well,, i've always known that there's much more to satanism than what it seems, and finally to be here, its amazing.
many times in the night, i feel like im not alone n that i have someone watching over me. i want to know my Father..and when i read the website, somehow i just felt that i didnt even need anything more to make me feel convinced. but now i see my life just fading away..i feel blue and powerless..im almost depressed..
since the past few days, something inside my mind tells me that i shud dedicate soon.
yesterday i felt reeeally fuckin weak. spiritually..emotionally. i needed something to lift me up. later that day while i was bathing, it just came to me that its time for me to tell Satan that i want his presence in my life..and just then my mood, my mind..just brightened up. and that i want to...i need to feel the joy of being part of this. but im still not sure if im ready.
please help asap i need to know..
and what are the immediate effect in ur life after u've dedicated?
