Right.....so I can only conclude they have something against me, and I don't know what that "something" might be. I am really troubled about this.

Hi, Steve, It may be that you are thinking too much along the lines of attaining something external. When you focus your mind on contact, do you ever begin to get something being said to you but you think, "Hold on...this is just me talking to myself....ignore that"? If so - try NOT dismissing...