APoleWhoLostAlot
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Hello.
This is my first post here and I start it with questions. These questions are the main reasons I registered here, because I thought of no better place to seek answer to them. First of all forgive me my grammar mistakes, I'm a Pole and my english level is at medium... but I think it's enough to communicate. I'm in a process of reading a translated to polish 700+ pages .pdf containing High Priestess Maxine Dietrich's thoughts copied from Joy of Satan. The translation is a work of a polish Satanist known as Czarny Żmij. I'm very impressed with the content and this book already helped me to cut the last ties to christianity I used to sink in for 15 years. Alright, now straight to the point:
- I asked Lord Satan if He would accept my dedication if I attempted and asked if He wanted a person such as me at His side, but it's a third week already and there's neither possitive nor negattive answer. I'm aware that He and His Companions are very busy, but I just wanted a simple "yes" or "no" in a realistic dream, as I suggested, so that I knew it's not just some dream or that I'm imaginating things I want to hear. I'm not dedicated yet, so I'm afraid of asking by a ritual. How can I know He accepts me if I decide to join Him? I'm not a jew and neither a half-jew. There were no jews in my family as far as I know. I'm still in a phase of reading and am very fresh to the topic, I can't tell if I dedicate, but such an answer would enlighten me a bit. Maybe there's something wrong with me? I think it's important to write that I take drugs as I suffer from depression. Maybe this is the case?
Regards.
This is my first post here and I start it with questions. These questions are the main reasons I registered here, because I thought of no better place to seek answer to them. First of all forgive me my grammar mistakes, I'm a Pole and my english level is at medium... but I think it's enough to communicate. I'm in a process of reading a translated to polish 700+ pages .pdf containing High Priestess Maxine Dietrich's thoughts copied from Joy of Satan. The translation is a work of a polish Satanist known as Czarny Żmij. I'm very impressed with the content and this book already helped me to cut the last ties to christianity I used to sink in for 15 years. Alright, now straight to the point:
- I asked Lord Satan if He would accept my dedication if I attempted and asked if He wanted a person such as me at His side, but it's a third week already and there's neither possitive nor negattive answer. I'm aware that He and His Companions are very busy, but I just wanted a simple "yes" or "no" in a realistic dream, as I suggested, so that I knew it's not just some dream or that I'm imaginating things I want to hear. I'm not dedicated yet, so I'm afraid of asking by a ritual. How can I know He accepts me if I decide to join Him? I'm not a jew and neither a half-jew. There were no jews in my family as far as I know. I'm still in a phase of reading and am very fresh to the topic, I can't tell if I dedicate, but such an answer would enlighten me a bit. Maybe there's something wrong with me? I think it's important to write that I take drugs as I suffer from depression. Maybe this is the case?
Regards.