Dark Master
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I just wanted to see if anyone else has had this or something similar happen to them. I dedicated last Summer, and for a while I had the best time ever (everything was going right, I was happy, etc.). After a while I found myself getting distracted and I was starting to get pulled back to xianity. I never actually said, "I'm no longer a satanist", but for a while I guess I did kind of become "one who is without". Around this time I tried to get back with Satan, but I could never seem to stay. Also during this time several bad things happened to me, and I started to think (and eventually talk) bad about Satan. I went on the Spiritual Satanists e-group and started saying that I was an atheist, and that Satan was evil. More recently I decided that I needed to be "saved" by Father. I came to realize that while the deceitful Jesus had never brought me joy or good, Satan always brought me good. So for a while I forgot about Father but I'm sure he never forgot about me. So what I want to know is, is it required that I repeat the dedication or can I get by with meditations?