Deyon
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Greetings everyone,
I'm kind of new here, I just had some questions and thoughts about everything, I'd like someone with experience to tell me their opinion about all of this, if it weren't too much trouble, thanks in advance!
So first I wanted to tell you about my experience, so you can understand my context.
Something i'd like to start with, I was born with a latin xian family, then I started doubting their beliefs so I became an atheist, a long time after I met a person that showed me JoS and I actually became interested, so i that's where started reading and investigating.
I had some problems, like wondering if I was a jew and such for not knowing my family's past, but then I directly asked them, everyone told me we aren't, and I actually started feeling things, I'll talk about this.
About me, as a child, I was diagnosed with weird stuff, such as "Indigo child" (a lot of "supernatural" things happened through my life, even until now, I won't talk about them so I don't extend this), then got diagnosed with "Asperger's syndrome", but I don't like people seeing me different, so I try avoiding telling anyone about this, even if sometimes it's hard to understand me, I did my best to improve my socialization skills and such.
Now to the near present, some time ago, I started doing basic meditations "just because" (things I remember doing: Aura Cleaning, Energy Meditation), it's not like I expected anything, but even then I was trying my best and putting my mind and body into them.
At first I didn't feel anything (as far as I remember), but they helpt me relax, so I continued them mainly for that, as I'm a very anxious person.
I'll be very honest and say after some time I got bored, so I stopped doing them, but after that I noticed something weird on my back, like a tingling or numbness sensation, in the upper part, it was weird but I ignored it, I thought I had a bad posture or something related, it went away some days later.
Then after some more time, I decided to try again, mainly to relax, so I started doing them constantly too, even adding more stuff (what I remember: Color Meditation, Aura of Protection, and simple Aura workings), and then I stopped again, but now I really got weirded out, as I got the same feeling as before, and it just came back when I started meditating again, so I thought that "maybe" something was happening, once again, it went away after some days.
Jumping to the current present, I went on doing meditations again, but this time I started doing the "Chakra opening" meditations.
I started with the "Solar Plexus 666", mainly to try if it could be helpful for my digestive system (it actually got better, but not sure if it was because of it), and i actually did it again after some days (don't know if I'm supposed to do this and if it could have a negative impact).
After that, I did try opening the "Throat Chakra", but I didn't feel much difference, and I don't know if it's related, but I have always been a very emotional person, I even tried "closing" my feelings (this from the past, I even suffered strong depression, a lot stuff happened through my life, now I'm at least stable). Maybe a dumb question, but is it possible to already have a Chakra opened without previous meditation?
Some days ago, i started doing the "6th Chakra" opening, but I kinda messed up at the 3th day, I forgot until late on the day (like 1-2pm), but I did the meditation anyways, the day later now this time I messed up for real, as I ended up doing the meditation the next day (2-3am), and now i did the 6th day at around this last time again.
Now for some questions, about my messing up with the opening of the "6th Chakra", should I redo the whole process? Or should I wait some time or do I finish the 7th day and then I have to retry it later on?
And something that I experienced today as of writing, when i woke up (was on the 5th meditation) I woke up with a weird pain on my back (this along the tingling from before), a bit below the neck, it was kind of a funny pain at first (don't know how to explain it), I thought I slept in a bad position, but it's weird as I remember sleeping well, in any case it was really annoying late on the day, and it's not like another neck pain I had in the past where I surely knew it was related to sleeping in bad positions. About this, an hour ago i did the 6th meditation (at 2-3am), and for some reason my pain relieved a little bit, but it's still annoying, is it possible it's because of the meditations or should I be worried? I'm a young person in the middle twenties, I'm healthy as I can recall (just have dust allergies and some minor stuff).
This last thing is important and I'd like someone's opinion about it too, so even if I did all the stuff I just said, I still haven't done the "Dedication to Satan", could this affect my meditation and such? I even got a red candle (it was the most I could find), the main reason I haven't dedicated is because I'm kind of afraid of getting blood out of my finger, and I haven't thought of a way of doing it, I just have some needles but I don't think they are sharp enough, I could force it if necessary.
A last thing, is that lately I have been feeling kind of unstable, I'm used to being a calm/introverted person, but some days ago I felt really "hyper", like I couldn't stop talking, and this was for 2 days, I had a lot of fun socializing too, just talking and having fun with friends, and thinking about it makes me feel like if I was like that every day I could be a happy person. Yesterday I started calming down again, but not "fully", as I still have a bit of it, but not at that peak point (it really felt like I was another person, I felt strong, undependable, I could pretty much fully control my emotions, reaaally different from the usual).
If you read all of this, I'd be really thankful, and I'm sorry if it's too much text, I really wanted to talk about this, it's not everything I'd like to say but it might be the most important things for now.
(something i can say, in the past i wanted to write something to the forums, but it was a totally different approach, and was kind of depressive as I was having a hard time, I used the "Ask satan" but the message didn't go through, it was kind of sad but I'm glad it happened as I'm a lot better now).
