The Gods #75580 guilt and shame

[AskSatanOperator]

i feel like i know the answer deep down but for the sake of putting an end to overthinking i would strongly appreciate for someone to give their opinion too
i had a massive issue with intrusive thoughts, the problematic part mostly being sentences that would appear in my head that i would instantly feel deep guilt about the contents of.
many, many times it included topics such as making fun of a God, embarrassing remarks and so on
it would be a recurring one sentence for like a week straight and i would always feel such deep embarrassment it made me hesitate to even contact Him ever again. and it kept happening for at least a month, possibly even more, i lost count
it's gotten better, hasnt happened at least since i got back on track. I apologized to him and everyone that was involved in such thoughts but there is still a lingering feeling of "will he remember that" "is it okay for me to keep going and asking him for help on the journey"
now the thing is, its at this point just a passive feeling in my subconscious mind, but i truly dont want it to remain that way and to put it blatantly i would like some encouragement or closure

 

[Epiphany]

i feel like i know the answer deep down but for the sake of putting an end to overthinking i would strongly appreciate for someone to give their opinion too
i had a massive issue with intrusive thoughts, the problematic part mostly being sentences that would appear in my head that i would instantly feel deep guilt about the contents of.
many, many times it included topics such as making fun of a God, embarrassing remarks and so on
it would be a recurring one sentence for like a week straight and i would always feel such deep embarrassment it made me hesitate to even contact Him ever again. and it kept happening for at least a month, possibly even more, i lost count
it's gotten better, hasnt happened at least since i got back on track. I apologized to him and everyone that was involved in such thoughts but there is still a lingering feeling of "will he remember that" "is it okay for me to keep going and asking him for help on the journey"
now the thing is, its at this point just a passive feeling in my subconscious mind, but i truly dont want it to remain that way and to put it blatantly i would like some encouragement or closure

Repetitive and obsessive thoughts happen to some people. The enemy can also impress these things on you, it happened to me early on. It's nothing to worry about, just continue meditating and exercising control over your mind. The gods know your intention but it is also respectful to apologize and bare your heart to them.