had to deal with my past lives residues) so now I love being a female and I enjoy it to the utmost.
But for you, I can't really know, you know? It could either be that something miiight have happened in your previous life/lives that caused you to hate your gender in this lifetime, or, if you honestly 100% would like to be a female then maybe you have more female hormones than male hormones? If thinking that if you had a sex change would make you happy, then this is what you should do?
This subject is a bit peculiar I believe, because there are so many stupid people (certain doctors and scientists involved) that they don't make any actual, honest research on the subject... Or, if they do, their minds are filled with stereotypes that they don't allow themselves to see things as they truly are. Don't call it "double personality" though, I think it means some sort of mental disorder.
Anyway, you could most likely question yourself about it... I mean, did you always have that (those thoughts)? Did you always want to be a female? OR, there's anothing thing, if you like men. I personally know a girl who likes other girls, but wishes she was a man just so that it'd be more 'convenient' to be with other girls. As you understand, society has messed with her mind etc and made her ashamed of her own sexuality, to the point that she'd much rather be a man, just so that she could be with other women. So, if you like other men but are too ashamed of it, or are not willing to take a stand against "society's" (jewish programming) opinion then maybe you think that by being a woman things would just be much easier and simple.
Phew, I wrote a lot haha, I've been there, that's why. 

 Στις 6:50 μ.μ. Τετάρτη, 20 Αυγούστου 2014, ο/η "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" < [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected] [/url] έγραψε:


 I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me. Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside. Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.
 

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Ass Hole · Aug 22, 2014

Yeah, you might be right.. You know when someone is crazy the one doesn't know it. But what I want is solutions.

On Aug 21, 2014 6:30 PM, "Hou ssem maeyhim@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

It could be a psychological thing.
maybe you admire females and see them superior to men and want to be like them.
or maybe you grew up in an environment in which there were more
females than males..
I don't know really the cause .I'm just brainstorming

Hail Satan!لا اله الا ابليس

On 8/20/14, Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]
<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:
I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a
problem for me.

Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female.
Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't
malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize
myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in
my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in
front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a
female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female
except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm
very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I
wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking
hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This
was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a
male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are
some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this
is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but
a female inside.

Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to
correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.

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Ass Hole · Aug 22, 2014

The sex change thing is very tempting and attractive in my ears @ Light Yaga... But I don't think I want to live like that. There are certainly a lot of things involved in that transplant that maybe the public don't know, but I got a no no from my GD once I read that. Its as if there are complications or body parts that are going to be lost during that process which I don't think is a good thing for someone wanting to achieve Godhood.. Don't forget we're not dying in the next 6, 000 yrs. Its going to be a lot of complications. I seriously think HPs should do an indebt study on sexual transplantations or body part losses through uncircumstantial transplant or surgery and cosmetic surgeries and how they affects us SS family.

On Aug 20, 2014 8:59 PM, "Light Yagami tapapakiastinseira@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

Well... Some long time ago I wanted to be a male... but I never truly wanted that. Eventually I found out some gruesome facts about my previous life/lives that had made me hate my gender in this lifetime. By meditating I advanced (and a trillion thank you to my Guardians who were always by my side when I had to deal with my past lives residues) so now I love being a female and I enjoy it to the utmost.
But for you, I can't really know, you know? It could either be that something miiight have happened in your previous life/lives that caused you to hate your gender in this lifetime, or, if you honestly 100% would like to be a female then maybe you have more female hormones than male hormones? If thinking that if you had a sex change would make you happy, then this is what you should do?
This subject is a bit peculiar I believe, because there are so many stupid people (certain doctors and scientists involved) that they don't make any actual, honest research on the subject... Or, if they do, their minds are filled with stereotypes that they don't allow themselves to see things as they truly are. Don't call it "double personality" though, I think it means some sort of mental disorder.
Anyway, you could most likely question yourself about it... I mean, did you always have that (those thoughts)? Did you always want to be a female? OR, there's anothing thing, if you like men. I personally know a girl who likes other girls, but wishes she was a man just so that it'd be more 'convenient' to be with other girls. As you understand, society has messed with her mind etc and made her ashamed of her own sexuality, to the point that she'd much rather be a man, just so that she could be with other women. So, if you like other men but are too ashamed of it, or are not willing to take a stand against "society's" (jewish programming) opinion then maybe you think that by being a woman things would just be much easier and simple.
Phew, I wrote a lot haha, I've been there, that's why. 

