Kramer, you focus exclusively on the negative portion of things, and then you purposefully ignore the other help you've been given, for some reason.
This is also a strong motive of why you may have material problems as well as the outcomes of this kind.
No one has any negative will about you. But yourself have and you act against yourself.
There's nothing wrong with people judging, this cannot be eliminated as it still happens subconsciously and it is in our human nature to have discriminant abilities. In this case this has been used to asses solutions to your problems.
It won't hurt to grow some tough skin, and some inner stimulation for some bravery, endurance. Grow in yourself the necessary motivation to avoid emotional distress by addressing the immediate problems.
Do take a listen to what you've been given until now and know that after you succeed you can come and tell us if we were right or wrong.
Life necessitates more than passive surrender, sometimes all that is needed is some self resiliency and trust in ones powers and Gods. Do strongly empower yourself and clean the dross.