Magick is always done for our own self gain. I think that you are still carrying baggage from before your conversion. Purge the enemy from your mind body and soul. Do a banishing ritual. Keep banishing until the enemy is totally gone, once and for all. As far a the Ouija board is concerned...

I also live in Missouri. I live my gay life openly and have a so what attitude about it. Most people who are so openly opposed to same sex relationships are usually fighting their own attraction to the same sex. I refuse to sit in the back of the bus , so to speak. Stay strong.