Thank you for understanding. I believe the way I approached this topic was a mistake. If I could do it again I would not have put any of my emotions into it. I just panicked and got angry then took your response the wrong way. I just have programming where I just assume everyone will treat me...

Well darn. I finally cleaned enough negativity out of my soul so now I can finally function and think again. I can do rtrs without getting headaches, I do a consistent 12 per day, I start doing online warfare and you still treat me like a piece of shit.

I live alone in a tent, homeless. Sort of in the middle of nowhere in a semi rural area. Tonight at around 10:30 I'm in my tent meditating. I'm interrupted when I see this white blue light at the corner outside. It was not a firefly which is what I hoped. I then saw the same light like 10 ft...