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Hi, I made a post about 2 months ago, asking for help, as I was going crazy and into a self destruction cycle...
I took everyone's advice as best as I could and I have been meditating consistently. I've been sober since that very day, and I'm happy to say I am completely free from that crap. But something is still not right... Which is what brings me here today.
I might have neglected on cleansing. Ive been reading the forum today, and I was reminded yet again of the importance of cleaning before empowerment.
Following the HC 40-day program, I was supposed to focus primarily on cleaning which I did for the most part, I do cleaning in the morning and night (visualizations) and I vibrate Suryae 10 times into my aura (the sabbath working High Priest Hooded Cobra recommended) , which I also program to protect me. Is 10 times even enough? Probably not, but again, I don't have much free time, it sucks...
As for the chakras, it's a bit hard still, for the visualization part. And since I couldn't vibrate the recommend visudhi and couldn't find instructions anywhere (an audio file), I said fuck it and went on to sanskrit vibrations for empowerment. I'm not entirely sure if this is doing more damage than good. But I've been feeling extremely stressed lately, due to family issues but mostly because of absorbing too much of my environment I believe. Also, due to having barely no free time at all, I have to wake up very early to meditate, ending up sleeping about 4-5 hours, every day. The sleep deprivation has been taking its toll on my physical and psychological health for the past two months, and I'm not sure if this is again doing mora damage than good, but it's something I understand I have to endure for the time being, there's no way out of that one for now.
So my question is, if anyone have such audio file, or an easier mantra, perhaps? That I can vibrate on the chakras for cleaning. I'll drop the empowerment mantras for the time being and focus more on cleaning, as I feel I need it more - I end up having to vibrate suryae on the aura like 50 times at certain times, when I feel worse. It's not something I can do every day but every now and then I have to sacrifice some time for that, otherwise things get worse.
Other than that, I'm keeping strong, consistent, and been able dodge the negative thoughts and behaviors when they come to surface. And I thank you guys again for all the help.
I took everyone's advice as best as I could and I have been meditating consistently. I've been sober since that very day, and I'm happy to say I am completely free from that crap. But something is still not right... Which is what brings me here today.
I might have neglected on cleansing. Ive been reading the forum today, and I was reminded yet again of the importance of cleaning before empowerment.
Following the HC 40-day program, I was supposed to focus primarily on cleaning which I did for the most part, I do cleaning in the morning and night (visualizations) and I vibrate Suryae 10 times into my aura (the sabbath working High Priest Hooded Cobra recommended) , which I also program to protect me. Is 10 times even enough? Probably not, but again, I don't have much free time, it sucks...
As for the chakras, it's a bit hard still, for the visualization part. And since I couldn't vibrate the recommend visudhi and couldn't find instructions anywhere (an audio file), I said fuck it and went on to sanskrit vibrations for empowerment. I'm not entirely sure if this is doing more damage than good. But I've been feeling extremely stressed lately, due to family issues but mostly because of absorbing too much of my environment I believe. Also, due to having barely no free time at all, I have to wake up very early to meditate, ending up sleeping about 4-5 hours, every day. The sleep deprivation has been taking its toll on my physical and psychological health for the past two months, and I'm not sure if this is again doing mora damage than good, but it's something I understand I have to endure for the time being, there's no way out of that one for now.
So my question is, if anyone have such audio file, or an easier mantra, perhaps? That I can vibrate on the chakras for cleaning. I'll drop the empowerment mantras for the time being and focus more on cleaning, as I feel I need it more - I end up having to vibrate suryae on the aura like 50 times at certain times, when I feel worse. It's not something I can do every day but every now and then I have to sacrifice some time for that, otherwise things get worse.
Other than that, I'm keeping strong, consistent, and been able dodge the negative thoughts and behaviors when they come to surface. And I thank you guys again for all the help.