I've read almost everything on the site and wow.. everything makes so much sense its scary! I want to do the initiation ritual however I read something about how if we still have conscious/subconscious ties to christianity were begging for disaster,ill admit I still have feelings for it but I...

This may sound blasphemic but I don't want to give my soul to Satan or anyone for that matter. However I have always felt like something is holding me back from my true potential and some lady read my tarot cards and said "tengo un cuadro espiritual" meaning my spirit is locked in a square. I...