 Στις 6:50 μ.μ. Τετάρτη, 20 Αυγούστου 2014, ο/η "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] έγραψε:


 I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me. Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside. Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.
 

 

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Ass Hole · Aug 22, 2014

I won't say I'm gay or bisexual cos I enjoy sex with an opposite sex more than I do with a same sex. Only thing is that I admire same sex some and i've played with some but I'm not very attached to it. I'm going to try what you suggested but I want to know if what I said above is going to interfere with it. Bottom line is I don't think is sexuality that's causing it.

On Aug 21, 2014 6:27 PM, "magnum.arcanum@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

Double Personality I’m not a doctor but I’m not an idiot posing as one either. It's not strange at all. And no, you are not schizophrenic. Stay away from those "idiot" psychologists! You lived many lives. Sometimes what happens is one life can overtake the current life completely or partially. It's called being gay normally, but not necessarily. Most gay people I'm friends with don't like to acknowledge those that are only “somewhat” gay, or gay “once in a while”. They tend to dismiss such people as weird or fakers or something. Let me give you an analogy of what’s going on. Imagine the Sun with thousands of circling planets. Imagine you're an immortal spiritual being and you're the Sun. The planets represent different lifetimes you've had. Some planets are bigger and have a greater influence on the sun and the surrounding planets than the others. So, the life you had as a woman is overtaking the one you're currently having as a man because it has more influence. Depending on the hold it has on you, you can either be gay during those times or you can try to be in present time or both. Being gay is not going to affect what you do in Spiritual Satanism. It may even help you to learn things about yourself faster. Being in present time is easier said than done. It requires some work. Try this quick fix when you wonder into the other lifetime. Go someplace where people can't see you or hear you, preferably outside. Here are the commands that you should say out loud: "Find a spot in the environment". [Note: Give a spot a specific name e.g. a tree trunk. If working with a partner, tell the partner what it is as he or she will be giving the commands). "Look at that ______ (spot in the environment)". "Walk over to that _______ (spot in the environment)". "Touch that _______ (spot in the environment)". "Turn around". Repeat this until you feel like you’re happy and in present time. [Note: When you do this start out with big areas and then as you repeat this process, pick things that are more and more specific]. This should locate you (the spirit) in your current body. You should do this for at least 20 minutes. It can go on for some hours. And you will feel a big change and know when you go from the woman lifetime to your current lifetime. You can do this yourself, but it might be too hard. If so, get a big person to do it to you. Instruct them to drag your ass through it if necessary and if you try to run away, to physically restrain you using a high degree of intention. Make sure that you perform every command. For example instruct your helper that if you don’t look at the object to repeat the command. If they tell you to 'turn around" and you just stand there, they should tell you to "turn around" again. If, you don’t comply, then instruct him or her to make you comply. It will get you into present time. Once you feel the change, you should "feel better" and possibly "happy". Then carefully examine your feelings to see if you still feel the woman influence. It not, then you're all set. The process will get easier and easier. If you still feel the influence though - then you are partially gay. Being partially gay can be difficult. Many people have this going on, so don't feel bad if you can't fix it with bringing yourself into present time, it’s not going to negatively affect your goals in Spiritual Satanism. Many people have the same problem but it goes unnoticed because the dominant personality is of the same sex. Good luck. ---In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], <stripsilly1989@... wrote :

I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me.Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside. Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.

