darkmonkey666
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I have this issue especially with yoga I know I stopped with the yoga for now and dread restarting it even though I should.
I start out in something meditation wise really motivated or start a working even way over doing it with great motivation. Then it kind of becomes a chore to do the meditation if I can not dread doing it enough and i put it off till I'm staying up too late to do meditations and the rtr at the last minute. I suffer insomnia cause of this lol.
Then after a few days of it being a chore my motivation comes back then it goes to being a chore again.
I only missed the rtr 3 days since it began cause of this issue as I have been able to force myself to do it on some days and spent half the day happily doing the rtr on the opposite type of day lol.
Same with meditation.
I know I should start some new meditations switch up etc I usually wait for motivational days to try new things then skip days on certain meditations. I have even done that with aura of protection.
I haven't figured out why my motivation goes in cycles every few days but I figure it somehow has something to do with the moon as it changes quickly like the moon.
Well at one time I burned myself out though way overdoing meditation then skipping altogether for days (this was when I first started satanism btw)
It would be nice to know how to gauge this or go about it btw yeah I know what it sounds like and I do have at least one planet in each cardinal element and my moon is in home sign and the apex of a t square so I'm sure cardinal energy has something to do with this as well but I suspect its the moon.
Any advice oh and how do I figure out what moon sign and cycle is best to start a new thing or get things done its constantly changing sometimes also I have long bouts of motivation for a week or more and also long bouts of having to force myself to do things a week or more as well.
Hail Sata
I start out in something meditation wise really motivated or start a working even way over doing it with great motivation. Then it kind of becomes a chore to do the meditation if I can not dread doing it enough and i put it off till I'm staying up too late to do meditations and the rtr at the last minute. I suffer insomnia cause of this lol.
Then after a few days of it being a chore my motivation comes back then it goes to being a chore again.
I only missed the rtr 3 days since it began cause of this issue as I have been able to force myself to do it on some days and spent half the day happily doing the rtr on the opposite type of day lol.
Same with meditation.
I know I should start some new meditations switch up etc I usually wait for motivational days to try new things then skip days on certain meditations. I have even done that with aura of protection.
I haven't figured out why my motivation goes in cycles every few days but I figure it somehow has something to do with the moon as it changes quickly like the moon.
Well at one time I burned myself out though way overdoing meditation then skipping altogether for days (this was when I first started satanism btw)
It would be nice to know how to gauge this or go about it btw yeah I know what it sounds like and I do have at least one planet in each cardinal element and my moon is in home sign and the apex of a t square so I'm sure cardinal energy has something to do with this as well but I suspect its the moon.
Any advice oh and how do I figure out what moon sign and cycle is best to start a new thing or get things done its constantly changing sometimes also I have long bouts of motivation for a week or more and also long bouts of having to force myself to do things a week or more as well.
Hail Sata