Today was my most important day. I chose to dedicate my soul to Father Satan. But the Dedication Ritual went terribly... I could not get blood to flow from my finger (has tough skin)... And the candle fell off... (it was a tall candle, the only one I could get my hands on). I felt terrible...

Thank you for the reply as well. It really helps a lot. I talk to Father before I go to bed and as I wake up, several times during the day as well. I wish I could give him the best of me, to make him at least a bit happier with my actions. To please him. Again, thank you for the...

Thank you very much for the reply...! I appreciate it very much! I am planning to save up small bits of money to get an education. Another small problem is that my father died recently.. And my mother is very dependent on me. We are a somewhat poor family... However, I am determined to make of...