[18M] I just got (physically) attacked by an entity.

[Enkidu]

Hi! I am 'Enkidu' and am new to Spiritual Satanism. I prefer to study everything I can about it before trying to practice things, and I just began reading about it, so I still have a really long path to walk.
I'm copying and pasting this post I made on Reddit because even though I'm new to SS, I already felt a deep connection and I feel like I can trust you guys, and I hope you can advise me about what I can do to get rid of this — possible — incubus.

I don't know if this is the right place to post it, but you'll probably correct me in the comments

"I'm Brazilian. English a little bit rusty, but the important thing is that you understand what I'm trying to say.

Years ago I had a little problem regarding some strange type of "epilepsy" while trying to sleep that also involved seeing strange entities in my room, and now that I got physically attacked by something it all makes total sense now…

It all started years ago when I was trying to sleep one night, but every single time I was close to finally start sleeping my body suddenly started to tremble involuntarily and I was unable to move my body to stop it, fortunately, these epilepsy attacks lasted a maximum of 2 seconds, and every time it happened I had strange visions, like seeing the head of a snake in front of me or someone in front of my bed watching me; I also had the feeling of someone literally trying to pull my leg.

It is worth mentioning that I never had a problem like this before and even after these events I were always exposed to possible epilepsy triggers and never had episodes. It just started in a random day and suddenly stopped days later. My mother thought it had some "spiritual" connection but I haven't believed her, although I believe that the electrical discharge in the brain caused by epilepsy attacks can temporarily activate some parts of the brain and have you see things you can't see in naked eye, it wasn't possible that I was being attacked by some type of entity.

After that horrible week where I couldn't sleep, everything finally stopped and I could finally rest. The attacks continued happening, but was really rare, like… one time a month, and I stopped having hallucinations. Last year I moved from city and continued my life well and happy. But now, it is apparently happening again!

I started having those little body tremblings again, but now I can literally feel something slowly trying to take off my shirt. I was so naive that I never paid attention to this… thing… touching me and everytime I had these attacks I thought it was nothing special. Before yesterday I had an episode and I saw someone standing in front of my bed and observing something or just looking at nothing, these visions are always kind of blurry, so it looked like a blond, lean man. I didn't care about that and went back to sleep.

Now that I'm writing this it's 3:15 AM, and I don't want to go back to sleep.
Around 02:10 AM I put my phone to charge and tried to sleep, I wasn't even close to sleeping, and I felt the entity again, but this time it looked really angry — it tried to take off my shirt by force and started hitting me with it's hands, I saw it face to face, the vision was blurry and the room was dark but I could literally see some of its form by the energy it exhaled: it definitely didn't had a human form, and it was so angry I could feel it. It lasted no more than 2 seconds, and when it ended I turned on the lights and saw the bruises it did on my arms, to the point where my skin is now red. Suddenly, it all makes sense now, it was never epilepsy episodes, it is a sexual entity trying to feed on my energy. I told it to fuck off and turned my cell phone back on to try and tell this story to someone who is still awake yet, but everyone seems to be sleeping rn…

Does anyone who understands the arts of the esoteric/spiritual/whatever can help me get rid of it? I really don't want to go back to sleep now because I think it will try to attack me again.
I think this entity may be a male (incubus), I'm bisexual but prefer mostly guys…

Fun fact: since my birth until my 13 years old I were constantly haunted by "shadow people", but I got so used to these type of things that I don't even fear anymore, they even stopped appearing after that. So even though an entity tried to ra* me I wasn't scared, it's not like a bodiless creature could easily kill me."

This was the post I made. I also wanted to tell you that, for some reason, I'm more likely to feel and see entities than normal people, but it increases considerably during these epileptic episodes.
Also, I am now admitting to myself that I have an addiction to pornography content (not literal porn) and am willing to cure myself from this evil — after what happened to me, who wouldn't drastically start to change, right?

 

[Blitzkreig [TG]]

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It is not an incubus, for one thing, as they are Satanic and friendly to humans. Sounds like it was trying to disguise itself as a God by looking like a Nordic human, before striking.

Since you said it did not have a human form, then it is likely of the enemy, whether it is a thoughtform or something else.
Given that you are Satanically inclined and spiritually open, they are most likely trying to scare you away from your advancement.

Satan protects all who are dedicated and would help you with this if you choose to ally with him. That would be the quickest solution, especially if you are still working on, or have yet to create an aura of protection to shield yourself.

 

[Sundara]

Hi! I am 'Enkidu' and am new to Spiritual Satanism. I prefer to study everything I can about it before trying to practice things, and I just began reading about it, so I still have a really long path to walk.
I'm copying and pasting this post I made on Reddit because even though I'm new to SS, I already felt a deep connection and I feel like I can trust you guys, and I hope you can advise me about what I can do to get rid of this — possible — incubus.

