I clean my aura every evening and do rtrs every day. I try to meditate every day too but is little bit hard. I have lack of privacy now but the situation will be better, hopefully. Also my mind feels overactive. I have begun jog and even do yoga (almost) every day. I I don't know anything...

Hmm. Maybe I should do the ritual which Maxine gave months ago. I don't remember it's name. You have to light energy from the Sun. Hopefully I can find that. Thank you

I'm sorry. English is hard language for me. I hope you can understand something. I try to use simple sentences. Maybe I can write them correctly. It was last Sunday. I was cleaning something when tiny thought approved to my mind: "Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe there's nothing after death.". It...

My life is easier than yours. Still I have same feelings as you have (sorry English isn't my morher language). "I don't really want to summon any demon for help, because it feels so wrong" "But it seems nobody wants something like me" Sounds like my thoughts. I can't afford any...