Sexuality #75635 Am I condemned??? I need serious help!!

[AskSatanOperator]

Hello everyone, I'm feeling so ashamed, guilty, grossed. Am I condemned?? How can I apologize Gods for that?? Am I some kind of pervert?? I can't calm down and keep thinking about my childhood memory. When I was a child I liked animals, I had few one after another, I didn't harm or did some kind of stuff with them, when we bought a hamster, had it for a short of time, at that time I letted my hamster to smell my genital, I didn't touch my hamster in inappropriate ways, but I letted him to smell mine. This memory is driving me crazy I can't concentrate on simple life tasks. What can I do??? I'm really ashamed and grossed about myself. I was a kid why I did that??? Why?? I'm an adult now I have a partner and don't do that kind of stuff but why I did that as a kid?? How can I apologize what I did?? Are Gods angry because of that??? I'm condemned?? Please help!!!!

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

Hello everyone, I'm feeling so ashamed, guilty, grossed. Am I condemned?? How can I apologize Gods for that?? Am I some kind of pervert?? I can't calm down and keep thinking about my childhood memory. When I was a child I liked animals, I had few one after another, I didn't harm or did some kind of stuff with them, when we bought a hamster, had it for a short of time, at that time I letted my hamster to smell my genital, I didn't touch my hamster in inappropriate ways, but I letted him to smell mine. This memory is driving me crazy I can't concentrate on simple life tasks. What can I do??? I'm really ashamed and grossed about myself. I was a kid why I did that??? Why?? I'm an adult now I have a partner and don't do that kind of stuff but why I did that as a kid?? How can I apologize what I did?? Are Gods angry because of that??? I'm condemned?? Please help!!!!

Okay, it's true, it's definitely disgusting, but now you're a different person who, looking at what you were in the past, is disgusted by this previous version.

Let's not focus too much on the degradation of the past. Our society often encourages mental illnesses and the lack of Gods before rediscovering them in Satanism blocks us from a possible cure.

But now you're here, you're free and it would be absurd for you to think of doing something like that again.

When I was little I was traumatized by a TV episode about dogs. Dogs scared me so I didn't understand why people liked them.

Today I spontaneously adore them and my Guardian Demon is precisely Anubis (who has dogs as a sacred animal). When I see the child me who was afraid of dogs and was not sensitive to their sacredness I always think that child me is stupid.

I'm not that version of me, I've grown up.

 

[Henu the Great]

Please let bygones be bygones. You have matured and clearly distanced yourself from that sort of actions. One example of a solution is to reprogram your mind in a trance to be free from the emotional distress this memory causes.

 

[arem]

Hello everyone, I'm feeling so ashamed, guilty, grossed. Am I condemned?? How can I apologize Gods for that?? Am I some kind of pervert?? I can't calm down and keep thinking about my childhood memory. When I was a child I liked animals, I had few one after another, I didn't harm or did some kind of stuff with them, when we bought a hamster, had it for a short of time, at that time I letted my hamster to smell my genital, I didn't touch my hamster in inappropriate ways, but I letted him to smell mine. This memory is driving me crazy I can't concentrate on simple life tasks. What can I do??? I'm really ashamed and grossed about myself. I was a kid why I did that??? Why?? I'm an adult now I have a partner and don't do that kind of stuff but why I did that as a kid?? How can I apologize what I did?? Are Gods angry because of that??? I'm condemned?? Please help!!!!

you aren't the same person anymore, it's fine. on top of that, you were a child. kids do stupid things out of curiosity.
you can apologise to the Gods, even though i dont see how you wronged them.
dont dwell to much on the issues of the past if you've already resolved them. if you want some final closure though, feel free to tell them "i am ashamed of xyz, i now know better, I'll do better" or whichever variant you want.
and as Henu said, you can go into trance and solve the root problem

here's some other posts i encourage you to read through about whether Gods will hold it against you (they wont)

What Will The Gods Think?

What is to be said to those who deeply desire to give more to the Joy of Satan and the Gods, but because of issues and obstacles, are unable to contribute their energy, time and money, outside of just participating in the regular ritual schedules and their spiritual advancment? I have been...

ancient-forums.com

https://ancient-forums.com/threads/the-gods-will-never-give-up-on-you-ups-downs-in-life.294064/ (not directly related, but encouraging nonetheless)

 

[Karnonnos [JG]]

You were a child and this is a neurotic attack. Children do silly and random things. Sorry to be graphic but the Gods are not going to throw you in Tartarus nor care whatsoever because a hamster sniffed your junk.

Some dog-loving people even as adults just let dogs crawl over them and sniff them naked and do unhygienic things like this. People I knew were like that.

I never understood that but even that is in the category of 'ok, kind of weird' not 'this person must therefore violate animals because they love dogs. Social media full of Perfect Individuals and loud third worlders with enough bones in their closet to fill the cemetery say this is the truth!'

If you kept killing hamsters as a kid and enjoyed doing this, while getting aroused, that would be indication of something pretty off.