I don't know if this is the right place to post it, but you'll probably correct me in the comments

"I'm Brazilian. English a little bit rusty, but the important thing is that you understand what I'm trying to say.

Years ago I had a little problem regarding some strange type of "epilepsy" while trying to sleep that also involved seeing strange entities in my room, and now that I got physically attacked by something it all makes total sense now…

It all started years ago when I was trying to sleep one night, but every single time I was close to finally start sleeping my body suddenly started to tremble involuntarily and I was unable to move my body to stop it, fortunately, these epilepsy attacks lasted a maximum of 2 seconds, and every time it happened I had strange visions, like seeing the head of a snake in front of me or someone in front of my bed watching me; I also had the feeling of someone literally trying to pull my leg.

It is worth mentioning that I never had a problem like this before and even after these events I were always exposed to possible epilepsy triggers and never had episodes. It just started in a random day and suddenly stopped days later. My mother thought it had some "spiritual" connection but I haven't believed her, although I believe that the electrical discharge in the brain caused by epilepsy attacks can temporarily activate some parts of the brain and have you see things you can't see in naked eye, it wasn't possible that I was being attacked by some type of entity.

After that horrible week where I couldn't sleep, everything finally stopped and I could finally rest. The attacks continued happening, but was really rare, like… one time a month, and I stopped having hallucinations. Last year I moved from city and continued my life well and happy. But now, it is apparently happening again!

I started having those little body tremblings again, but now I can literally feel something slowly trying to take off my shirt. I was so naive that I never paid attention to this… thing… touching me and everytime I had these attacks I thought it was nothing special. Before yesterday I had an episode and I saw someone standing in front of my bed and observing something or just looking at nothing, these visions are always kind of blurry, so it looked like a blond, lean man. I didn't care about that and went back to sleep.

Now that I'm writing this it's 3:15 AM, and I don't want to go back to sleep.
Around 02:10 AM I put my phone to charge and tried to sleep, I wasn't even close to sleeping, and I felt the entity again, but this time it looked really angry — it tried to take off my shirt by force and started hitting me with it's hands, I saw it face to face, the vision was blurry and the room was dark but I could literally see some of its form by the energy it exhaled: it definitely didn't had a human form, and it was so angry I could feel it. It lasted no more than 2 seconds, and when it ended I turned on the lights and saw the bruises it did on my arms, to the point where my skin is now red. Suddenly, it all makes sense now, it was never epilepsy episodes, it is a sexual entity trying to feed on my energy. I told it to fuck off and turned my cell phone back on to try and tell this story to someone who is still awake yet, but everyone seems to be sleeping rn…

Does anyone who understands the arts of the esoteric/spiritual/whatever can help me get rid of it? I really don't want to go back to sleep now because I think it will try to attack me again.
I think this entity may be a male (incubus), I'm bisexual but prefer mostly guys…

Fun fact: since my birth until my 13 years old I were constantly haunted by "shadow people", but I got so used to these type of things that I don't even fear anymore, they even stopped appearing after that. So even though an entity tried to ra* me I wasn't scared, it's not like a bodiless creature could easily kill me."

This was the post I made. I also wanted to tell you that, for some reason, I'm more likely to feel and see entities than normal people, but it increases considerably during these epileptic episodes.
Also, I am now admitting to myself that I have an addiction to pornography content (not literal porn) and am willing to cure myself from this evil — after what happened to me, who wouldn't drastically start to change, right?

It’s difficult to bring logic to these kinds of things but you’ll have to start studying and build more logic around this stuff. The epileptic episodes, perceptions, and pulling sensations as well as a snake in your vision all sound like kundalini symptoms with your mind perceiving this as an entity, and maybe you just didn’t know how to perceive it at the time. The sexual entity perceptions come into play with this. Try your best to take these visions or hallucinations as just an image that is not real and don’t get lost in it.

When it comes to spiritual types of experiences like this, or just the imagination, both negative and positive can follow. I’ve messed with my imagination for a long time, and I noticed patterns that when I would reach a higher states or just before, negative images would occur. These would occasionally have nothing to do with anything “real” astrally, and then a sort of breakthrough image and feeling would occur. I perceive and handle these things in a few different ways, but overall I feel like it is a part of the kundalini cleansing process. Gross feelings are tied to gross images and negative soul dross. Kundalini can knock people into a sort of psychosis and this can get really intense for people. What’s most important is that you get this under control, don’t think far into these things, and have a healthy lifestyle and meditation schedule. Shadow people and hallucinations aren’t really spiritual or always a part of this, there could be a neurological issue or psychological one. If these episodes didn’t come through meditation and just started happening then look into seeing some doctors.