I'm feeling a lot like the Elite in my signature to be honest
Tough times are ahead, but we shall face them together as one family of Satanas

I did 7 days of HPS Lydia's emotional body healing working
Through those days I had random flashbacks to some of the most hurtful moments of my life
Part of me still feels emotionally numb and indifferent to everything
Yet part of me wants to scream and cry into the void, just to feel something again

Could autism just be the result of a debilitated Mercury in conjunction with a prominent Uranus?

Twice. Twice now those little grey bastards attacked me with nightmares of nuclear war and other horrific imagery as I sleep.
I won't get into too much detail about the nightmares, the experience was most unpleasant. After both nightmares, I woke up in a cold sweat, like in the movies.
But I must be doing something right, if I got their attention!

The hinduism of today is a corruption of the enemy, a mish-mash of Dravidian degeneracy, enemy teachings, and new age beliefs. This where cow urine drinking and cow dung worship, beastiality, etc all comes from in modern day hinduism.

In recent days, incredible manifestations and blessings have occurred in my life.
This is only just the beginning, more is yet to come! Ever since I was a kid, sometimes if I dwelled on a thought of having something, even if only for a little while, the thought would plant itself into my subconscious mind. Soon afterwards, the desire would manifest in reality. For example, when I was 13 I was reading about a video game that looked very interesting to me. I didn't consciously think about it for long. Some time later that month, my sister's boyfriend calls over and gives me a working copy of that game he found in a dumpster, for free. There are many other examples of similar experiences I've had throughout life but it's important not to be thinking constant negative thoughts. Working on my soul through power meditations for the past 2 years or so has also played a major part in this.
Thank you Father Satan, High Priestess Lydia and High Priest Hooded Cobra, and everyone else in the Joy of Satan for teaching me the importance of a positive mindset when it comes to manifesting my desires!

HAIL SATAN!

Sometimes, I have recurring dreams about Crocodiles. Could this be a sign of something or could it just be my mind dwelling on them?
In Ancient Egypt, Crocodiles were associated with the lower chakras and they were represented by deities like Sobek and Ammit

Some of you may be wondering why I have an Elite from the Halo video game series as my profile picture and a gif of one in my signature.
To put it simply, in Halo's lore the Elites were part of the Covenant, a strange Judeo-Xian like alien empire who sought to annihilate mankind.
The Covenant also worshipped a highly advanced, long extinct civilization known as The Forerunners and start what is called "The Great Journey" which is basically the path to salvation and life eternal, in other words, Godhood.
However, the leaders of the Covenant, The Prophets (who look like alien rabbis and popes) know that "The Great Journey" is only for them. They also know that Humans are in fact the direct descendants of the Forerunners, which is why they want them expunged. If this truth came to light, The Covenant would collapse.
The Elites, despite being humanity's enemies, always respected them. When the Prophets called for the Elites to be exterminated. the Elites joined forces with humanity and defeated The Covenant once and for all. The Elites also learned that humanity, the species they were tasked to destroy, were in fact their Gods all along.

Notice the parallel here to what we as Spiritual Satanists know?
Satan, who the enemy blasphemes and curses for all their existence, is our true creator God.
Like the Elites from Halo, I, who was once a xian, learned the truth and abandoned the xian faith and joined with you, my brothers and sisters in Satan and all of our old Gods and Goddesses.

To clean a chakra, do I inhale and visualize the chakra glowing with white-gold energy and vibrate RAUM or SURYA on the exhale? Also how many vibrations of the cleaning mantra should I do per chakra?

Looking back at my early life, it has become clear to me that I was always a Satanic soul.
I was the member of my family who was never baptised.
As a child I revered the old Gods of Egypt, I loved Dragons and I always liked demons more than angels, even if the enemy depicted them as monsters.
Dedicating my soul to Satan, studying astrology and learning of my true self, my strengths and my weaknesses through meditation feels like I'm picking up where I left off from a previous life, so long ago...

I'm nervous about beginning empowering my chakras. Should I vibrate into each chakra the respective mantra 30 times? For a total of 210 vibrations a day...

I love this new forum. It symbolizes rebirth. Death must give way to rebirth. Just as my old way of life is gone, so too opens the doors to new possibilities.
Better days are surely ahead.