Yagami Light said:
There's something interesting though... I notice that when I yawn (especially when I do this meditation) I feel like energy goes into my head (after the yawn) - which takes me back to an earlier realization of mine, that my throat chakra may have a blockage - which means I'll have to add another meditation to my program, to deal with it.
Do you lower your chin to your chest when you yawn? Physical motions like that have to do with the Nadis of the soul and are called Bandhas. A Bandha from what I can tell and from what I can feel in experimenting, is a physical motion or 'lock' that slows or partially blocks/narrows the flow of a Nadi (energy channel) in the soul.
Remember the physical realm and astral realm mirror each other in motions, influences, etc, this is why doing physical yoga helps flow energy through the soul. So for example, lowering your chin physically to your chest, there's a compression of contracting muscles in the throat that tightens with this motion, and reflecting and mirroring this on the astral means when you do this motion and hold it, you are also slowing/partially blocking the flow of energy to your upper chakras from the throat chakra.
When you narrow this pathway for a little while (few seconds to a minute), the energy is building up behind the blockage, like if you were to squeeze your hand around a watering hose, the water would not flow through so easily through the hose because you've narrowed the path, so the pressure builds up behind the narrowed blockage and then when it's released, the water surges strongly and forcefully from the hose.
This is the same idea with Bandhas. When you lower your chin to your chest, you build up that pressure of energy, then when you relax and lift your chin again and release that narrowed path opening it up again, a sudden large surge of energy comes forth and it can feel strong and overwhelming because so much of it had built up from the pressure behind the blockage, basically opening a floodgate. That's why you feel that and it's not a bad thing, it can be used to force through blockages in a chakra or Nadi that are stubborn. It's just a sudden surge of a large burst of energy, nothing to be worried about.
Yagami Light said:
Yesterday my day was so busy, I hardly did one meditation and fell asleep... I woke up on my own at 4 am and continued with the meditations (so I basically did everything before the day changed at 6.30 am). I also did your meditation... As I was focusing on my head (after the meditation and affirmation was over) it was like I was falling asleep and "daydreaming" that I lied down on a train railways, and placed my neck where the train would cut it if it passed (an attack, I can assume). I felt like shit, tried to wake myself... I remember I had also felt like shit at another time while doing this meditation (or afterwards, while focusing on my head). Anyway, I then did SaTaNaMa and fell asleep...
And I woke up once because I was laughing in my sleep... And then I woke up twice, because I was crying in my sleep, and it was like I wanted to cry in real life too, but just a small sob came out (no tears).. And I slept again...
I believe this laughing/crying (I do not have any recollection of the dream, and I believe it is not necessary either) is because of the throat chakra.
I had tried doing Thurisaz in my throat to unblock it... For a few days I think (close to 20). I was just yawning so fucking much, and I saw no difference. I think I had also used another rune, but I don't remember which one now. I wonder if I should go as far as use munka in my throat chakra to remove any and all blockages from there.
Maybe I should do that.
I don't want to stop Daaz though, even if I don't see/feel any immediate results... I think the attacks I received out of nowhere were not "random". I'm probably doing something right. And feeling like shit (if it's not an attack) means that I'm probably unblocking something (past life issues or emotions come to the surface); so that's also good.
Not everything like this is an attack from the enemy. Neptune is in Pisces and can be a strong influencer of psychic things like this on the negative spectrum. Daaz is good for wisdom and spiritual things involving the head, you could experiment with Ansuz and Algiz. You are also focusing too much on psychic matters which isn't bad if you're catered to that like I am, but I've learned in my own experience you cannot focus too much on developing your upper chakras without also focusing on your lower chakras.
From what I can tell your throat chakra is not blocked at all, you said when you yawn you feel energy go to your head, remember the bandha thing I mentioned, your upper chakras don't seem to be blocked. You should focus more on your lower chakras, empowering and cleaning them, especially your base chakra since I gather you are quite in tune with your intuition (I've noticed in your posts every time you mention you can feel urges and such, this is a sign of intuitive ability). This means your crown chakra is strong, but with a weakened or debilitated base chakra this can cause negative problems of confusion, uncertainty and basically battling yourself on the astral.
Like I said, I don't think everything you're dealing with in regards to psychic matters is the enemy. You
thinking the enemy attacking you makes it seem so when you are actually the one attacking yourself by manifesting these thoughts and assumptions on the astral. I dealt a whole two weeks of thinking I was being assaulted and attacked from reptiloids to enemy nordics, to nature spirits to thoughtforms and servitors, but I followed signs given to me either by Satan or one of his followers telling me it was all in my head and that I was the one conjuring all of it with doubt and fear by
thinking I was being attack.... So I realized this and tested it out and just stopped myself from thinking such things and you know what? It all just stopped... just like that. It
was me attacking my own self.
When you are someone who is strongly in tune with the astral and your intuition, keeping a strong base chakra and a balanced earth element and grounding are going to be
vital. Stop and know to yourself, nobody is attacking you, the enemy is not attacking you. It's just your own thoughts. Think logically for a moment. You only experience these things when you're not mentally distracted or when you're trying to sleep... if it was the enemy, it wouldn't matter
what you're doing, it would be happening
constantly. You being distracted by being busy and doing things is actually you distracting yourself from
attacking yourself... and that's why you don't experience these things when you're busy.
When you're not busy or when you're trying to sleep, you suddenly focus on these fears and doubts thinking the enemy will attack you or something, and then this manifests not because the enemy is actually attacking you but because you
think they're attacking you.
You are the one manifesting these attacks on yourself. Once you realize this you can stop, there's nothing there.
