One of the greatest feelings ever is waiting for your husband or wife to come home. Those who are married can attest to it—the anticipation of seeing your best friend and love again is out of this world. For me it's

The moment he walks through the door, the world feels right again, as if the missing piece of my heart has returned. His embrace is my safe haven, his smile the warmth that lights up even the darkest days.
He’s not just my husband; he’s my best friend—the one who knows my heart better than anyone, who laughs with me, dreams with me, and stands beside me through it all. No matter how long we've been together, that feeling never fades—it only grows stronger.

I had a final parting with the cousin who took his life and I asked lord Anubis to safe guard him to the Elysium fields.

Don't come after me I don't know the Egyptain version I told lord Anubis he was a great person and listed other things and that I vouch for him being a good person.

To be honest I feel like he is finally moved on completely and I said once my journey is over I will see you again

Things in life are never set in stone, and the feeling of uncertainty about life should be embraced as something normal. The sense of what’s about to happen courses through my veins, tightening like a corset.

That primal feeling I spoke of is like the warmth of a mother’s embrace and the strong, protective hug of a father. It's the call of a land, a memory buried so deeply in my veins that it sings only of its downfall.

I know something ancient is near—I feel it every time I look out my window. It’s a stranger, yet somehow familiar."

I finally decided to finally block my adopted family from my life once and for all . Even if it means I will be alone at the end of my life .

I can no longer stand by and beg for their approval or wait for them to call me . I am done wasting my life on people who don't care

I know I shouldn't blame myself for my cousin's death. He chose to leave this world. I keep telling myself there's nothing I could have done, yet in the back of my mind, I still hear:

"You could have done something but you didn't I looked up to him and I just want to scream

I am sorry I haven't been on much life and being a mom has gotten in the way.
Me and the hubby still haven't decided what we are going to do in the new Year.

I am pretty sure he is going to do a program that helps him find a job this un certainty is driving me nuts

As I am learning to understand myself as a person I figured out something about my self .

I faced darkness and I could have been consumed by it but I wasn't .

I was watching a tarot card video of you see this was meant for you.

on YouTube the lady pulled a card called shadow diver so I looked into it and it clicked with me so much . I think I found a missing part of my self I will share below what I found out about shadow divers


The term "Shadow Diver" as a spiritual gift could have multiple interpretations, often rooted in themes of intuition, deep insight, and the ability to navigate darkness. Here's a possible breakdown:

1. Symbolic Meaning

Shadow: Represents the unknown, hidden truths, personal or collective unconscious, and darker aspects of life or the self.

Diver: Implies the ability to delve deeply, explore, and uncover what lies beneath the surface.


Together, a "Shadow Diver" might be someone with the spiritual gift of exploring the hidden or darker aspects of reality to bring truth, healing, or understanding to light.

2. Potential Abilities of a Shadow Diver

Emotional Empathy: The capacity to connect with and understand others' pain or hidden struggles.

Spiritual Insight: Seeing beyond superficial appearances to reveal deeper truths or spiritual lessons.

Healing Darkness: Helping others confront and transform their fears, traumas, or hidden aspects of themselves.

Guidance in Chaos: Acting as a guide for those who feel lost in confusion, grief, or inner turmoil.


3. Related Archetypes or Roles

Shadow Worker: Someone who works to uncover and integrate shadow aspects of the psyche.

Seeker of Truth: A person driven to expose lies or hidden knowledge for the betterment of self or others.

Spiritual Guide: Offering insight into spiritual matters or transitions that seem dark or difficult.

Whispers of the Window

Not all who wander are lost,
Not all who are alone are lonely—
A mantra, a whisper, a fragment of truth
I’ve clung to time and time again.

This morning, I hear it anew,
As my husband steps into the grey dawn,
His shadow swallowed by the waiting world.
I stand at the single-pane window,
A soul in a run-down house
That creaks with the weight of lives before me.

The blinds fall like a curtain,
Cutting off the view but not the thoughts.
How many hands have brushed this same frame?
How many eyes have peered through this fragile glass?
How many hearts have beat alone
Within these walls, listening to their own silence?

The house speaks in whispers,
Its voice stitched together by echoes of time.
I can feel them—
The sorrow of a mother waiting for a soldier,
The joy of a child’s first steps across the warped floor,
The quiet ache of a man who worked himself to bone and dust.

Eight years I have called this place my own,
And yet, I am but a speck
In the endless stretch of its memory.
A drop in a bucket so vast,
It drowns my sense of permanence.

