i need some help. so many things have been going wrong for me. i pray to Him but all i get is more and more problems. whats wrong?

i want to be more in touch with Him. How?

ok awhile back my dad passed away and i could never think what could of happen to him. my brother wants me to start going back to a Christan church with them to help me figure accept his death. but ever sense my freshman year i've been researching and dedicating my life to satanism...now...