Bravera
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Howdy
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I have struggled since I was 18 with keeping a job for a long period of time. I have never owned a vehicle or paid very much in rent, it was always so easy for me to walk away from jobs, I was not fearful of being homeless, hungry or cold. At times I invited the struggle so that I might force myself to become stronger...
Now I know that I never want to be hungry or cold, because there is a brighter purpose on the horizon, I need all the resources necessary to build a powerful mind, body, and soul. I want MY HOME, where I may advance freely without any interference.
I have held a job now for 9 months, since the second month my boss pressured me to consider a management position. Back then I thought, wow I could really use the money, I would be taking a leadership role in a noble cause, I would be gaining experience towards my "resume to the gods".
Now the time has come, and I will be receiving an email in the next few days, I believe I have already made up my mind to accept the position.
But I am unsure still, I will be required to put in more hours, I will be required to manage 10+ people everyday, I will be required to deal with customers... I know that I am the best person for the job, and that I could be supremely successful at my job..
I have been an SS for many years, and yet I still struggle greatly with doing daily RTRs and meditation, I still smoke marijuana and I hate it so much, I've done a freeing the soul working to quit smoking and I still just cant stop qq.. I told myself I wont let this hold me back anymore and have been pushing myself to be successful in all areas of my life.
So, should I take this step forward in my career when my spiritual path is struggling so much? Is it important that I do take this step forward so that I may learn to be responsible and self disciplined?
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I have struggled since I was 18 with keeping a job for a long period of time. I have never owned a vehicle or paid very much in rent, it was always so easy for me to walk away from jobs, I was not fearful of being homeless, hungry or cold. At times I invited the struggle so that I might force myself to become stronger...
Now I know that I never want to be hungry or cold, because there is a brighter purpose on the horizon, I need all the resources necessary to build a powerful mind, body, and soul. I want MY HOME, where I may advance freely without any interference.
I have held a job now for 9 months, since the second month my boss pressured me to consider a management position. Back then I thought, wow I could really use the money, I would be taking a leadership role in a noble cause, I would be gaining experience towards my "resume to the gods".
Now the time has come, and I will be receiving an email in the next few days, I believe I have already made up my mind to accept the position.
But I am unsure still, I will be required to put in more hours, I will be required to manage 10+ people everyday, I will be required to deal with customers... I know that I am the best person for the job, and that I could be supremely successful at my job..
I have been an SS for many years, and yet I still struggle greatly with doing daily RTRs and meditation, I still smoke marijuana and I hate it so much, I've done a freeing the soul working to quit smoking and I still just cant stop qq.. I told myself I wont let this hold me back anymore and have been pushing myself to be successful in all areas of my life.
So, should I take this step forward in my career when my spiritual path is struggling so much? Is it important that I do take this step forward so that I may learn to be responsible and self disciplined?