I'm kind of new here, I just had some questions and thoughts about everything, I'd like someone with experience to tell me their opinion about all of this, if it weren't too much trouble, thanks in advance!
So first I wanted to tell you about my experience, so you can understand my context.
Something i'd like to start with, I was born with a latin xian family, then I started doubting their beliefs so I became an atheist, a long time after I met a person that showed me JoS and I actually became interested, so i that's where started reading and investigating.
I had some problems, like wondering if I was a jew and such for not knowing my family's past, but then I directly asked them, everyone told me we aren't, and I actually started feeling things, I'll talk about this.
About me, as a child, I was diagnosed with weird stuff, such as "Indigo child" (a lot of "supernatural" things happened through my life, even until now, I won't talk about them so I don't extend this), then got diagnosed with "Asperger's syndrome", but I don't like people seeing me different, so I try avoiding telling anyone about this, even if sometimes it's hard to understand me, I did my best to improve my socialization skills and such.
Now to the near present, some time ago, I started doing basic meditations "just because" (things I remember doing: Aura Cleaning, Energy Meditation), it's not like I expected anything, but even then I was trying my best and putting my mind and body into them.
At first I didn't feel anything (as far as I remember), but they helpt me relax, so I continued them mainly for that, as I'm a very anxious person.
I'll be very honest and say after some time I got bored, so I stopped doing them, but after that I noticed something weird on my back, like a tingling or numbness sensation, in the upper part, it was weird but I ignored it, I thought I had a bad posture or something related, it went away some days later.
Then after some more time, I decided to try again, mainly to relax, so I started doing them constantly too, even adding more stuff (what I remember: Color Meditation, Aura of Protection, and simple Aura workings), and then I stopped again, but now I really got weirded out, as I got the same feeling as before, and it just came back when I started meditating again, so I thought that "maybe" something was happening, once again, it went away after some days.
Jumping to the current present, I went on doing meditations again, but this time I started doing the "Chakra opening" meditations.
I started with the "Solar Plexus 666", mainly to try if it could be helpful for my digestive system (it actually got better, but not sure if it was because of it), and i actually did it again after some days (don't know if I'm supposed to do this and if it could have a negative impact).
After that, I did try opening the "Throat Chakra", but I didn't feel much difference, and I don't know if it's related, but I have always been a very emotional person, I even tried "closing" my feelings (this from the past, I even suffered strong depression, a lot stuff happened through my life, now I'm at least stable). Maybe a dumb question, but is it possible to already have a Chakra opened without previous meditation?
Some days ago, i started doing the "6th Chakra" opening, but I kinda messed up at the 3th day, I forgot until late on the day (like 1-2pm), but I did the meditation anyways, the day later now this time I messed up for real, as I ended up doing the meditation the next day (2-3am), and now i did the 6th day at around this last time again.
Now for some questions, about my messing up with the opening of the "6th Chakra", should I redo the whole process? Or should I wait some time or do I finish the 7th day and then I have to retry it later on?
And something that I experienced today as of writing, when i woke up (was on the 5th meditation) I woke up with a weird pain on my back (this along the tingling from before), a bit below the neck, it was kind of a funny pain at first (don't know how to explain it), I thought I slept in a bad position, but it's weird as I remember sleeping well, in any case it was really annoying late on the day, and it's not like another neck pain I had in the past where I surely knew it was related to sleeping in bad positions. About this, an hour ago i did the 6th meditation (at 2-3am), and for some reason my pain relieved a little bit, but it's still annoying, is it possible it's because of the meditations or should I be worried? I'm a young person in the middle twenties, I'm healthy as I can recall (just have dust allergies and some minor stuff).
This last thing is important and I'd like someone's opinion about it too, so even if I did all the stuff I just said, I still haven't done the "Dedication to Satan", could this affect my meditation and such? I even got a red candle (it was the most I could find), the main reason I haven't dedicated is because I'm kind of afraid of getting blood out of my finger, and I haven't thought of a way of doing it, I just have some needles but I don't think they are sharp enough, I could force it if necessary.
A last thing, is that lately I have been feeling kind of unstable, I'm used to being a calm/introverted person, but some days ago I felt really "hyper", like I couldn't stop talking, and this was for 2 days, I had a lot of fun socializing too, just talking and having fun with friends, and thinking about it makes me feel like if I was like that every day I could be a happy person. Yesterday I started calming down again, but not "fully", as I still have a bit of it, but not at that peak point (it really felt like I was another person, I felt strong, undependable, I could pretty much fully control my emotions, reaaally different from the usual).
If you read all of this, I'd be really thankful, and I'm sorry if it's too much text, I really wanted to talk about this, it's not everything I'd like to say but it might be the most important things for now.
(something i can say, in the past i wanted to write something to the forums, but it was a totally different approach, and was kind of depressive as I was having a hard time, I used the "Ask satan" but the message didn't go through, it was kind of sad but I'm glad it happened as I'm a lot better now).