In another thread I stated that dreams are actually you on the astral because you've disassociated your grounded awareness of the physical realm, therefore are able to see the astral clearly as you wander about it as an 'astral entity' yourself, but due to the physical disassociation of your physical conscious being asleep, there is no logic applied to it because logic is not part of the astral plane.
This is why we never question our dreams as they're happening or realize how weird everything is around us, because the logic part of our psychic centres is quite literally asleep (in that the lower chakras are basically on standby mode). The astral is the thought plane, what you think up it conjures before you, this is most blatantly clear when having a
lucid dream where the logic portion of your psychic soul is active and you are then actually able to traverse the thought-plane/astral/dream (it's all the same thing) with your physical understanding, sensibility and awareness.
So because dreams are actually the astral realm, when you wake up to your focus on the physical realm, a massive majority of members here don't realize that you are
always dreaming no matter what, you're just no longer as in tune to it because now your focus is primarily on the physical plane. The astral (of which is what 'dreams' are) doesn't just suddenly stop existing when you wake up, it's still there, that's how we direct energy and such. Being awake and sleeping is like switching between two different universes where the rules and laws are different but you exist simultaneously on both. When physically awake, everything around you on the astral is still responding exactly as it would as if you were dreaming or lucid dreaming, you just don't
see or
feel it anymore but you're more in tune with the physical plane.
Lucid dreams feel like they are real, you can feel 'things' (mostly imaginary and not sentient, remember the astral creates a veil of your own thoughts, it takes discipline and practice to discern what is actually happening and what you're making happen) touch, textures, smell things (this is where the synesthesia ability on our website comes from) and because you're always 'dreaming' while awake you can still experience these things if you tune enough into the astral plane. I have made myself feel sensations from things I would've thought came from a sentient spirit or some other being, I have had an entity of my own 'dream' creation 'physically' shove me in waking life just to experiment with this tie in and how strongly it can go.
So as you can see it takes a lot of discipline and grounding to be able to properly discern what is actually coming from something else and what you are making. Intuition is the only real way to know this, but if your psychic centres are unbalanced and overpowering your lower chakras or if your elements are out of wack (i.e too much water and such, this goes hand in hand) then in my experience your intuition is all but completely useless. My intuition did nothing but confuse me further, I had to rely on physical signs given to me than the usual intuitive communications I would do with Satan and our gods for help because that was the first time I ever experienced me attacking my own self in confusion, I didn't know what was going on but now I do and have learned since.
Clean whatever you conjured out of your system with Ansuz and Algiz. Also remember what I said, focus more on strengthening your lower chakras. I kid you not when I say the higher and lower chakras are counterweights to each other, like a scale, if one side is too powerful than the other, the scale and balance is upset which leads to negative manifestations and confusion and messy disorderly energies regarding the aspects of that side.
A Sun Square is a good start with the solar Chakra, Uruz is a rune of Mars which can help strengthen your Sacral chakra, as for your base chakra, focus a little more on material and physical joys and pleasures. Go dig in the dirt outside, read a physical book (not electronic or on a computer), do something logical like a crossword puzzle, look after some plants, build something with blocks, play an earthy video game involving building and grounded themes (Minecraft, Terraria, Starbound, etc), just do physical things.
Also when trying to sleep at night, visualize and feel yourself in a garden of healthy green plants and vegetation. A forest, surround yourself in flowers and plant life and focus on their nature and earth elemental properties. Or you can feel yourself safely burrowed within an underground cave or cavern, actually try to feel the earth around you protecting you and keeping you safe and sound inside so you can sleep in security. (This is one of my own personal methods, works like a charm for me, may help you as well.)
Sundara said:
Hey panic attacks can onset for a lot of reasons, stress and/or past trauma.
Ranoid said:
I have panic attacks too from my obsessive compulsive disorder and paranoia ! Any tips
All emotions and feelings are energy, things like fear can actually be removed from you with energy workings but the important thing to know is that when it comes to phobias and traumas, these are not the kind of fears that come and go like oh you encountered a bear and it was scary, no. These kinds of things are actually structural links/attachments/blockages in your soul/chakras that
forge onto you when something powerfully affects you, and it's negativity will repeatedly resurface when you run into an energy association with it's vibrations (such as something that mentally/psychically reminds you of a trauma; usually this is something that shares the same rulerships of the trauma and such).
Full intense cleaning workings consistently every day can completely flush the sources of all of this out of your soul and psychic centres. I used to have a debilitating anxiety disorder when I was newer. Every time I had a panic attack I would do
this meditation immediately, no matter how hard it was to force myself to do it through the fear and lack of motivation, I would force myself to do it every time.
This allows you to push the energy out and allow it to vent from your soul as it surfaces. When something triggers a fear or hangup in our soul, it rises to the surface and manifests making us actually
feel it and experience it. Most people when they are anxious, they dwell on it or let it consume them and don't actually do anything other than wait for it to pass,
but this does not get rid of it from your soul, it rises to the surface and then just slowly seeps back in, maybe a little escapes but you are still not actually removing it. This enables it to resurface and manifest again and again and again, hence phobia/trauma, repeating fears and anxieties.
From doing that meditation every single time I had a panic.attack, over time the panic attacks came less and less because I was allowing the source of that negative energy to actually escape from me completely, pushing it out. This was a long time ago I completely got rid of the anxiety disorder in this way, but I can tell you with no word of a lie, I have not had a single panic attack in years, no medication for it needed anymore ever since either and I've been better than ever.
Patience, discipline and effort. The 'impossible' is possible because of what Lord Satan has shared with us in our potential.
Have faith in him and yourself. Use it.