AskSatanOperator
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I’m sorry if i say anything that could displease anybody, i have read many questions similar to mine but i am still confused. I’ll be as detailed as possible to explain my situation. I am 19 and Punjabi, both my parents are Punjabi and both sides of my family are in Rajasthan but they moved from Punjab some time ago. Due to a difficult situation at home i left without my parents approval after I turned 18 and maybe i will meet them soon now that the waters have calmed a bit. My grandfather from my mother’s side has for example blue eyes and so do his brothers not blue but different colours, but both my parents are with brown eyes and of course dark hair. I grew up in Europe so my thinking is really different from my parent’s, for example and due to some issues I’ve started to despite what was my culture and the people there. It’s not like I don’t find other Punjabi guy’s cute but i just don’t want to end up in the same situation, I worked so hard to get myself out of it so I really don’t know what to do, honestly, I know I shouldn’t but lately I’ve only been seeing white guys and I just tell them I don’t believe in anything and have cut ties with all that was my culture. Both my parents are quite sensitive, but more on my mother’s side. Sensitive as in working with energies, spirits, dreaming things that actually happen later on and ect. At first I actually almost laughed at it but as i grew older there were some things I simply couldn’t explain logically. I never really prayed so I thought i was going to be the black sheep of the family but then other things happened to me as well. They stopped at first when i left my parent’s house but now with meditation and all I’m not sure what’s going on… I’m just really confused overall. I approached satanism as it felt like it was filling the void inside me, but there’s things I struggle to do, i have tried, i just can’t date indian/ punjabi guys.
Am i mixed? If yes am i even accepted by Lord Satan? And what about me dating white boys?
Am i mixed? If yes am i even accepted by Lord Satan? And what about me dating white boys?