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shantikami · Aug 23, 2014

I am no expert on psychology, but I can forward a guess.I've always found gender to be a fluid concept for me, more of an emotional/mental concept as opposed to the rooted physical nature of one's sex. So, gender-wise, sometimes I can be a girly-girl, womanly, boyish, or neutral.

Maybe you are getting in touch with your 'feminine' side?

Or, maybe having this experience is going to help you learn something you'd otherwise not learn?

Hopefully, my guesses are food for thought.

Ass Hole · Aug 23, 2014

The sex change thing is very tempting and attractive in my ears @ Light Yaga... But I don't think I want to live like that. There are certainly a lot of things involved in that transplant that maybe the public don't know, but I got a no no from my GD once I read that. Its as if there are complications or body parts that are going to be lost during that process which I don't think is a good thing for someone wanting to achieve Godhood.. Don't forget we're not dying in the next 6, 000 yrs. Its going to be a lot of complications. I seriously think HPs should do an indebt study on sexual transplantations or body part losses through uncircumstantial transplant or surgery and cosmetic surgeries and how they affects us SS family.

On Aug 20, 2014 8:59 PM, "Light Yagami tapapakiastinseira@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

Well... Some long time ago I wanted to be a male... but I never truly wanted that. Eventually I found out some gruesome facts about my previous life/lives that had made me hate my gender in this lifetime. By meditating I advanced (and a trillion thank you to my Guardians who were always by my side when I had to deal with my past lives residues) so now I love being a female and I enjoy it to the utmost.
But for you, I can't really know, you know? It could either be that something miiight have happened in your previous life/lives that caused you to hate your gender in this lifetime, or, if you honestly 100% would like to be a female then maybe you have more female hormones than male hormones? If thinking that if you had a sex change would make you happy, then this is what you should do?
This subject is a bit peculiar I believe, because there are so many stupid people (certain doctors and scientists involved) that they don't make any actual, honest research on the subject... Or, if they do, their minds are filled with stereotypes that they don't allow themselves to see things as they truly are. Don't call it "double personality" though, I think it means some sort of mental disorder.
Anyway, you could most likely question yourself about it... I mean, did you always have that (those thoughts)? Did you always want to be a female? OR, there's anothing thing, if you like men. I personally know a girl who likes other girls, but wishes she was a man just so that it'd be more 'convenient' to be with other girls. As you understand, society has messed with her mind etc and made her ashamed of her own sexuality, to the point that she'd much rather be a man, just so that she could be with other women. So, if you like other men but are too ashamed of it, or are not willing to take a stand against "society's" (jewish programming) opinion then maybe you think that by being a woman things would just be much easier and simple.
Phew, I wrote a lot haha, I've been there, that's why. 

 Στις 6:50 μ.μ. Τετάρτη, 20 Αυγούστου 2014, ο/η "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] έγραψε:


 I know this sounds strange but lately I'm beginning to think its becoming a problem for me. Alright, I'm a male but there's a problem, I keep thinking I'm a female. Yes I know I'm a male, a bit masculine, handsome, attractive and I don't malfunction in anyway, but when I daydream or think abt sex, or visualize myself doing something while daydreaming, for instance, I like singing in my room with my ear phone on, I'll keep visualizing myself standing in front of a big crowd singing and dancing but like a female. I think like a female, wish I talk like one, dance like a female, behave like a female except I don't make gestures like females, just my entire character. I'm very cool headed and peaceful and very affectionate and very quiet etc. I wasn't molested as a kid, what might be the cause of this? I was thinking hormonal imbalance, is this right? Or am I possessed by some female? This was the reason I asked sometime ago if one can reincarnate and become a male while he died a female. So I know it can't happen. I know there are some males that physically walk, make gestures, eat, act like females, this is not the case here, its just inbuilt. Its like I'm a male on the body but a female inside. Pls I need some help my brothers and sisters (my true family). I want to correct this, what do I do? I want to be whole, to be in charge.
 

 

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