Bravera
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Last year, I spent a greater portion of my year, staying focused on my meditations, advancement and yoga.
I had for the last 3 months of my year, a small room where I could meditate and do my RTRs without interruption.
I had started a new job that was honestly really amazing... but I had learned that my manager was a jew...
Having to work with this fuck on the weekends, I would just get extremely enraged and I felt like I could snap my "workdesk".
I would use the latest RTR to attempt to rid this fuck from my life...
I just couldnt avoid falling back into old habits...
I was bored of living alone in what felt like a box, I hated the idea of having to deal with this jew in such close quarters.
Despite of seeing my RTR actually working on this thing.
I gave up my room, my job, I moved back in with friends.
I guess what I have realized, is that no matter how successful we become physically.
Things are going to go to mayhem sometimes.. If you lose everything, or you feel like you have lost everything.
There is one thing you can never lose.
Your spiritual advancements, your soul, your connection with the gods.
I have felt terrible this month because I had worked so hard to achieve so much, and it was all so quickly ruined, by my own actions, despite of doing my utmost to stay focused on my continued success. I know when I left, that I would achieve greater things in the future, but I cannot deny that it has led me to depression trying to come to terms with my decision.
Despite of everything that has happened, I have found a closer relationship with the gods. I call out to them daily, seeking their guidance, knowing that they will guide me to a success that is permanent.
I had for the last 3 months of my year, a small room where I could meditate and do my RTRs without interruption.
I had started a new job that was honestly really amazing... but I had learned that my manager was a jew...
Having to work with this fuck on the weekends, I would just get extremely enraged and I felt like I could snap my "workdesk".
I would use the latest RTR to attempt to rid this fuck from my life...
I just couldnt avoid falling back into old habits...
I was bored of living alone in what felt like a box, I hated the idea of having to deal with this jew in such close quarters.
Despite of seeing my RTR actually working on this thing.
I gave up my room, my job, I moved back in with friends.
I guess what I have realized, is that no matter how successful we become physically.
Things are going to go to mayhem sometimes.. If you lose everything, or you feel like you have lost everything.
There is one thing you can never lose.
Your spiritual advancements, your soul, your connection with the gods.
I have felt terrible this month because I had worked so hard to achieve so much, and it was all so quickly ruined, by my own actions, despite of doing my utmost to stay focused on my continued success. I know when I left, that I would achieve greater things in the future, but I cannot deny that it has led me to depression trying to come to terms with my decision.
Despite of everything that has happened, I have found a closer relationship with the gods. I call out to them daily, seeking their guidance, knowing that they will guide me to a success that is permanent.