Hi Kyleshand,
The way I channeled my energy was to think and talk more positively towards myself.
Negative self-talk is a real downer. I still envy people; I still desire what I *assume* complete strangers have that I do not, and this is ongoing. I have to work at this to fix it. It's a real drain and a bummer to an otherwise average or great day!
But over time, I am gentler and kinder towards myself, when I catch myself staring at them and envying. That is, I tell myself things that are true about myself and that bring me up, instead of down.
Sometimes in the shower, while I clean, I tell myself in my mind what I appreciate about my looks, to start with, because I don't feel good about the way I look.I am realistic, and don't softsoap the fact about my health and what I have to do to make myself healthier. It's the one time I can efficiently multi-task, lol. Otherwise I don't multi-task.
In my opinion, I think one of the reasons for envy is low self-esteem. Finding something that you enjoy and work at, and are good at or would be good at eventually, does much to boost the happiness of the soul and mind.
Doing lots of void meditation helps, I find. That way I can catch my thoughts when I am in public or at home, and turn negative self-talk and envy into positive self-talk and appreciation of my own traits, good fortune, appearance, and the little things in my life that I am grateful for, like food, shelter, hot water, a roof over my head and clean clothing to wear.
I am thankful for the presence of the Gods in my life, and for their help and blessings, for example.
Follow your inner advice. If you feel bad and would regret hurting another White Gentile, don't do it. Besides, even if you got rid of them or laid misfortune upon them, what happens when you envy someone new? The problem doesn't go away.
I find that having drive and ambition to better yourself, better your life, and turn your focus within instead of at people or a specific person(s), was what helped me. I tell myself that I am of worth to the Gods, and that I have a destiny and purpose(s). And that if there someone that I envy, let me use that energy to better myself! Let them inspire me instead!
Sounds cheesy but it works for me. P:
HS/88
On Monday, May 16, 2016 5:11 AM, "kyleshand@... [JoyofSatan666]" <
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@... Really? Did it work? Like you achieved the same things you wanted that they had in the end? How did you channel your energy that way can I ask how you went about it?
The way I am stuck is, I have so much envy. If I try to perform a positive spell to get what I want the envious feelings come up and distract me from the magickal working. Not to mention I think they undermine the working. I have no idea what to do with my envy.
On the other hand, I don't want to hurt my fellow Whites over my own envy. Especially not with the situation in the world being what it is right now and keep in mind I'm talking about Whites who haven't actually done anything to harm me either. But at the same time my envy is so intense I have no idea what to do with it or how to express it.
Thank you for your help and advice.