To start off I am going to say that I don't mean to question or doubt any of the information on here, I just don't understand how it applies to my situation.
I was diagnosed with both ADHD and Aspergers/ASD/whatever when I was around 12 or so, and I've seen here that apparently neither of those actually exist. The Aspergers part I can understand just simply being a little "different" instead of a genuine problem, but I'm not sure if it's just coincidence that the list of symptoms describes me so damn well, even the oddly specific ones.
As for ADHD, I completely understand very young children being diagnosed with it when they're actually just being ordinary, energy-filled children, but I don't feel like that was the situation for me. Before being diagnosed and given meds, life was (figuratively) hell for me. It wasn't just not wanting to sit in a classroom for hours at a time, I struggled with getting the most basic of tasks done because my mind just seemed to want to block it out in favor of other things. Like, it would take me hours to finish my homework when it took the other kids 20 minutes, but it's not that I didn't understand the material, I for some reason struggled horribly with the very concept of doing it. When I first got my meds, the world suddenly seemed so much clearer, I was able to get things done without being forced to, and I was just overall happier.
What happened here? Had I been so badly corrupted that I had been put under the illusion that harmful substances were helping me or something like that? Why am I like that without meds? (I still take them, even though I know I shouldn't because I can't even imagine living without them, I should really get around to doing something about that) Obviously there's the dependency and the problem of withdrawal effects now, but what was wrong with me before? I didn't have any jewish family friends or anyone I associated with in particular as far as I'm aware if that makes a difference.
Also, not really relevant or important but, what's up with that "special interest"/hyperfixation thing that's associated with both of the disorders? Why do I always get obsessed with one specific thing for months/years at a time if it's not a product of mental illness?
I was diagnosed with both ADHD and Aspergers/ASD/whatever when I was around 12 or so, and I've seen here that apparently neither of those actually exist. The Aspergers part I can understand just simply being a little "different" instead of a genuine problem, but I'm not sure if it's just coincidence that the list of symptoms describes me so damn well, even the oddly specific ones.
As for ADHD, I completely understand very young children being diagnosed with it when they're actually just being ordinary, energy-filled children, but I don't feel like that was the situation for me. Before being diagnosed and given meds, life was (figuratively) hell for me. It wasn't just not wanting to sit in a classroom for hours at a time, I struggled with getting the most basic of tasks done because my mind just seemed to want to block it out in favor of other things. Like, it would take me hours to finish my homework when it took the other kids 20 minutes, but it's not that I didn't understand the material, I for some reason struggled horribly with the very concept of doing it. When I first got my meds, the world suddenly seemed so much clearer, I was able to get things done without being forced to, and I was just overall happier.
What happened here? Had I been so badly corrupted that I had been put under the illusion that harmful substances were helping me or something like that? Why am I like that without meds? (I still take them, even though I know I shouldn't because I can't even imagine living without them, I should really get around to doing something about that) Obviously there's the dependency and the problem of withdrawal effects now, but what was wrong with me before? I didn't have any jewish family friends or anyone I associated with in particular as far as I'm aware if that makes a difference.
Also, not really relevant or important but, what's up with that "special interest"/hyperfixation thing that's associated with both of the disorders? Why do I always get obsessed with one specific thing for months/years at a time if it's not a product of mental illness?