AskSatanOperator
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It hurts so much to know this person might be gone in my life time. The idea of dying before them seems almost better than losing them. To lose them is to lose the only person who ever cared about me in this world. How can I come to terms or prevent that? They aren't the kind to follow Satan because of what has been imprinted upon them. My natal chart says I might be good with communion with the dead but that doesn't fill the void of what is lost. I am not at the level to do that anyways. They are a parent if it matters.
I deep down hate losing anything. It bothers me on a very real level to the point I'd do unethical things to not have lost what I care about. I wish that I could just perform horrible acts to keep those I love alive. I don't care how much it haunts me to have them means everything.
Is this just trauma from a past life is it that hard to let go? Even with the understand of reincarnation I hate it so much. I hate death so much.
I deep down hate losing anything. It bothers me on a very real level to the point I'd do unethical things to not have lost what I care about. I wish that I could just perform horrible acts to keep those I love alive. I don't care how much it haunts me to have them means everything.
Is this just trauma from a past life is it that hard to let go? Even with the understand of reincarnation I hate it so much. I hate death so much.