But still, I linger,
Bound to this house, this window, this life.
Not all who are alone are lonely—
I wonder if that’s what they told t
hemselves,
The ones who came before.

I want you all to forgive me I get in the mood to hide from everyone it's nothing anyone has done or the gods .

Sometimes I like to be alone though I am hardly on anymore I still believe in the gods .

I just need some space and time for my self. I love each and every one of you

Here’s a spoken word poem inspired by your vision. I went for something with mystical depth, evoking that encounter with Anubis on the beach and the profound solitude.


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In the Presence of Gods

I had a dream once,
on a beach many years ago,
where time stood still,
and the weight of every forgotten year
pressed into the soles of my feet.
I remember the rocks crunching beneath me,
sharp reminders that I was there,
really there.

The air smelled of salt and something ancient,
something older than memory itself.
The ocean stretched out before me,
grey, endless, vast—
like the edge of the world itself.
And I was alone,
no soul in sight,
just me and the endless sea.

For minutes, I walked in that quiet,
each step an echo swallowed by waves.
And then—
in the distance, a shape took form,
a figure,
half man, half dog,
like the statues from stories,
like the god Anubis
come to life.

He stood there by the water,
still as stone, watching, waiting,
and I knew—
I was in the presence of something holy,
something that knew me
better than I knew myself.

As I drew closer, I saw them, too—
people, silent, watching,
their faces soft as whispers in dreams.
And when I looked behind me,
there were temples rising from the sand,
buildings tall as memories,
a city built by hands
long turned to dust.

I stood there, between two worlds,
between the endless ocean and an ancient shore,
feeling the weight of gods upon me,
feeling the pull of something beyond.

And in that place, that moment,
I understood that I was never alone,
that all things have a memory,
and even gods walk beaches
when no one else can see.

As you know, Trump won the election, and I understand that opinions on him are mixed—some people love him, others don’t. All I want is to be able to spend less on food to feed my small family.

With that out of the way, my question is: what is the God’s plan for America? It seems like America is the linchpin holding the whole world together.

If America falls the world falls

I am starting a 30 day meditation so I won't be online for a while my guardian wants me to meditate and ground myself for the next 30 days .

Here is what color magic is and there meanings

Color magic is the practice of using specific colors to influence energy, emotions, or outcomes in magical rituals and spellwork. In many belief systems, colors are associated with particular meanings, symbols, and vibrations that can affect different aspects of life. By incorporating colors in candles, crystals, clothing, or even visualizations, practitioners aim to amplify certain energies to achieve desired results.

Red: Passion, love, energy, strength, courage, protection

Orange: Creativity, joy, enthusiasm, success, confidence

Yellow: Communication, intellect, happiness, clarity, focus

Green: Abundance, growth, health, nature, prosperity, fertility

Blue: Calm, healing, intuition, peace, clarity, protection

Purple: Spirituality, wisdom, power, psychic ability, transformation

Black: Protection, banishing, endings, mystery, grounding

White: Purity, healing, clarity, peace, protection, all-purpose

Pink: Love, friendship, compassion, emotional healing

Gold: Success, abundance, wealth, enlightenment

Silver: Intuition, psychic abilities, mo
on magic, reflection

Colors are often chosen based on the intention of the spell or ritual, as different colors align with different areas of life or types of energy.

From the meany picture I have took
Happy fall guys

I just wanted to take a moment to say how much you all mean to me. The joy and gifts that you, along with the gods, helped me rediscover are things I thought were gone forever."

I hope to get myself out there more in the forums. I will try to post about the magic I practice, and hopefully, one day, share a real talk on my magical journey.

Hopefully, in the coming days, I will post about sympathetic magic, color magic, and how I incorporate them into my everyday life, alongside the rites and rituals I perform to the gods

Can someone tell me what funeral rites I can do for someone that has already past

I am going to post about the gods and why they created fall to teach us soon

Can someone clear this up is Hades or Thanos the god of death Hades as I know him rules the underworld. Thanos is the god of death

I am so freaking happy I cooked chicken thighs with shells and cheese praying I didn't mess it up . The hubby loved it asked what I put on there

Only thing I did was onion powder, Italian seasoning, garlic powder and bake for a hour and a half

I got two big dates coming up in October and that is my marriage and my SS anniversary . It's been one heck of a year so far and I hope to have a meany more years to come

If I was ever annoying I do apologize

You guys should read the still water girls its a good book