#736 I don't know what I want

[AskSatanOperator]

I seem to be lost I think a lot, I am very young but I only think about everything I don't know I constantly change my mind and behavior, I can't be myself, since I was little I seem to imitate, imitate again and again I choose who I want to be, I look at intelligent fictional characters or real people and I mix all of their behavior to be "better" yes it's a good thing I think to be inspired, but to the point of not knowing who I am anymore? I don't know I feel like I'm pretending in everything, pretending to get angry in public when I have trouble leading, pretending to laugh at things that I find that don't make me laugh, in short I'm a comedian.. a good actor I can't figure out WHAT MY REAL ME IS or is it good? or maybe in the end I don't imitate but I take the positive points and pose them on my character who turns out to be me? my only goal is to be "perfect" to become a god to have powers and to be loved.

explain to me please.

 

[ManWithName]

your post reminds me of me when i was a younger lad. i too fancy myself a comedian. change is always happening, not just outside of us, but inside of us as well. try to ride the changes like a wave, or waves. sometimes the current is fast. think of these roller coastering thoughts as a free opportunity for void meditation

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Stop faking and stop pretending. Practice this like Void Meditation. When you are not busy pretending to be something else, there will be room for your real self to come forward.

 

[Henu the Great]

You sound like you are a very water-dominant person who lacks strong boundaries and has not built their own character yet. You need strong boundaries to make something of yourself. Others call this finding yourself, but you are already you and you are present in every moment you exist in so the conclusion is that you have to build your character).

 

[ManWithName]

You sound like you are a very water-dominant person who lacks strong boundaries and has not built their own character yet. You need strong boundaries to make something of yourself. Others call this finding yourself, but you are already you and you are present in every moment you exist in so the conclusion is that you have to build your character).

I was water dominant as well although i didnt see this until recently. its cool seeing things all elemental and stuff

 

[Henu the Great]

I was water dominant as well although i didnt see this until recently. its cool seeing things all elemental and stuff

People have certain predispositions that are based on the elemental distribution of their astrological natal chart. Every trait is based on a placement, or a combination of placements.